Saturday, September 30, 2006
lalala...my dumb bro is dumb... wa lao someone playing game ask u dun disturb go away den u still stand thr for wat...-.-'' sheesh im irritated. kuma came over 2day and my bro played the whole time and made her realli realli mad. my mum too. yea, i mean lyk...someone comes over n u juz stay on the com the whole time n dun even show some respect? haiz... so hopeless... he made kuma n my mum scream at him for lyk... 1 whole hr b4 he finally got off the com when they pulled him off. so lame lahs. i cant believe i ve such a crappingly lame brother... he's totally ruining my reputation!!! ok well sth liddat lahs....
oh and my frens in sch...caroline n wenyi n munfoong n zoey....i mean....im realli irritated at them lah...zoey's ok, juz that i tink she follows them around too much....and munfoong is probably the one who annoys me the most...i mean, ok u learn a piano song until ur expert at it (a beginner piano song onli) and everyday during recess when we go to the piano u ve to play that song over n over again. please lah. go learn a new song or sth lah. its lyk...we're all trying to learn new songs, and u keep wanting to play the old one. we already noe how to play it lah! for goodness sake! she's lyk...sooo slow. even slower than zoey, who's currently learning how to play lyk...the most simple song that we all noe! the one that munfoong keeps wanting to play over n over again is the 2nd simplest song that we noe. lame lah. caroline's fine, but cos munfoong's her gd fren n so when munfoong plays that song, she folos. which i feel is dumb. she's lyk..halfway trying to teach zoey how to play piano then munfoong says, 'Let's play that song again,' and starts playing that song for the millionth time. wenyi's sorta ok, but sometimes i juz feel she's too talkative n always in a happy mood, which im definitely not. im always so gloomy and thr she goes chattering away abt everything under the sky which total irritates me when she does that. altho im fine with her when i feel happy, bright n talkative too.
the most irritating thing is what munfoong does when im gloomy. ok so when ur gloomy u juz stay at a corner n shut ur mouth. so thats what i do. dun everyone? and munfoong just HAS to mention, 'Jane's so quiet.' wa lao...she seriously gets on my nerves. i mean, she noes that im gloomy and in a bad mood but she doesnt noe that ppl liddat keeps quiet. argh... at least caroline and wenyi try to cheer me up when im gloomy. altho sometimes wenyi cant tell when im in a bad mood. which is why im currently so irritated at my frens. ok so for the first few weeks that i bcame their gd frens, we talked a lot bcos it was fun being frens. but im sooo not that kind of person, so i slowly bcame quieter n then they notice n still act as if im alright and talk to me a lot.[it realli bugs me when ppl talk a lot when im in a bad mood]
after being in the sch for almost a year...i still wish i was with my old frens...lyk muni and deen and cl. they noe so much more abt me. lyk muni keeps quiet when im in a bad mood. deen folos. and cl asks me what's wrong. they're so much better. i wish i could go back to p6ge...or mayb be transferred to dunman high or rgs....i realli do miss my real frens so much... and i ve a feeling i wont be able to find anyone lyk them in my sch....
if i lay here, if i just lay here, would u lie with me and just forget the world?
signing out.
6:01 PM
Thursday, September 28, 2006
hie... erms for quite a long time my bro was using the com lyk almost 24/7 so den my dad got angry and unplugged the com. den aft that he say we can use if we fix it back n onli use for 1 hr a day - referring to my bro lahs. so i can use my com but now my bro is breaking the 'rule' again. 1st day he v. guai, play 1 hr. 2nd day play 3 hrs. 3rd day play 5 hrs. wat crap lah. so angry at him. sux...rite now im in sch, media club cca, cos onli the sec 1s cos we dun ve exams so we still ve to go for cca. so nth to do, use the com lor... im also playing neopets. ve ting xie tml and nxt mon n tue gt sci test. quite fun lah altho it wastes my time...i currently ve some problems so yea... blog another time. cya!erm yea and this is what my fren just typed: [linghui here. i rock rock rock!!!!!!yay! tell you a secret caroline is evil and so she sucks! shhh... dont tell her ok?ok deal!]
signing out.
3:52 PM
Monday, September 18, 2006
ok...so i hvnt gone online for many days. nt my fault, man. since i slacked so much during the hols, its juz my punishment. had to do homework...nvr ending...until now. had eng lit test today(mon). tue is chi test. wed is geog test. thur is eng test. chi i studied already, geog still studying, eng no nid to study. going quite well. fri is free. den nxt mon ve hist test and tue ve...oh shit i forgot...um....lemme think......sheesh i cant rmb...oh checked liao, its maths test. as if i even nid to study for that. and nxt fri ve ting xie - chi 'spelling'. nxt nxt mon n tue ve sci tests. sad rite? but we ve lots of hols [grrr...that's our compensation, ya crappy teachers...] anws we deserve a break, ya know? and during dec hols i tink i'll invite wenyi n caroline over [if my parents allow at all] cos they wanna learn how to play the violin n wenyi says she'll teach me new songs on the piano. oh btw, im getting a new violin [adult size, last size u can get frm a violin] cos my old one [3/4 size] is too small.
yesterday...my dad asked me to download his hp pics onto the com but i didnt noe how to use the program so i asked my bro to do it. while he was doing, i made a lot of noise [my bad] and he threw a book and box at me [still dun nid to b so violent. stupid brother.] den after that he asked me to pick up the stuff but i said no. after a while, i sneezed. [oi nt my fault lahz! as if thr's a rule against sneezing. and nt as if i can control it lor] and my bro shouted 'shut up'. den [seriously nt my fault, it wasnt purposely] i sneezed again. and my bro got real angry and wanted to hit me. and in order to hit me, he must make sure i dun run away so he grab my hand first. i cant run, den what to do? hit him back lah! unless u wan me to get hit. so i used the hand that he grabbed to scratch him. real hard. *guilty conscience...* [onli a bit tho] and he let go. den he hit me and i kicked him and he got irritated n juz sat back down on his chair. by that time, our mum came in liao. cos we were shouting while fighting. and when she came in i was already crying....yea....so after that i went into my room n locked the door n washed my face.
den my mum banged on the door and asked me to open. ok so i open. den she asked,'since when did u become so wild? u see the scratch on his arm so bad, can see leh' and i wasnt happy n told her back 'he throw things at me and wan to hit me leh' while crying again....after that she scold my bro and i could hear him say back,' also no nid to scratch me rite?' i was so mad at him lah. sadly, i didnt tell my mum that he wanted to hit me bcos of me sneezing. if nt, she surely scold him and nag at him for v.v.v. long. hmph, should ve told her. he deserve it. huo gai.
finally after soooo many years...finally i gt my 'revenge'. sounds so evil rite? well if u wanna listen to all the times when he hit me for no reason and bully me, that's lyk....20 times more evil...or more. now im nt talking to him and i wonder how long it'll last. i ve a small scratch too bcos he hit me but its v. little and already going to heal finish. somehow for so many years b4 that, when he bully me, i'll juz go into my room n cry. i juz feel so...i dunno...powerless. its lyk...he juz bully me until i beg him and plead for him to stop. i've always been on the losing end. my parents couldnt do anything abt it either. he's damn stubborn and violent. the onli person in the family he doesnt dare hit is my dad. cos my dad will hit him back realli hard. but my bro even hits my mum lah! i mean lyk...she's ur mum? she gave birth to u? she cares for u? she buys and cooks food for u everyday? and u still can hit her?! and nt hit as in light ones...he'll kick her v. hard and throw stuff at her [i dun mean paper or wad...it could b lyk...a pen or a pencilbox or sth sharp or even a bag] i realli dunno how long i can tolerate him. someday...when i grow up and get enough money....if he doesnt move out, im going to move out. i juz cant stand him. imagine living with someone who bullies u at least once a day....
haiz...ok nxt topic....now instead of juz playing maple, im also starting with neopets n puzzle pirates. i noe neopets is kinda lame...puzzle pirates is fun. i share acc with my bro for pp...but i dunno if i shld juz change the pass....since im so angry with him...but someday i'll still ve to forgive him rite? better now than later...actually im quite close to him if he doesnt bully me... and he can help me play and earn money too XD he's good at games. i wanna go play now...cant wait...spent too much time blogging...cyaz! [btw, now my mum works frm 3 - 7 and my dad works frm morning to 7. they come home around 7.15? 7.20? yea somewhr thr]
its a nightmare in here......help......
signing out.
4:30 PM
Friday, September 08, 2006
70th posthihi peeps. im using my teacher's laptop now...hahas...i noe im not supposed to, but cos njrc was yesterday, den my teacher had sth on so she had to go, and the laptop was left behind cos we were still using it, so i brought it home. njrc was ok lah...tho we got 0 pts...hahas....so lame...but a lot of schs also gt 0 lors...and we're noobs/beginners, so wadya expect? sec 1 onli somemore lor... a lot of ppl thr sec 2 sec 3 liddat de... me n sherlyn [n jolene] had a sorta quarrel lahs...cos sherlyn wanted to bring back the robot n the laptop, but i wanted to bring back the laptop. den no one wanted to bring home the box with robot parts, and jolene didnt wan to bring home anything, tho we made her bring home the plastic bag with the sch flag. hahas. lame. den i didnt care so i juz grabbed the laptop n went off, and i saw sherlyn take the robot n go off, but her dad parked the car n went to buy macs so i dunno if she took the box. if she didnt, den it's probably left thr cos no one wans to take it home. i realli hope sherlyn brought home the box tho...i'll say sry to her on tue if she brings the box to sch...heh...i noe im v. mean....but that's how i am...njrc ended yesterday, tho we're actually supposed to go on sat, but none of my team members wan to go so i told our teacher n she say can cancel the side events n not go. so that's what we decided. but ling hui frm the other grp was saying that we were irresponsible cos we signed up for it but now we wan to quit. if we had to go on sat, i'd probably ve to go to sch today, which is sucky. lucky dun ve to go on sat. no more njrc, i feel sooooo relaxed lahs. so i've been slacking for lyk...the whole day.....but seems to me a few hrs onli cos in the afternoon our mum n kuma came [our mum went to kuma's hse yesterday cos kuma's fren told her sth abt the spirit of the dead coming back to visit the hse on the 7th day of death. our grandma died on 1st sept, so that's the 1st day. so 7th day is 7th sept, which is yesterday, so my mum went to slpover thr.] and brought me n my bro out for lunch. we took lyk...2 hrs....ppl eat really slow....we went to seoul garden - fun to cook the stuff urself, but sometimes u get sick of it. i took lyk...1 hr to eat n aft tat i had to sit thr n watch 3 other ppl eating 2nd helping...-.-'' did i mention that i eat super little? haiz.... so after that we came back...yea...and my mum n kuma went back to kuma's hse - my mum say she staying wif kuma one more day cos if nt kuma cant slp... and they left around evening...ya...so after that me n my bro were glued to the com n laptop....hahas...nth much rite now...playing neopets...so lame...but cos im nt allowed to dwnld maplestory... actually im nt even supposed to b on the internet, but my hse ve xtra internet cable, so i plugged it in lors. XD btw, xing jun also asked me to go do cip with her on sat n sun, but seeing that i ve a pile of hw n revision to complete still, i said i'd try going on sun if my hw is all done. i dun tink it'd b done anytime soon tho... heyz i wanna go play neopets liao...lols... its ok lah...quite fun actually, cos gt diff types of games for u to choose. oh well, better get playing, cyaz!
signing out.
8:59 PM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
hie...hahas....so lame....erm....ok this is so weird... yesterday and today, had to go chij toa payoh to test our robot....and we took a taxi thr n back lahs[our teacher pays, so no worries], so...yesterday, while me n my frenz were taking taxi thr, well....the taxi fare was $10.30...yea....erm....and den we were thr in the morning, reached chij toa payoh around 9.15 lahs...den our instructor supposedly...supposed to come at 10.30am lahs....ya, so weird lors... but in the end he dint come.
tml i nid to go sch again...program that dumb robot....now im so busy, feel lyk quitting njrc lor....but cannot...sad....we still ve side events leh....ve to build the dumb robot for side event....realli feel lyk juz backing out frm the dumb competition. yupz...todae i using a lot of dots lahs...juz feel lyk its so boring...dots make it even more boring...yea...wadeva....
my bro wans to use the com soon...im so angry at him i shant talk to him - juz now he dun let me use, n my dad said he's been using frm morning to evening lah! stupid bro, stupid bro, stupid bro...haiz...fine i'll let him use the dumb com cos i wanna go watch tv anws...so cyaz!
signing out.
10:08 PM
Sunday, September 03, 2006
eyes filled with tears, but what's the point?
my grandmother passed away on fri, 1 sept, teacher's day around 10.30am....i was lyk...half an hr too late to see her still alive. on thurs my mum told me we'd b going to visit grandma on fri, but we took long to get ready b4 going....we shld ve hurried and we'd ve seen grandma b4 she died, at least. and when we went in to c grandma, my mum cried realli badly...i cried mainly cos my mum was upset....[so lame rite?] and nt realli cos my grandma was gone... but for the later part of the day, i was quite joyful cos the ppl around me were too. lyk my bro, and my cuz gina, and my cuz's[geraldine] daughter deanna.
so after that me, my mum n bro went to kuma's house, and later the ppl brought grandma's body thr, in a grand coffin.[at least it looked grand to me] not bring it to the house, but sth lyk the void deck of a block, a place whr special events r held. den gail, gina and leon came. at first we didnt realli talk, onli more of me and gina. she's the most enthu among the 3 of them. leon is the most quiet one. but he's nice when u get to know him. hvnt seen or talked to them for so long....but this time, we're gonna stay close cos we saved each other's hp no. for the 3 days that we met up.[the coffin was thr for 3 days]
dun wanna go into the details, i'll juz say the fun stuff first....ok, 1st night, me, my bro n uncle steven stayed up to look after the place. altho my bro fell aslp 2 mins after eating biscuit? lols. he slept for almost the whole time. uncle steven sorta slept too. i slept a bit.
2nd night was much more fun. at first, me, my bro, uncle steven, benson, leon, deanna, and geri stayed up. benson n my bro played chi chess while me and leon watched and laughed at benson.[benson is a v. lousy player, and my bro is v. pro] i guess me and leon are sorta average players... considering that none of us are in chess club cca or anything of that sort. after they finished the game, my bro taught benson how to play international chess, while he and leon played against each other to show benson an example. the least no. of steps needed to win is 4, and my bro won in 4 steps. that's so cool lors. deanna, geri and uncle steven were chatting. after we got bored of chess, geri's husband came to send her home.[i tink it was around 3am] den leon brought deanna around the neighbourhood while me n my bro were hogged on benson's hp game. uncle steven juz kept walking around the place. den, when leon and deanna were back, we sat around and started thinking of what to do. i tried on benson's skates [which were in his car] but i guess i forgot how to skate and his were too big anw. when i was done, e guys came up with a game. tink of a word/phrase and draw it on paper and get ppl to guess. so for example, bridge over troubled waters, and my bro drew a bridge and violent waves underneath it. that went on for quite long. after that, uncle steven lay down to slp/rest. and benson n my bro got sleepy too. my bro lied down too. den leon and me brought deanna around the neighbourhood again, so that benson had to keep awake cos no one else was looking after the place. den we came back and benson was falling aslp so i threw peanuts at him. hahas. he threw back at me -.-'' and den we juz sat around n talked. den deanna went to benson's car to slp, and me and leon started feeling slpy and and slept for a while on the table.[benson was talking to uncle steven - adult's talk][stupid benson. after leon left, he told me that when we slp, leon was facing me n i was facing him and we 2 looked so sweet.... -.-'' so wu liao lah he. we're cousins, cousins r lyk bro n sis, dun ve to b so what lor....nxt time im gonna throw something bigger at benson]
3rd day, also today, is the funeral service. it was at mandai. they incinerated the coffin and den tml some ppl r going out to sea to throw the ashes. im nt going cos i ve to test the dumb njrc robot tml and anw, the boat can onli hold 10 ppl. 2day at the funeral service, my mum was crying realli badly. she was lyk...the worst among everyone. but i guess its nt her fault...and anw she's the youngest among all her siblings. but its realli realli hard to get her to calm down, cos after a while she'll calm down, but when someone talks to her or tries to comfort her again, she'll start crying again. i cried realli badly at first, much worse than my cousins, but when i saw the coffin being automated into the incinerator and when everyone started crying and sobbing realli realli v. loudly, for some reason i just didnt cry. i felt so calm....i dunno why....
well that's all for now, i ve to wake up earli to go to sch tml and my mum's gonna b angry if i take v. long to wake up. btw, currently im chatting with gina on msn. hahas. oh xtra info on cuz in our family: [name - age: sherlyn - 30+. geraldine - 30+. benson - 24. gail - 22. gina - 19. leon - 13. jan - 16. jane - 12.] so obviously im the youngest, and leon is 2nd youngest so of course we're quite close lahs, anws 1 yr diff onli lor, nt lyk everyone else. i also found out that leon's bday is same as my best fren's bday - 17 Nov. altho leon is 1 yr older than my fren lahs.
eyes wet with tears, but what's the point?
signing out.
10:56 PM
