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oh no. again. i have been slacking the whole day. i woke up at 2pm today cos my dad called me up and he said my mum would be coming back soon. when i heard that, i sat up right away and became wide awake. i quickly went to wash up and eat lunch. haha. was scared my mum would come home and start scolding me. its not that im scared of her scolding me actually, just that i really dont feel like hearing her go on for hours. so i ate and then i turned on the computer. i was thinking to myself 'just turn it on lah, can leave it on while doing homework later' and in the end, i spent the whole afternoon, evening, and night surfing the net. and i didnt even start on any homework. at all. right now im thinking about what a huge pile of homework i have, because i still have the holiday homework to do, which will take a very long time to finish. and even though i have monday to do them, i just wasted one whole day doing nothing. I HATE IT WHEN IM LAZY. but then i love it too, because i like slacking.

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thursday night i reached home 9.15pm after theory lesson, ate dinner, and turned on the computer at 10pm. instead of doing work, i just surfed the net for 2 whole hours!! i played a bit, then updated friendster a bit, then i also dunno do what. then i fell asleep around 12am. my mum woke me up at 1am, and i panicked cos it was so late already. i decided to do the environment poster first cos i said that i'd do it. took about an hour because i did it really slowly, even though its quite plain and simple. then from 2am - 2.30am, i studied maths. took down important notes and stuff. 2.30am i went to sleep, but sadly i couldnt sleep cos my bro was making a lot of noise frm his room. i dont know what was wrong with him that day. he never does that. i was only able to fall asleep a while after the knocking/slapping sound stopped - 3am, so i fell asleep around 3.15am. and i woke up at 5.45am, which means that i had 2 and a half hours of sleep. i thought i'd be really sleepy but i wasnt sleepy at all in school the whole day. i was like 'ohmygod' cos i slept so little yet not sleepy.

after school i went home with cryst. we went sun plaza... actually wanted to ask munjun come but cos at first cryst sms him, no answer, then i called him [we were wearing earphones] then he say 'hallo? hallo? hallo?' his voice sounded so damn weird that we 2 were laughing ourselves silly that we couldnt answer. lol. then he hanged up on us. sad lah. then cryst tried calling him again he nvr answer. cryst say sekali his handphone kena confiscated. lol. hope not. we went library and planned to do homework or something there but sort of got chased out. lol, not really lah, but then down thr like no table n chairs n its crowded, so we sit on floor and do, then librarian say dun do our work there, so we leave lor. we went kfc after that and ate lunch there, then cryst did homework. i wanted to do but... couldnt concentrate at all. started feeling sleepy. smsed my kor cos cryst was sms her er zi and erm. i forgot. izzit her kor? i think so. lol. yah then my kor say last time nvr sms me cos his handphone no money - he use hi-card. sad... if i keep smsing him will i be wasting his money? better not sms him so often bah. but then he say now he got money. lol. anyway, me and cryst left sun plaza around 5pm.

i going home that time was feeling so damn sleepy!!! i've never been that sleepy before i think. normally even if im slpy, still can stay awake for at least 5 mins, this one cannot at all. 1 min also cannot. at the most can stay awake for half a min, then like half-alseep again. anyway, i took train, then on the train i like want to sleep liddat then my kor reply and then i like nvr really read his sms, just like take out my handphone then put back. then at the stops i think i almost fell out of the train lah. lol. cos i was standing next to the door, then it open for ppl to come in mah. i dunno what i was doing. then get off the train i walk home right, got one part is sheltered long stretch of path, then got metal bars at the side then i like leaned too much to the left and my hand passed it then got the weird screeching sound and my hand was pain, but it still didnt wake me up. then i walk to the lift that time, almost bang into a wall!!! lol. cos my eyes were half-closed, then i like walking walking then suddenly 'eh, why got this white thing in front of me arh?' and then i realised its a wall and i was just half a step away from banging into the wall. when i reach home, my dad wanted me to go down buy light bulb. that made me awake. but then i dun wan go so i told him i wanted to sleep cos jus now almost bang into a wall. he was abit disappointed i think...

i went to bathe then dried my hair and slept on the chair from 6.30pm to 8.30pm. 2 hours. my mum woke me up and told me to go eat dinner. i still felt kinda sleepy but i didnt say anything and went to eat. i realised that if i sleep very late, i'll be wide awake for the whole school day but will be extremely sleepy nearing late afternoon. lol. its not that bad. seems good that i keep so awake in class. other people like peishan and zhuangyun sleep at 12 or so, then they sleepy. lol. if i sleep around 12 i'll be sleepy in school too. haha. but its good to sleep so late either, so i only sleep that late if i have something really important on. anyway, talking about sleep, i need to sleep soon cos its already 1.40am and i still want to catch up on sleep. i think i'll wake up late tml. good. and then i must do homework tml. yay monday is youth day holiday. and my chem teacher is cool.

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oh no. i said it more than a hundred times today. really. i dunno whats gotten into me. anyway, i changed my bag cos the black sling one was too heavy for me and i read a newspaper article about backbones. also, i needed it for theory later that day so yeah. used back my normal blue one. handed up my chinese online review 2 today - YES! FINALLY! i stayed in class during recess to file my english stuff. had this weird bhangra dance event today and they made all of us stand up to dance, but it was alright, just that we were sweating quite badly in our pinafores. went lunch with crystal, yiinghuey, and sharon. XD cryst followed me to staff rm to pass stuff to teacher then i followed her to the art gallery cos she had to do her art hw. aft tt we both went for cca. had course today and it was quite boring. but i did listen a little and drew a cute little pig. [copied the one on the screen. LOL.] XD i went home with wanjane only, cos wenyi went for pa and we couldnt contact her. went early for theory lesson today and i caught up in a few minutes. XDDD yay me. haha. i was doing maths stuff during lesson too cos have maths test tml and i was trying to study. wasnt too effective though, but it helped a bit i suppose. i havent studied for maths yet and i still have to make a poster, so i cant post too long, not enough time to spare. yiinghuey says shes sleeping at 3am. wowee. haha. i might sleep at around 1am. normally i sleep 12am. cya then.

p.s.: and i seriously need new shoes. but my mum's not gonna buy so i've just gotta make do with these.

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MONDAY 25th JUNE 07

first day of school. i posted a bit in the previous post. my shoe was terrible, kept hurting me. i slept at 12am. came home tired, and rushed my geog online at night. after that i wanted to sleep but helped out my dad with the computer a little and had a good laugh, cos the computer was acting weird. i said it was siao and my dad said it got bitten my a mosquito and had malaria. lol. anyway, later i told him that if mum scold me cos i sleep late, then i'll say its cos i was helping him. i kinda said it purposely cos i was sleepy. lol. then he looked at the time quickly and told me to go to sleep in a stern voice, saying that whoever's work i was doing, must still sleep early, so i didnt need to do his work le.

TUESDAY 26th JUNE 07

me and yiinghuey finished our maths playground and handed it up, so one less project. morning jog was ok for me, didnt feel too tired or whatsoever. went home with wenyi and wanjane after cca. seemed quiet without the sec4s... my feet started hurting again when i got off the train. stupid shoes, hope i get used to them soon. lucky they didnt hurt while i was doing morning jog. feel sleepy these few days cos not used to the tiring school schedule yet. anyway, today i was talking about our class results and my mum started on the topic of 'me not doing well enough' again. or in another way of saying, 'i am stupid'. she said i couldnt even make it into justice and loyalty and then now i cant even get into the top few places in wisdom. and she added that wenyi was in loyalty. [thats a compliment, wenyi, if ur reading this] ugh. i dont like talks like that. really makes me feel very 'mao dun' cos i know that i didnt do well enough but yet i dont care about my results. so how?

WEDNESDAY 27th JUNE 07

home ec practical test was terrible. i took ages to sew that stupid thing. anyway we have a new chem teacher mr teo. hes ok, but teaches fast. the whole class stayed back for physics extra lesson which was fun. XDD i went home with yiinghuey and charlene, and realised for the 6th time this week that sling bags were heavy. 1st time - mon morning. 2nd time - mon aftnn. 3rd time - tue morn. 4th time - tue aftnn. 5th time - wed morn. i reached home around 4.30pm. fell asleep while i was using the com aft i bathed, and woke up at 6.30pm, realising that i was going to be late for violin lesson. violin lesson today was weird. halfway through the scales which i was playing very badly, the teacher gave a long talk about learning violin properly and being focused. was the longest-ever talk i heard by him so far. anyway after that quickly played a bit more and i went home after that, and my feet started hurting again on the way home. DAMN. its always the bottom of my left feet. PAIN SIA.

okay anyway i need to eat dinner now - its 8.50pm and im hungry - and later i need to do homework. so dont really have much time today. again. argh. oh well. hope the person who's reading this is having more fun than me..

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i havent been blogging for a long time, due to some problems at home - im not allowed to use the computer so often anymore. anyway, a lot has happened recently [well, quite a lot to me] and today is already the first day of school. i shall start with my holidays, so this post might be long.

I went for the RosythP6GE05 chalet on thursday and friday and it was fun, i suppose. anyway, yay cos my mum allowed me to go in the end. she was really angry on wednesday, you see. i persuaded her by packing on wednesday night and telling her on thursday morning, so she didnt really have much of a choice. i met the guys and muni at pasir ris mrt stn and the other gals came later. people who came? too many for me to remember, so i cant name. XD which is good. when most of us were there already, the girls went to the food court at whitesands to eat lunch and the boys went macs, i think. i ate dessert and still couldnt finish it. guess i really had no appetite. the guys came to the food court later and after we were done, we all went to take the shuttlebus to aloha loyang. it was really crowded because of us and 2 or 3 guys had to stand up. yay the gals went in first so we all got seats. when we reached, we realised that we could only go to the chalet at 3pm, so we stayed in the arcade there and played or just hanged around. it was a nice place. (: after that we all went to B5, the guy's chalet and hanged around a while. later the girls went to B7 to leave our bags and went back to B5 to play. i did play a bit of badminton with muni, deen and sugi. a lot of the guys were watching tv and playing cards. after a while me, deen and sugi played cards too and tg joined us.

anyway, around 7pm, we tried to get the bbq started. i watched a bit [couldnt really help... i didnt know a thing about it...] and then muni really wanted to go back to bathe first before coming back for the bbq [she was being chased by a number of people - or 1 - quite a while ago, and was all sweaty], so i followed her back to B7, where chewlin and shiying were watching tv. after that, the 4 of us left for B5 to have the bbq. when we got back, the fire was started and satay was cooking. someone said 'qian yun' and i walked by. turned back and realised that it was [OMG!] hu lao shi. our p6 chinese and form teacher. it seems that tg invited her and mr. grosse but he couldnt come. awww... that was sad. mr. grosse's really nice. wonder if tg invited the other teachers? i miss mrs tong and ms ho too. i ate a bit and talked a bit, hu lao shi asked if we knew that ms ho had transferred to another school. we all knew that she had gone to be vp at rulang. and hu lao shi brought her kids and they were so cute! hehe. one boy one girl. i rmb she brought them during our last chalet too. after bbq, a big group of them played truth or dare, which i didnt join. me, muni, jaz, weng hong, oss, and kieng wee stayed at the bbq pit and cooked whatever there was. lol. was quite fun though, we talked.

after the games and all, the girls went back and bathed, and watched tv. i fell asleep for about 2 hours, around the end of the movie we were watching. sad... missed the ending, but they said it wasnt very good. when i woke up, i saw shiying, deen, and muni playing taiti [how do u spell it?] and drinking milo. my whole left leg was numb and i was upset that i fell asleep, cos i was planning to stay up whole night. chewlin was asleep on another sofa. i went to make milo for myself, then played taiti with them. after that we played uno. chewlin woke up from time to time. after we played our games, we cleared the tables and wanted to wash up but realised that there wasnt any sponge. so we [me, muni, deen, shiying, chewlin] sneaked over to B5 and found most of the guys still awake, some in the hall some in the rooms. tg passed us a sponge and we pretended to go off, but sneaked back to disturb them. [we were quite bored] we knocked on their room windows and even dropped a twig in after a while, but they knew it was us i think, and didnt really bother. just threw the twig back out. sian... not fun de. we went off soon after, when shiying's handphone rang really loudly and she answered loudly too.

the next morning, we went over to B5 around 8am, after we had all packed up. the guys were talking, watching tv, playing cards, or just nodding off in their chairs. lol. we all ate breakfast [i ate 2 pieces of plain bread, didnt have much appetite.] and hanged around for a while after that. when we were supposed to go, we went to downtown east [because of some ppl...] and went to the arcade there, which some people really wanted to go to, and some didnt. we were supposed to go to pasir ris park. argh. after we were there for quite some time already, muni was pissed and went home. me, chewlin, shiying, deen and sugi went off to pasir ris park. we rented bicycles and cycled for 2 hours, except shiying, who had her own bike and went off earlier cos she had to go home. after that the 4 of us went to downtown east to eat lunch, and then went home. chewlin waited there for her dad to fetch her, while me, deen and sugi took the bus to pasir ris mrt stn. deen took bus from thr, and sugi went to the pasar malam, so i took the mrt allllll the wayyy back home.

i was really tired when i got home, so even though i had wanted to wash my clothes on my own, couldnt cos i fell asleep and my mum washed for me instead. i expected her to be in a bad mood, but she was in an ok mood. but then in the evening i said something wrongly and she became in a really bad mood. i realised that the phrase 'who cares' is as bad as a swear word and if i say it in front of either of my parents, they will explode on the spot. ah well, just have to be more careful next time. was really tired and didnt even manage to finish my maths stuff cos i slept halfway. i think i went to bed around 10pm - 11pm. wowee.

on sunday i went to bishan library to do chinese project with alicia, zhuangyun, lydia and felicia. met alicia and zhuangyun at bishan mrt and alicia brought us to the library. i had no idea where it was. i didnt even know that there was a library anywhere near j8. we were supposed to do from 4 - 6.30pm but we finished at 5.30pm, hardly doing anything. after that we went j8 and bought food - most of us bought the same thing. we bought cookies and cream ice-cream, and 1 or 2 or 3 sticks of chicken, which both tasted really nice. XD after that we walked around abit more and stopped in a few shops, until around 6.35pm and decided to go home. i went home and rushed through my chinese compo, watched a show from 9pm - 11.30pm doing the compo during intervals and still couldnt finish. slept at 12.30am, after i had finished with my compo and packing my bag for the next day.

today was the first day of school and it wasnt so bad, although i counted 5 yawns at the bus-stop when going to school and 8 yawns during assembly. i was shocked and thinking that it was just the first day and i was so sleepy already, how was i going to stand the whole term? anyway, our first lesson was pc, then 2 periods of elit, which was quite ok - theres a test next week. then there was another 2 periods of malay. lol. quite ok too i suppose, although ppl were quite noisy and couldnt be bothered. after recess there was one period of maths, which went fine too, although we have maths test on friday. after that was 2 periods of english which was not good cos we have 2 tests next week and another 2 in week 3. last of all was 3 energy-draining periods of clit where i kept awake at first but slowly dozed off a while here and there. managed by copying answers off and didnt really bother to listen, but i got the gist of the lesson, at least. hopefully tomorrow's lessons are better?

well thats an update for so far. im not supposed to use the computer anymore but i told my mum its for school work [well it is partly, so its not a lie] and she didnt say anything so i just turned it on. and yes i have school work to do - english restaurant review and maths playground report. so i shall go do them now, or i wont have time. really glad that i could blog and hope that i can finish my homework early today. see you then!

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was extra sleepy in the morning today when i just woke up and while i was going to school. kept nodding off. anyway, the dentist was nice, but the scaling was freaking pain. the thing which sprayed water all round was the most painful. there was once when i sort of moved my teeth away from the water drill thing and the dentist had to tell me not to move so much. lucky i started brushing my teeth properly after the checkup. the dentist said my gums are better so the scaling would be less painful. wow. if that was less painful than if i didnt brush properly, i cant imagine how it'll be like if i didnt. after the water drill thing it wasnt so bad, but there was once when she was scraping my tooth so hard that it felt as if she wanted to pull my tooth out. oh and every time i guggled, there was a lot of blood. wonder how that sec 1 sitting there must have felt... anyway at the end of it, the dentist told me to go home and guggle warm saltwater to stop the bleeding. i checked my teeth at a mirror before leaving school, and it seemed quite okay. there was just some blood between my teeth. and my saliva didnt taste so much like blood anymore, so that was good. and my teeth are much cleaner now. XD

bought some food at marsiling mrt stn before i came home cos i havent eaten lunch and i was hungry. i bought extra for my brother. i felt so damn guai. ohmygosh. i dont buy stuff for him unless he tell me to. ah well, found him sleeping at home and anyway i ate up one of his bread too, so i dont suppose u can really call it buying food for him. i played audition the whole afternoon. saw crystal online. she was at the thai airport. cool. but she kept disconnecting so in the end she didnt play i think. i have about 4 more full days to finish my homework. i'll try doing some today if i can. i think i shall go play neopets now. haha. just feel like it. both yiinghuey and mx were online yesterday night. lols. and my 'jie' was online too, but she logged out soon after. sad. we talked a bit though (: well, i shall go play now. SAYONARA!!! XD

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wow. today's just full of stuff. in the morning i met yiinghuey at marsiling mrt and we went off to yew tee cc for the carnival. cip stuff. anyway she said she saw a monkey with a bit of white and it was walking through the mrt thing. anyway, we reached yew tee cc almost the same time as those who were meeting up at cck mrt. but my shoes were soaked cos the floor was wet and it was drizzling and my shoe had holes. so my socks were wet. argh. anyway we watched them set up, wandered around, wanted to help but couldnt really do so, wandered around, ate, and watched people come to our stall to play. the huge clown is cute. XD lol. me and yiinghuey left around 11.30am, cos the 2nd shift ppl were coming and yeah... didnt really have much space for so many people. then we walked all the way back to yew tee mrt, ate at the macs at the shopping ctr thr, and then took the train. at first i was thinking of going home, but i wanted to go window shopping at cwp. but then yiinghuey say she not staying for long. then aft that she suggested i go her house. cos then can do homework too. so i agreed.

we got off at woodlands, and yiinghuey bought some sushi from cwp. then we took the bus to her house, and started with homework. i started with my chinese online review paper 1. finished it you know! wheee. and then i did restaurant review. almost done, just need to edit a bit more. we did on the computer so yiinghuey just sent to my email acc can liao. then while she was helping me type in a bit more of the restaurant review, i finished the chinese paper 2 cloze passage. so only left compre. wheeeee. THANKS A LOT YIING HUEY. i owe you one. ;D after that we played neopets. XD hahaha. its fun you know, neopets. then cos 2 ppl play so more fun. i reached her house at around 1pm and left at around 6.15pm. wow i didnt know. 5 hours there. ohmygosh. i didnt even see the time past. it felt like just 2-3 hours.... haiz. but it was really great there. and then there was one time when i really got into the study mood and completed 3 chinese compre questions without getting distracted. neat. haha.

i reached home around 6.45pm and luckily my mum isnt angry today. she just said something about me saying that i'd come back 5+ then come back 6+, but that was about all. (: yay. i shall copy out the real copy of the chinese compre answers later and then i can cross them out on my list. for now, im going to play neopets. oh and tml i have dental appointment. lol. ouch tooth. but hopefully it wont be so pain. i shall brush properly today and tml morning. XD cya then. byeee.

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ah. i just put up a holiday homework list on my blog. saw my senior do, then i copy lor. XD cos i realised that it'll help me realise how much work i havent done and start panicking and [hopefully] start doing homework. (: haha. although i did promise yiinghuey i'd do, so yeah, but its still not enough motivation. and scolding dont work on me, i just brush it off. i dont feel guilty at all. so im trying very hard to make myself feel guilty, or i wont do my homework... i wish i could scribble crap like my senior but i sort of cant. its like when i do something then i concentrate really hard and i cant crap on it. so its very hard to crap for all my homework, although i really want to. haizzz. and i realised [i think] that i can only concentrate very late at night, after 12am. oh no... thats bad. cos i stay up and do but then i get sleepy!! [i was doing physics online review and i just knocked out... haiz.] well, just take a look at my homework list and you'll know why im panicking. and i thought i completed at least 5 pieces... its only 2. darn it.

my aunt came over today for a while, and my bro was still sleeping. lucky i wake up early though, or she'd knock for the whole day and no one open the door. my mum didnt buy breakfast or lunch or teabreak today, cos she was angry at us yesterday and told us she wouldnt. but i think she'll buy tml bah... she not really angry liao. not that i dont want to walk downstairs and buy food, but i dont go out so early in the morning just for this. i mean, if its school or project or gathering then i'll go, but just to buy food? no i wont. the only time you'll find me going down to buy is probably around late afternoon. but then sometimes im too lazy so dont go at all. i'd rather starve at home. nothing much happened today, when i woke up and washed up, i immediately took my laptop out to the hall and continued writing my novel there. in the morning i can concentrate better if im in the hall and its quiet. at night i can concentrate better if im in the computer room and its noisy. lol. weird, huh? its going quite well though, im doing about a thousand plus words a day. anyway i spent the whole morning typing and talking to my aunt, and the whole afternoon and evening watching tv, eating, and watching tv. not productive at all... must work harder... haiz.

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oh nooo... haiz. they're still at it. my mum and brother, that is. now theres 3 unwashed bowls next to me because my mum wants my brother to wash it and he doesnt want to wash it. haiz. ah well. anyway, today afternoon i met yiinghuey in the library and we did our project in the cafe. shared fish and chips with her. after that we both bought hot chocolate cos we were freezing cold. anyway, we're almost done with our project and thats good, cos it means we dont have to meet up again. almost done meaning that the rest of it we can do individual or just send across internet. we did from around 2.30pm to 7pm. after that we went to a friend's barbeque party but stayed only for a while cos we had to go home by 8pm. i reached home at 8.15pm. at first, my mum was ok to me but i dont know why while i was using my laptop in the hall, she suddenly noticed that i didnt sweep the floor in the morning and from then on she started complaining that i always go out meet friends and dont help out at home and then i somemore have the cheek to ask if i can go chalet and BLAH. and i got annoyed so i brought my laptop back into the com room to do.

and by the way, i think my handphone bill hasnt been paid. cos today afternoon i was smsing to yiinghuey then the last sms like take very long to send still cannot. then in the end cannot. then i tried calling her and also cannot. in the evening i had to use yiinghuey's handphone to call home. so i suppose for the time being no one can contact me with my handphone. but im sort of used to it already la... cos its not the first time that my handphone bill hasnt been paid. didnt tell my mum though, cos i dont want her to keep nagging. just hope she'll notice the bill soon. lol. i know im supposed to be doing homework but cant concentrate and i was continuing my novel instead. haha. its better than homework at least. but i guess i have to start on my homework soon. only about 5 full days left to complete all. and i've done about 10% of it only so far. oh well... maybe i'll do a bit later. zzz or i might just go to sleep. my right leg doesnt have muscle pull anymore today but when i was at the barbeque party, it suddenly hurt really badly for quite a while. when i was going back it was ok, but now its hurting again. arghh its pain. haiz.

my brother woke up late today and he was supposed to go to school. i just woke up only, then he woke up and scolded me for not waking him up. how was i supposed to know he even had to go to school. then he was shouting cos he angry late mah.... but i was angry that he shouting so i went into the com room and banged the door close so i dont have to listen to him. i hate him. i really hate him. i hate it that he's my brother. anyway i guess he took a taxi to school, cos he was asking me to find which street his school was on, which is dumb. isnt it supposed to be his school? oh well. when he was finally gone and asked me to close the door, i was saying really loudly 'good riddance' but i dont think he heard me, which is sad. anyway i hope he was late for school. XD i dont know how his friends stand him, but of course, he acts very differently in front of them. i've seen it... he doesnt shout at all and he isnt as bossy and stuff. but anyway, i cant stand his attitude. i cant wait till he goes for army. and my mum cant either. she's always talking about him going to army early. haha. but i think he doesnt want to go. but who cares, i hope he goes fast, or i might just move out...



"You can easily judge the character of others by how they treat those who can do nothing for them or to them."
--Malcolm Forbes--

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i feel as if im some old rotten computer and someone's trying to force me to go full speed by storing loads of things in me and im gonna break down soon. just half an hour ago i was mumbling to myself 'im glad i dont have to go out tomorrow. can sleep.' and then 5 minutes ago its decided that i have to go to the library tomorrow to do project. haiz. and my schedule seems full. really really full. not as in, going out and stuff, but WORK. argh. i cant be bothered to do much homework and the only ones i do early is the easiest ones and they're also the ones the teachers dont check. so its quite a waste of time i suppose. i had cca again today and we were released early again. not that early as yesterday though. but still early and i went home gladly. i've been having a muscle pull in my right leg ever since i got out of violin lesson yesterday. therefore, i've been leaning on my left leg for the whole of the day and its getting worn out too. oh yeah its the 3rd consecutive day that my brother stayed up all night.

my mum came back from work half an hour early today and i was wondering why but didnt bother to ask her. she forced me to eat dinner before i go for theory lesson. [i normally eat dinner after i come back.] wow early dinner. i had to rush though, cos not much time to eat. she rushed me! lol. but i ate really little. at first i didnt want to cos i was complaining that i'd get hungry when i come back but then somehow i just decided to be guai cos well, theres nothing wrong with eating before i go either. anyway i arrived with a few minutes to spare. we're getting more homework in theory lesson nowadays, cos we're behind time. sad... extra homework to add to my already over-flowing one. i came back from theory lesson about 1 hour ago and im getting hungry. darn it. dont dare to tell my mum though. i dont feel like troubling her. my mum's still angry with my brother. i thought it'd be fine by today but doesnt seem like it. i guess yesterday's squabble should've been a violent one then, although there werent any visible injuries.

when i came back frm cca, i wanted to play audition at first, but after i bathed, i suddenly had an idea for a novel so i started on it. its not going very well but i know that after i've sorted a few things out, it'll be fine. (: and anyway, writing a novel is better than playing computer games and it also makes me feel less guilty about not touching my homework. lols. yiinghuey keeps telling me to do hw, and i tell myself too, but im just in no mood. i'd gladfully do 10x of my theory homework than school work. theory's much nicer. argh darn those schools. teaching a load of trash and asking us to bring rubbish home. damn it. i hate school homework.

i just mentioned rosyth p6ge05 chalet to my mum and i know she'll agree in the end, but currently she's against it. i really hate it when she talks about it like this... she knows its a rosyth ge gathering but shes saying all the others are from raffles and nushs. i was furious and asked her 'what does it matter if they're from raffles?' she said, even though others, like deen, isnt frm raffles, they're still in the ip program and im not. i really hate it when she says that. she keeps saying it and its not like i dont know that, okay?! i wanted to tell her something but kept my mouth shut. didnt dare. i was yelling inside myself 'who cares if they're all from ip program?! what does it matter?! they're still my friends, right?! so why cant i go meet them?!' i was really furious and walked off while she was talking halfway. i hate it when she keeps mentioning that. i really really hate it. i hate it because its a fact and its true and i hate it because i still dont want to come to terms with it. i still dont want to face reality. i dont want to come to terms with the fact that yes, they're all in the ip program and im not.

yeah, some people might say, so what if you're not in the ip program? you're still frm rosyth ge. yes i try to take that stand too, but i know in the better part of my mind that i am, for want of a more direct word, out. i probably dont deserve to have the rights to go for the chalet. maybe i dont deserve to have friends like them either. maybe i shouldnt have been allowed to go into rosyth ge. maybe i shouldnt even have been allowed to pass that exam in p3. currently im going through the same experience as when i got my sec school results. that was the first time hard reality hit me, and i still didnt want to accept it. now i realised that i've been avoiding reality for the past 1 and a half years. when will i face reality? i dont know. i just know i dont want to. argh. why cant everything just be a nightmare? why cant we live in a world of dreams? why must things be real? i wonder if there are answers out there.

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ok lemme see... today i woke up at 9am... left house at 10am or a little later. met yiinghuey in library at 10.30am. she already booked a seat. it was crowded! and it was just half an hour after the library opened. oh well. we did homework and maths project until around lunch time, when some wide librarian came and said that school projects arent allowed in the library. come on... he cant be serious. but anyway, he was talking really softly and i kept looking back at yiinghuey trying to ask her 'what is he saying??' although we got the gist in the end. i was really pissed but anyway we moved out and we decided to go cwp foodcourt to eat lunch first, cos it was lunch time anyway. yiinghuey ate noodles or something... i dont know how to spell... yong tao fu? lol. i ate rice with dishes. after that we talked abit and then decided to return to the library and stay on the 1st flr to do our work. we did in the cafe, so had to buy something to eat or drink. yiinghuey bought new york cheesecake. i bought chocolate muffin. didnt have time to complete our project in the end. guess we'll have to meet up again. yiinghuey had piano lesson after that so she had to rush off. i went to borrow a biography [wow i took about an hour to choose XD] and then went home.

bathed and started on my chi compo. [omg did i really start on it? i did. omg im so shocked myself.] anyway, was really tired and fell asleep halfway doing the draft. was raining heavily outside. i woke up just in time to go for violin lesson. phew. i went to popular a while first, searching for superglue. all i found was white glue. i went for my lesson disappointed, but spotted [guess who?] wanjane! lol. so weird to see her there. u know how i spotted her? she was wearing media club tee! haha... i was thinking... eh isnt that media club tee? wonder if i know the person. didnt expect to see her there though. said hi and talked a bit, she was heading home, and i was going the other direction so yeah. my lesson was terrible. i knew it'd be. because i havent touched my violin for a whole week. my teacher was frustrated but who cares. i didnt tell him i didnt practice though. told him i practiced a little. and he told me 'a little isnt enough. must practice more. everyday half an hour.' well yeah i think i heard him say that before. but i dont care. i dont have half an hour everyday to spare for this. i have better things to do. after lesson i went to buy that pathetic bottle of white glue and went home after that.

didnt notice anything unusual when i got home, even though there was an overturned chair, but i thought nothing of it. then my mum told me to lower the tv volume. i said loudly 'kor lower the volume.' he didnt do anything and i didnt bother, even though my mum told me to do it myself. i still didnt notice anything. it was only until i was preparing dinner with my dad that my dad said something like 'they started their nonsense again just now.' that i understood what happened. i should have figured that out earlier, my mum only asks my brother to turn down the volume when shes angry at him. if u still dont get it, it means that while i was gone for lesson, they started quarrelling again. i wonder how violent it was... but didnt ask my dad about that though. he said 'lucky you werent here. didnt watch these kind of stupid things.' i have to say he's quite right. its stupid to quarrel over pathetic things. i suppose it was quite violent since there was an overturned chair. i wolfed down my dinner while my mum's temper rised up abit again. i think my dad was eating fast too. anyway, after that i quickly went into the kitchen to wash my plate, took a drink, and went into the computer room. thats the best place to relax, it is. theres no quarrelling in there. when i entered, my dad was already playing his songs. (: he hates it when they quarrel.




"Quarrels would not last long if the fault were only on one side."
--Francois de La Rochefoucauld--

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well, i had cca today and i guess it went reasonably well, although i was feeling really tired and felt like sleeping. my group the seniors let us off early around 1.30pm, but i think the rest stayed back to wait for the other group. i didnt though, cos i really felt that i should be going home cos i can do more useful things at home. came back and found my brother and dad sleeping. lol. i turned on my laptop and did some work [not homework, my personal work, which is much more important to me than homework. YES, there are many things more important than homework. XD]. anyway i fell asleep soon after, around 4+pm, and slept for around 3 hours straight. woke up at 7.30pm when i heard my mum nagging at my brother. i guess it was a good idea to come home after all, i couldnt have slept if i was in school. dinner was terrible again, but no matter, it doesnt really bother me anymore.

on the way home from school i saw something really interesting. there was this guy sitting somewhere on the train cos it was quite empty. at a certain stop, 2 women came in and sat down beside him [1 of them beside him] and the one beside him just took up a bit more space, but he gave a look of disgust so clear that anyone looking at him would've noticed. the woman wasnt looking at him though, cos she was chatting happily with her friend. and she also had a handbag and it was halfway down her arm, on the guy's side. whenever just a bit of the handbag strap brushed past the man's arm, he moved his arm a far distance away and stared accusingly at the woman, who didnt notice anything as she was now extremely engrossed in the talk with her friend. her handbag brushed him a few more times and he continued staring and trying to move away. when they had gotten up from their seats, he stared at the empty seats like they had offended him, and when they were gone he started to relax, showing obviously that he was glad that they were gone. i was really surprised as i've never seen someone behave so... well i dont even know how to describe his attitude. terrible... imagine meeting such people... ugh.

well thats all that happened today. im going to meet yiinghuey tomorrow cos we're supposed to do our maths project, and i think we both want to do some of our homework at the same time. well, i planned to finish my geog wkbk today but i havent touched it throughout the whole day. i even brought it along to school. what a waste of effort. ah well, i can always do it tomorrow. ;D



"I go to school, but I never learn what I want to know."

"Weekends don't count unless you spend them doing something completely pointless."

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i havent blogged for so long... just didnt feel like blogging because if i blog then i'll start crapping, which is NOT good. so anyway, finally decided i should blog cos its been quite a while, but i think i'll change abit of my blog... not just erasing the song, but i might change my format of writing. like talk about different things. oh yah anyway i erased the song cos it was giving me problems and well, im in the positive mode again i guess. life seems so unimportant after just a few days... oh well.

WEDNESDAY 6th JUNE 07
i went lunch with my aunt at pizzahut and after that she wanted to shop and that annoyed me cos whatever she wanted to buy for me didnt suit me at all. there was one blouse where the design was terrible and it was so expensive. $18.90. well to me its damn ex, and it'll be extremely rare if u catch me wearing a blouse so expensive. then there was another which was so plain. not my type. anyway, in the end she didnt buy me a blouse and went to buy a chocolate cake for me to bring home to give my brother. i didnt really like to have lunch with her but yeah i know that she's my aunt after all, so oh well. i had violin lesson later that day and it went quite alright. my scales were terrible but my songs were good, according to my teacher. after that i rushed home to witness a friend's 'wedding' on audition.

THURSDAY 7th JUNE 07
im not too sure what i did the whole day, cant really remember but i think i played audition sometime in between.. had theory lesson at night and started on my harry potter books, cos i decided to bring the first book along on my way to theory lesson. finished reading the first book by around 2am.

FRIDAY 8th JUNE 07
read harry potter 2nd and 3rd books up to 3am.

SATURDAY 9th JUNE 07
read harry potter 4th book up to 3am.

SUNDAY 10th JUNE 07
read harry potter 5th book up to 3am.

TODAY: MONDAY 11th JUNE 07
was planning to read the 6th book of harry potter but felt guilty about my homework so i decided to try and get some work done today and maybe start reading it later. oh by the way, my brother is still sleeping. yesterday he woke up around 3pm. dont know what time he'll wake up today. oh well. i managed to wake up by 10.30am which was the limit i set for myself today cos i wanted to do more things today. finally could wake up early. normally i set limit i'll overshoot it by a lot. glad my mum isnt at home today to start nagging at me. trying to do my work but i know its not going very smoothly. thinking about all my homework can almost make me throw up...

oh and i was trying to do my theory about half an hour ago. we've finally started on grade 4 and it looks really interesting. i cant wait to learn about the alto clef and the different orchestra and keyboard instruments. sounds really fun. haiz... i hate it when other people copy my work though.. i dont mind teaching but just copying straight from my book and not bothering to think about it at all annoys me quite a lot. ur parents didnt pay for ur theory lesson so that u can copy from others, they paid for it so that u can learn more, and ur hardly putting in any effort to learn. this is irksome.

im hoping to finally finish my geog txtbk today, and hopefully manage some other useful things first before i start reading again. and i think my lack of sleep is going to come back soon, having slept at 3am for about 3 or 4 days in a row and waking up at 10am. during the first part of my holidays, at least i was sleeping around 12am and waking up around 11am. at this rate of sleeping at 3am everyday, sleep deprivation is going to come back really really soon. darn. oh well.

and i have cca tomorrow, which hopefully can be something like the one we had last week. and yay im not going to attend theory lesson on the last week of holidays cos im going for Rosyth P6GE05 chalet. wheeee my dad allowed, but i conveniently forgot to mention that it was held on the same day as my theory lesson... oops? lol. well yes i like theory but at least i'll have one extra week to relish the feeling that no one's going to copy my work yet. ;D well, cya around then!

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arghh. ok im damn pissed off by everything right now. everything except my handphone and violin. ARGH MY LIFE TOTALLY SUCKS. ok that works. cos i know my life doesnt suck. blah. whatever. ok firstly my notebook went SIAO and now i can only use it in safe mode and safe mode is totally rubbish man. my brother cant repair it and i have to use safe mode until my parents send it for repair or something. but i have to call the technical support first, of course. anyway, this safe mode right, DONT EVEN HAVE SOUND LEH. so basically i cant play any music or videos on my notebook, which made me so damn pissed i shouted at my brother for half an hour. so thats why im currently blasting music on my handphone and spoiling my ears. earplugs of course, i cant let my brother hear or he'll kill me. he doesnt like my kind of music. lol.
and i ate a lot yesterday which is the opposite of today. i ate about 6 times yesterday and only 3 times today. normally i eat about 4 - 5 times de. i really have no appetite to eat dinner nowadays, cos everyday also same thing, and not say the dishes are nice at all. all taste so terrible. either very saltish or very bitter. i rather starve or just eat rice, but my mum allows neither one. well i guess i'll have to eat in the end. and my notebook is driving me nuts... damn it...


MONDAY 4th JUNE 07 - ENVIRONMENTAL PRESENTATION SKILLS WORKSHOP

what a long name. and what a long day too. met peishan and zoe at yishun, [we were supposed to meet teacher too but anw she took the train after ours] and then saw linglan at newton. emily was the last to reach. then we walked a few mins frm mrt stn to the environment building. for the workshop, each group consists of 2 schools, have 9 groups. we were doing with eastspring. first part of the workshop the facilitator taught us how to present, then second half he presented the environment info and stuff to us. then after that we're supposed to present our own. each group one presentation. there was teabreak, then lunch, then teabreak. buffet style. it reminded me of the time i went for the ibm camp... every day of the week we ate buffet style lor... and also 2 teabreaks 1 lunch de. lol.

anyway, during the first break i saw [guess who] weng hong. i was like OMG why is he there? lol. didnt really expect to see anyone frm rosythGE there and somemore cos a lot of ppl there are sec 3s not sec 2s, so really didnt expect to see anyone i knew. they showed us a lot of funny videos and gave us fun quizzes too. although when the environment stuff was presented we were bored. for the presentation, my group split into the 2 schools, then each school do one part. actually liddat not really very good but then i guess its sort of better for us all in a way lah...

my school did half skit half presentation. i was last presenter leh! scary sia... actually i was thinking whether or not to 'interact with audience' cos at first we say yes, then after that cos the whole atmosphere quite 冷 so we dont really know if should interact i guess. in the end i got lor... cos i know i got plan it anyway so like heck care lah just interact a bit lor. then around the end we go get our certificate of achievement [=.="] and then from each group they choose one person best speaker. OMG i seriously 被吓倒 lah!!! i was looking around the table and thinking who might get it and then thinking maybe linglan or if not the other school bah... i wasnt listening to the speeches frm our group members cos i too 紧张 liao mah... so i didnt really know who will get the award. then my name called out i was like in a state of shock. lol. but anw the trophy very troublesome to carry around. i take train home somemore leh. got ppl staring... zZz... rawr. stare what stare. haiz...

anyway before we take train home me peishan emily and zoe ate noodles at 7-11. i was hungry even after all the nice food. then zoe went off first. she eat very fast leh!! lol. me peishan and emily took train home together. i last one to get off as usual... when i reach home damn tired sia. my mum thought i was sick, cos i didnt want to eat dinner and i just wanted to sleep. had to tell her i wasnt sick and that i was just sleepy. she forced me to eat dinner. oh well. had some appetite after i ate the first few spoonfuls. and after that i played audition on my bro's com so i wasnt sleepy anymore. cheers to audition XD -end of day-


TUESDAY 5th JUNE 07

had cca today. 11am - 5pm. but we slacked a lot, especially the starting part of the day. around 1.15pm - 2pm was lunch. i didnt go for lunch though. really had no appetite... i think i'll vomit if i eat anymore. everyone else went for lunch. the sec2s went to macs and the sec3s went to canteen. i just drank water when i was feeling hungry. we did more work after lunch. well, i guess it means more of the sec3s. lol. the sec3s left earlier after they were done and we stayed back to use the computers. i left around 5pm, and bought a drink from canteen. lingered around for a while more to fiddel with the piano. left school soon after but saw xingjun and christine at macs so i stayed there for a while. then realised that it was getting late and thinking that the trains would get more crowded, i quickly went home. well it wasnt too crowded. (: oh yah i think i saw some poly students in the train and they had really thick books with them which looked like textbooks. very very very thick. i was like O.O and decided maybe i wont want to go to poly after all. lol.

had different dishes for dinner today. wow. and i was complaining about having the same dishes everytime not long ago. haha. it still didnt taste very nice but at least its different, right? (: oh and im going out for lunch with my aunt tml. yeah thats all for today. me and my bro are trying to get this notebook working, and might have to do something drastic. well then, tata~

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FRIDAY 1st JUNE 07

had a weird dream... i was part of some acting crew and we had to go to a desert-like place to act it, but in fact it was just a park of some sort. i was the youngest there and there were 2 guys who were also teenagers. one of them was a cousin i've never seen before and one of them was just a friend. the rest were adults. we didnt bring along any equipment so the director asked us to dig in the sand to see if we could find anything useful for the filming. [what the?? o.O] we digged the whole afternoon and the sun was so bright and hot. luckily there was shade by the trees but somehow the shadows kept moving when the trees werent. then my friend started giving up and sort-of betrayed us or something... not too sure... he was saying me and my cousin's attitude was bad and stuff... and then he stopped digging and went to sit down at the picnic table. the director called all of us over so me and my cousin stopped digging, although my cousin found some half-eaten noodles in a box, and went over. my cousin had this camera and when he pointed it at some weird-looking tree, all we saw was a huge eyeball. in a few seconds, the tree had a small explosion and there was smoke... somehow i knew that the eyeball was going to come out and it did. then i started shouting at everyone to run and they moved so slowly!!! the eyeball was about twice as tall as a normal adult. it blasted a spot near us and all that was left was a shallow pit with acid inside. i ran away quickly and finally the crew started running fast but were still slow, so i held back a bit and became the last. and somehow the crew were all outside the park already but i was still inside, with the eyeball blasting away behind me, and then one of the explosions was so close i was thrown forward. END. weird right? i know.

in the afternoon me and my bro were playing this new song and that was one of the few things we had in common. classical music. then he showed me a video of someone playing piano on his com and later i showed him a video of someone playing on my com. whee finally we were bonding. this kind of thing almost never happens anymore. anyway felt closer to him when we were bonding but of course after that we just started shouting at each other again so not much point i guess. dinner was great cos my mum bought fried rice and some noodles which was nice and she let me eat first. i dunno whether its cos i told her i was hungry or cos im sick, but either way, yay. (: she didnt let my bro take the food until i was done.


SATURDAY 2nd JUNE 07

i had another dream. this was more normal, and very short too. i was coming home with a friend from school on a bus and my stop was earlier and i walked home. somehow i had 2 elder sisters and they welcomed me home and they were doing housework. my dad was at home. then i went to bathe. END. i think its too short.

i know why i dont really like to play violin. i finally found out why im ok with piano but not really ok with violin although i like the violin better than piano. its because, you know when you want to play the piano, you just have to open it. thats all, so simple and easy. however if u want to play violin, you have to unzip that huge case, attach the shoulder rest, and then still have to take out the bow. its just troublesome. and im lazy so yeah... i guess thats the main reason why i rather play piano especially at home. also, i really hope to finish all my homework by the 1st half of the hols but im not sure if i can. it seems quite impossible since i've hardly started on it.


SUNDAY 3rd JUNE 07

had another dream again, which was weird too. i went back to st nicks during the june hols and somehow there were still quite a lot of ppl in school... and there was a mix of my rosyth and st nicks friends there. im not too sure why i went to school but when i was done, i met a rosyth friend and we planned to go home together. then we met another rosyth friend and she came along. she wanted take the bottom way but we wanted to take the way one storey on top. so we decided to split and see who reached a certain corridor first. me and my friend ran and came to a left turning. we were supposed to go in front, but there was no staircase so unless we wanted to jump over to the block, we couldnt go that way. we turned left and rushed down a spiral staircase which had no railing or wall. while turning, i slipped and fell out of the staircase into open air and i dropped 3 files, although i only remember holding 2 files - orange english one, and blue maths one. there was an extra black science file which i didnt know appeared from where. anyway, i was dropping to the ground and... END. what queer endings.

anyway, im going for some environmental workshop tomorrow and wow peishan sms me to say meet at yishun. i wanted to go on my own! ): also, we dont have to wear sch u and we're supposed to wear smart casual. what is smart casual??? cos i dont know. jeans? t-shirt? or what? and i also received an email from TG about the Rosyth P6GE05 Chalet. whee great i cant wait to go XD its gonna be so much fun. and wow so much details. i wonder who's in the organizing committee, besides TG of course. and im planning to either go swimming or jogging later. cant decide yet. oh well. thats about all. my dad took my laptop out to use in the morning and it came back dirty! well a bit dirty but still dirty lah... anyway cant wait to swim/jog later. ;D must exercise cos im a lazy fat pig. heehee... see ya!