yay i just finished watching 爱上千金美眉 :D its quite nice lah, yeah. shall have to finish up 1 more question of my maths homework, then start cutting out elephants for alison. haha do you know i actually called alison 'elephant'? and not just once. twice somemore. i just wanted to call her to ask her something, then i looked up [she's sitting in front of me] and said 'elephant!' then i was like thinking: oh shit. and quickly changed it to alison. haha. oops. sorry alison. i cut too many elephants le. [haha actually i cut much less than everyone else :/] but yeah, its still getting to me. the elephant madness.

i cant wait for this week to be over quickly, cos then a lot of stress will be gone. just look at my schedule for this week:
wednesday - violin exam
thursday - chinese o level oral exam
friday - biology test [a major test, unlike the usual minor ones]
luckily i dont have theory lesson on thursday, so i can chiong and study for bio test right after my chinese oral. once this week is gone, i'll be much more relaxed. but of course, there's still tests like maths & elit, worldview 360 grand finale, and chinese o level listening comprehension, before i can finally relax.

today i wasnt really concentrating during lessons, but managed to get through them. yay maths homework dateline is extended to tomorrow cos more than half of the class hasnt completed it. thats quite rare, really. thats why i need to do maths later. i dont think i have any other homework besides that, which is good :D today after school i went to eat burger king with crystal, then we went to library and searched for nice books. its been TOO long since i last borrowed storybooks from the library. feels good to borrow books, cos i like reading novels and i havent been reading them for a long long time. :D i borrowed 5 books, cos today was the last day of the 8-book thing. had some trouble carrying all the books though, even though i put 2 into my bag, cos i was carrying 2 thick-cover books, 1 thin-cover book, and my maths book 4 in my hand.

i think, even with all the stress, i can make myself relax when i want to. for example, after going through an hour of stress, i'll slowly relax again and try to sort my thoughts and problems out properly. cos i know that stressing out wont help. it'll just make me pissed and give me mood swings and i'll be worse off. i'll just do my best till this week is finally over.

i know my last post was full of apologies. for this post, i'd like to say a few thank-yous. yes, a few. in no particular order,
1) my senior wanjane: thank you for tagging and telling me to relax and stop being so stressed. even though i have to say that your ways of comforting people are queer. but they're funny, so it makes up for it, i suppose. haha. :D
2) my senior genin: thank you for your msn message and for being so concerned about me. dont worry, i'll be fine once i get over this week (:
3) crystal: thank you for telling me to jiayou for my exam and helping me find so many nice books today :D
4) huishan: thank you for tolerating my crapping during lessons and mood swings and stressing out and everything. and telling me that i can do it for my violin exam. i hope i return to normal soon (:
5) jessalyn: thanks for helping me with maths today. i was feeling very stressed at that time, so i couldnt take in anything that teacher said. i know you thought i was weird cos you think i wouldnt have any problems understanding it. anyway, glad you're sitting next to me cos you're smart plus you play the violin too! :D

and for my violin exam, i'll try my best even though i dont have any 把握 at all of doing well. other random stuff? yeah. i seriously need to go now, else i wont have time to do alison's elephants.

i think i was damn stressed just now. practiced my violin, then i just got really stressed. and i played for 1 hour and 15 mins continuously, something i havent done for a very long time, because i cant even remember if i ever practiced so long continuously in my life before. and at the end of it, my fingers were numb with pain. the tips of my left fingers, and my right thumb and index finger. and my left wrist hurts too. i was just pissed at myself for being so lousy. because, for once, i could hear clearly that the music i play has no expression at all. none at all. no matter how hard i tried, there just wasnt any emotion in it. so i just kept playing over and over again, trying to perfect it. i should have known better. now my fingers are tingling with pain while i type this. maybe its because my exam's on wednesday, thats why i want it to be perfect. thats why i played the songs over and over again, but nothing changed. my notes are still wrong, too flat or too sharp, and my timing is terrible, and i cant cope with the fast phrases. and the music doesnt have any emotion or expression. i was just practicing blindly. playing for the sake of playing. nothing more.

after i finished playing, i realised that i dont have much time for anything. neither for practicing my violin, nor doing my homework, nor studying, nor even keeping my promises to my friends. i realised that my maths homework requires graph paper and i didnt bring any graph paper home. actually, i didnt even bring my textbook and notebooks home. so i borrowed a textbook from wanyee. but i realised that 3 out of the 4 questions require graph paper. so like. damn it. i have to go to school to do it tomorrow and im not sure if i'll be able to finish it by the end of the day. and i definitely dont have time to cut any elephants for alison. i guess i'll have to do it in school too. i still havent done my elit assignment. and i also need to do my chinese compos and job attachment scrapbook. argh.

i would really like to say sorry to a lot of people right now:
1) alison: sorry that i didnt do any of the elephants at home. but i'll do it in school and i'll get it done.
2) huishan: sorry i've been having mood swings these few days and havent been talking much to you sometimes. when i finally get my exams over with, i promise i'll be more friendly. and sorry i havent even done the elit assignment. i'll do it later and send it to you.
3) my parents: sorry i havent been practicing my violin regularly. if i dont pass my violin exam this time, i'll pay you back all the money you spent on my violin lessons and piano accompaniment and exam. but i'll definitely try my best.
4) garwai: sorry i didnt help you to do the ss powerpoint or script at all.
5) yiinghuey: sorry i havent returned you your handphone cable, i'm really trying very hard to remember. i'll bring it tomorrow ok?
6) my runaway band members: sorry i havent paid for band fund. i'm really quite broke right now. i promise i'll pay however much i owe to band fund by the end of this term.
7) rachel: sorry i havent returned you your $1 which you used to buy my drink. i'll return it to you on tuesday during cca.
8) genin: sorry i didnt talk to you longer on msn just because i was watching my videos. next time, i will stop watching my videos and talk to you properly.
9) people who posted letters to me[last year and this year]: sorry i havent written any letters back to you. i promise i'll find some time to do it.
10) peishan: sorry i didnt let you write on the a2 board at first. i was feeling a bit crazy during that time cos we kept shouting? and sorry that my handwriting was terrible.
11) my math teacher: sorry i probably wont be able to hand up my maths homework tomorrow. even though im like, the amaths leader?
12) my new chinese teacher: sorry i wont be able to hand up my chinese homework if you ask for it tomorrow.
13) teachers whose subjects have tests these few weeks: sorry i wont be studying hard for these tests.
14) teachers who are teaching me these few weeks: sorry i probably wont be concentrating or even listening to you during your lessons.

that was a really long list, but i'm satisfied with it (: glad that i've said sorry to these people. so im not so stressed now. might also be because im listening to some really nice songs which are making me feel quite relaxed.

did i mention that its not very good when im stressed? cos i can blow up really easily if you annoy me even by a very tiny bit. and blow up = explode and it happened before and i think thats bad. cos the person will just like, shut up and keep really quiet. then i'll feel really guilty. yeah and i suppose i have mood swings too. like. when im really very stressed, there's a high chance that i may start crying anytime. serious. like there was once i started crying during lessons cos i was thinking about my violin exam. [er yeah i wasnt listening to the lesson lah. ^^''] yeah so i dont like being stressed cos it'll affect the people around me. i really dont want to shout at anyone just cos that person annoyed me while im stressed. cos then that person will be hurt, right? and thats bad, isnt it? cos i'll be venting my anger on that person, which isnt good. so its better to just relax. so i suppose i must relax to play my violin well too.

now, i'll just have to get to work and finish everything that i owe to everyone. then i'll feel much much better. and im already feeling better cos chewlin helped me get a ticket to her RGCO concert in week 4. [refer to the tagboard] :D [this is the first :D in my post] i suppose after so many things going on these few weeks, i'll be glad when i can finally go for the concert, cos other Rosyth P6GE05 people are going too :D YAY THANK YOU CHEWLIN! i can promise that im definitely looking forward to this concert, cos it would also mean the end of a lot of stress. it'll be like a celebration for me. I CANT WAIT! :D SEE YOU GUYS SOON!

i spent the whole of yesterday night watching videos, so i didnt get any work done. watched until almost 2am :/ wanted to watch longer, but since i was so afraid that my mum would wake up anytime, i didnt. :D the videos damn nice ok! haha i was watching 爱上千金美眉, in love with a rich girl. yeah so today i woke up at around 12pm. so now im trying to get my maths homework done. shall go practice my violin after this. i just trimmed the fingernails on my right hand. i cant remember when was the last time i trimmed it so short D: normally i will trim the fingernails o my left hand very short cos i need to play violin, but i wont trim the right ones so short, cos i dont like having so short fingernails. feels weird. like right now. D: but it cant be helped lah, cos i cant afford to take any risks. not with my violin exam coming up so soon. so i'll have to bear with this really short fingernails until they grow long again. (: yup, so i need to go practice violin now. and i still have A LOT of work to do later. maths homework, elit assignment, chinese compos [holiday homework], and cutting out felt elephants. D: sure cannot finish all today. but i'll try.

woke up at 7.45am today. so early lah! cos my mum woke me up and didnt allow me to go back to sleep... D: so i left house and reached woodlands mrt around 10am. ate instant noodles while waiting for yiinghuey. after that we went to school together :D i did my cca open house duty from 11am - 2pm. it was supposed to be until 1.30pm, but cos there we confused our duty times, there wasnt anyone doing from 1.30pm - 3.30pm, so we stayed longer to figure out a solution. then i went to do maths open house duty. to 4.30pm and we packed up and left at around 5pm.

when i came back, i wanted to watch camp rock but there wasnt any real movie, so i read the story. and now im done and bored. D: i want a new computer game. i want something like maple but more interesting. dunno. just suddenly craving for a new computer game. actually there is such a game, and i already set my eyes on it, but its only having closed beta test now T.T so i cant play. i am so totally bored and trying to find something interesting to do. even though i actually have lots of work to do. i suppose i'll chiong everything tomorrow. haiz. shall go find something nice to do...

wednesday 25 june 08
had another math meeting during recess, and stayed back after school to rush our environmental worldview 360 project. we had to finish the A2 boards and pass it to the centre by 4pm. managed to finish at around 3.30pm and chaiyi brought the boards there. :D after that, i waited for yiinghuey to wait for her senior to finish lessons. around 4pm+. but she didnt find her senior in the end. so we went home and i practiced violin and then went for my last violin lesson before my exam. was a bit late lah, but yeah... i am scared for my exam D: shall practice more on saturday and sunday. then when i reached home, i ate dinner quickly and started studying chem. from about 9pm - 12am. but total actually only about 2 hours [9 - 11] cos from about 10pm+, i started dozing off. then i would wake up and start studying, and doze off again. so yeah. went to sleep at 12am :D so pro right. got test still can sleep at 12am. feel so shuang :D cos normally when i have a test i'll study until around 1am or 2am.

thursday 26 june 08
chem test was alright. during recess, i couldnt be bothered about any maths meeting or whatnot. took my elit holiday homework and went straight to the library to chiong it. happy to say that i managed to finish it by the time we were supposed to hand it up during elit lesson :D felt quite accomplished too.

then after school, i had to go to see some teacher about the wushu course that some sec 3s are taking for nyaa. that took quite a while and when i went back to class to get my bag, it was already quite late :/ considering i still had to go for alison's campaign meeting and maths meeting. grabbed my bag and went off for lunch and ate while discussing about the campaign stuff.

then around 3pm, wanyee called me and asked me to go to family lounge to do maths, and she said that mrs tan was waiting for me to take the photos. i was like :O so i quickly went to fam lounge, but mrs tan wasnt there, so wanyee came with me to staffroom where we took photos of the maths week boards and games. it was almost 3.30pm already so i told wenyi that i'd be late for cca :/ felt so guilty cos i was late for cca.

when i was done with the photos, i went back to fam lounge to get my bag, then went for cca at mpr2. we got to watch a show during cca, but the sound wasnt very clear, so i think a lot of people got bored after some time. most of the sec 3 exco people prepared for the open house. the board suddenly becoming so huge was quite a problem for us, but we got it done lah. put more photos and other stuff on the board. i stayed back until around 6.30pm. and i reached home late so i was late for theory. :/

after theory, i came home and downloaded the maths photos into my laptop then transferred to my thumbdrive, and could finally go to sleep :D

friday 27 june 08 TODAY
coming to school later and later as the days pass by. haiz. anyway, before going for morning assembly, wenyi suddenly called me and asked me to meet her outside her class. i was really wondering what was wrong cos it sounded very urgent. seems like all the cca stuff we put up on our cca board yesterday dropped off D: so we had to redo later on. oh yah. alison gave us the stuff to make the souvenirs for her campaign today, so i was doing it in class during quite a number of lessons. cutting felt. i know my maths teacher spotted me, but i just carried on with it :/ i didnt mean to. i was going to keep it. but since she saw it already, not much point in hiding, right? and i was listening to the lesson anyway so i suppose its ok.

during recess, i spent my first half an hour helping out with cca board, and the next half hour doing maths board =.= my recess flew away just like that D: our maths board looks nice :D but. the sec 1s and sec 2s math boards somehow seem much. neater? haha. and more professional. anyway, after recess, i just went through some more boring lessons and then end of school! :D at first, i was really looking forward to going home with crystal and eating lunch with her. but i had to do cca and maths booth stuff. i was supposed to do cca, but i didnt, and i did maths stuff instead. not that cca isnt important, but i know cca, they surely can finish even without me. and im quite clear on what im supposed to do. but then maths one i not sure, so yeah.

did maths stuff until around 4pm i think. actually we finished earlier, but then we had to do script and then we stayed a while to play games :D and it was very fun and funny. especially yingtong lah! she so funny lah. and our teacher was very funny too. and lame -_- haha and wanyee said 'you're so evil' to teacher and mumbled to me that 'her IQ decreased', which i said out loud eventually :D lol. zong zhi, very funny lor. yeah :D the time was quite worth it, i suppose(: and we had to practice presenting. which was scary :O hope we'll be okay tomorrow :D after that, me and wanyee went to macs to eat. yingtong actually wanted us to eat in school cos she wanted us to wait for her to finish eating her packet of food. i suppose we were quite evil lah. haha. but we really wanted to eat macs. sorry yingtong! D: yeah so we went macs and ate, then wanyee's dad fetch her home and i went home too.

was quite sleepy on the bus and train back. and i was supposed to stop at woodlands but i sort of missed it, so i stopped at marsiling and took a train back one stop and got down. went to cwp popular to buy stuff. wanted to buy a lot of stuff actually, but i didnt have enough money, so... ): came home around 6pm. i've got a lot of things to do this weekend. just wanted to update my blog. and cos garwai keeps saying that i dont post often anymore -_- i wonder where she gets so much time to read people's blogs? o.O oh and i watched tarzan just now. again, yeah. cos my brother turned on the tv and was randomly switching channels, then i heard the song 'you'll be in my heart' and i asked him to turn back to that channel. he wanted to go bathe and didnt want to watch tv anymore, so he let me watch :D yeah so i need to do work now, cos tomorrow's open house and i only have sunday to study and do homework and many other important things like practice violin and doing alison's campaign stuff. seeya! :D

saturday 21 june 08
my last piano accompaniment lesson was ok. quite smooth i suppose. next week is my violin exam le [gets a nervous breakdown] ah well. after my piano accompaniment lesson, i took bus to yiinghuey's house. then we practiced our song and ate instant noodles :D im starting to like instant noodles a lot. and we played yiinghuey's french horn. did a bit of homework after that. then i went home and did some more homework, then continued watching my videos.

sunday 22 june 08
woke up quite late, and started chionging my homework after lunch, cos i realised that i had a lot of homework to do. managed to complete a reasonable amount in time. the only thing i didnt complete by the end of the day was chinese paper 1, social studies, and elit. was a very guai and boring day for me.

monday 23 june 08
first day of school. quite depressed in the morning. had a lot of things to do. totally stoned in the lessons before recess. during recess, went to find teachers for micromouse competition and for maths week open house. didnt eat recess D: when i got back to class, zoe had gotten a social studies textbook for me [i didnt do my ss hw cos i didnt have my textbook cos i lent it to zoe and she forgot to bring it so she had to find one] and i started chionging social studies homework. quite easy to chiong. maths was slack today, which was good cos i had more time to do my homework. but a teacher called me out halfway to pass the consent forms for the mm comp to me and i was supposed to pass to everyone else in the section by that day. maths lesson was the last lesson leh! how to pass? luckily huei min helped me pass to the rest of the sec 2s, cos i wasnt sure about their exact classes, plus i had to go back to class to complete my ss homework. thank you so so so much, huei min! :D

tuesday 24 june 08 TODAY
i have a lot of things to do recently. list of things: micromouse competition, maths open house, CCA open house, alison's campaign, environmental competition, pass excuse letter to form teacher [which i havent done yet], and some more random projects. came to school early at 6.55am. 7am i was supposed to find a teacher, but when i did, turns out i wasnt needed anyway. then our class changed seating arrangement today so we had to move our tables. i came back from the staff room and moved my table. im sitting with huishan this term (: and alison's in front of me and melody's her table partner :D yay. and jessalyn and josie are to my left. not bad lah (:

but i had mm comp today, so i hardly sat with huishan for more than 5mins before she had to go for chinese lesson [she takes chi and i take hcl] and i had to leave for mm comp during hcl lesson D: sorry huishan! oh mans. its always so weird when i leave class early, like for competitions. cos hardly anyone even knows what cca im from or what competition i have to go for. mm comp was at ngee ann poly but it was quite boring and freezing inside that place. and our mouse died. of all times. again. the other team's mouse got a score but not good enough to enter finals. D: which means, we all have to start studying for chem test. *sigh* had no mood to study or do any work during the comp the whole time cos i was sleepy and the environment was weird and cold and i couldnt concentrate and i didnt want to study for chem. so i didnt do anything there.

came back to school after the mm comp, around 2.20pm. too bad huishan left le D: there was hardly any homework, which is good :D and i just got bits about the different lessons. no one explained to me exactly what happened during all the lessons though, so i dont have a very clear idea. stayed in class for about an hour, then went for cca D: it was sian cos we just went for mm comp.

but today's buzz was about the upcoming open house. poor wenyi lor. haha first day already then so busy le. jiayou wenyi! :D and rachel not bad sia. she marked everyone's attendance i think. :O so pro. then jolene and sherlyn also damn pro can. we were supposed to write a write-up for section board, then some teacher say until all of us thought have to write very detailed, so they typed out this whole page on micromouse. :O *bows gratefully to them* even though in the end we only needed to write a few lines, i still really want to thank them cos they were so pro doing the write-up. went home with wenyi after cca. feels weird to be section head cos people start asking you a lot of stuff. and people who dont really know you start saying your name like they are very close to you and know you very well. haha. weird, right? anyway i just finished sending the write-up, script, and list of achievements to caroline, wenyi and linghui. feel so shuang after i send :D cos i did my job finish le.

wanted to sleep at 10pm but my hair's not dry! crap. dry faster please. i really really want to sleep. damn tired today after mm comp. but glad that i cleared something off my list of stuff. yeah. next most important events are maths & CCA open house. i think i need to be on duty for both? :/ dunno. shall go finish some maths stuff now, then go to sleep :D but then need to study like siao for chem tml. i'll be a dead fish tomorrow night.

5th and last day of job attachment. me and crystal met felicia at outram mrt stn. then we went to vivo and bought chocolates for the people working at LG. we gave to sing yii :D i think thats how you spell her name. hopefully. haha. yepp then after that we walked around, and then went to help out at the roadshow. today was more tiring that yesterday for me, because i think i gave out more phamplets/flyers. no elaborations lah, cos i no mood to say so much. so in the end we went off without even saying bye to them, which i felt really bad for. and i think i'll miss them quite a lot and i'll miss job attachment. even though we have to stand all day and do a lot of things and my shoes totally kill my feet and we get very tired everyday, but its still fun. more fun than school. especially since school's starting and lessons are boring shit.

oh yah. and munjun passed by and didnt take my flyer. then i realised it was him after he walked away. and i shouted 'mun jun!' really loudly... haha paiseh. i thought he wouldnt hear what... so shout louder better. i suppose. haha. yeah then he turned around and went like 'hi jane!' and walked off -_- haha and crystal saw him too. and i only realised that i shouted quite loudly when i remembered that even crystal, who was very very far away from me, turned around. oops. paiseh *bows apologetically*

yepp then yiinghuey came around 7pm. and hanged around for a while, then she went off. and came back at 8pm. so we took our bags and went off to go ben & jerry's to eat ice cream. :D i dunno what ice cream they bought cos i was waiting for them at the table, but the 2 ice creams were nice (: and they had chocolate. after that we went to see some clothes, then we left vivo around 9.30pm and took the mrt home. reached home quite late today. still trying to dry my hair now. and i want to watch my videos. i started on a new series. title: ai shang qian jin mei mei AKA in love with a rich girl. shall go watch now. and i have violin lesson tomorrow. last piano accompaniment lesson. i hope i dont screw up. i hope that even though i havent practiced violin for a week because of job attachment, i can still play the songs as well as before with some practice, and i can get through this last piano accompaniment lesson. please. and i'll be going yiinghuey's house after that to practice a new song with her and crystal :D see you around

fourth day of job attachment and second last day too. it was quite fun today because of the LG roadshow. we wore uniforms and gave out phamplets. crystal got to stand next to the demo handphones. there were hot beverages there and water and even ice cream. shant elaborate because theres too many things which are hard to explain with words. it was just fun. even though we were all dead tired after every stack of phamplets we give out. the LG people there were nice but i think we're still quite invisible to them. a bit redundant. had short breaks for lunch and dinner. didnt sit down to eat at all, just bought stuff from shops and ate while walking back.

crystal's dad came and i didnt know cos i wasnt looking up. someone just passed by so i put out a phamplet for him to take, then he looked up at me and i was like 'Oh.' and he smiled at me and asked where was crystal. haha paiseh lah. and her dad's friend came too. after we finished our work, we went to a restaurant called brotzeit to find them. brotzeit is cool, cos it looks somewhat like a bar inside. they were almost done with dinner, so we waited and ate a bit. :D thank you uncle. after that, her dad's friend took the mrt home. did i mention that he looks like one of the taiwanese actors? haha that is just so cool. and crystal's dad sent me home. thank you again :D i think i really owe crystal's dad a lot, cos he sent me home quite a few times.

and i reached home feeling enthusiastic about my fun day at work, and sad that tomorrow is the last day. its really quite disheartening. i think we really want to thank the people there for being there, because even though we're invisible to them, they're not invisible to us, yeah? :D they're really quite helpful and nice.

and i realised something today:
My knowledge comes with a price - experience.



Jealousy goes a long way. Even further than friendship.

my laptop is suddenly lagging very badly D: so i have decided to blog first, before i watch my videos. im still in the process of finding new videos though.

today was the third day of job attachment, and probably the best day so far. me and crystal got there a bit late, then we sat down and stoned at first. after a while we went to play our games and help customers. playing games on the laptops are fun :D and i played on the handphones too. then me, crystal and felicia went to toastbox for lunch. and shopped. we went back to work and sometime in the afternoon, the boss came [er. there's 2 bosses who we know so far. 1 is the boss of LG and sony ericsson there. this one was of higher position i think.] and he brought starbucks coffee for all of the staff, including us. THAT IS SO NICE OF HIM! :D and the people working at sony ericsson were jealous of us. haha. but yeah so nice of him lah. so we really enjoyed the coffee very much. thank you :D even though i seldom drink coffee cos my mum dont encourage it and i think its kind of bitter, this coffee was really very very nice :D and it helped keep our spirits up. and i 招待ed quite a number of customers today so i feel quite satisfied :D for dinner, we just bought bread from breadtalk and walked around. went to see more shops, including those on 3rd level, as we had a lot of time because we didnt sit down to eat. so it was really really fun today :D the best of the 3 days so far.

actually yesterday was fun too, cos we played sims2 and this roller coaster game on the handphones at sony ericsson. and the boss [the one of LG and sony ericsson] let us go for a break in the late afternoon, which really surprised us. he just suddenly asked if we wanted to go for a break, and i was like 'we can?' and he said yes and we went to shop. haha. so basically, 1st day was boring and tiring and tense because it was the 1st day after all, and we were all quite stone and our legs got tired easily so we kept sitting down and we didnt really dare to attend to customers. 2nd day was better because we got to play on the phones and we were more used to it and we started attending to customers. and the 3rd day is the best cos we played a lot and we felt more welcomed [even though our presence is still hardly noticed] and the boss bought starbucks coffee for us and we attended to more customers with better service :D yay. i wonder how will tomorrow be. they're having roadshow from thur to sun, so we'll be there on thur and fri. i suppose it wont be as good as today, but at least we'll have something more to do :D

and i decided not to do any homework during this job attachment time period, cos it'll really spoil the mood. and anyway, i dont feel like doing homework. and i can use the excuse that i was very tired cos job attachment is tiring. it is okay! example: after every day of work, crystal's always very tired. which shows how tiring it is. :D haha. shall go watch my videos now. tata~

yesterday was the second day of job attachment. couldnt blog yesterday because i finished watching azumi 2 past 12am and then my mum scolded me so i had to go to sleep. azumi is sooo nice :D but i was so sad when ginkaku died! T.T and azumi was still paralysed and calling out for nachi... haiz...

so anyway, for job attachment, me crystal and felicia were at LG for the earlier part of the day, then we swopped with the other 3 who were doing at sony ericsson. the phones at sony ericsson arent as nice as the ones at LG, but the games are fun :D eg. sims 2. so we played quite a bit... then tried to serve customers and stuff. but sony ericsson there dont have chairs. and since my shoes are made of lousy quality and the sole is very thin, my feet hurt for the whole day again. stupid shoes. so nice looking but so lousy quality. my mum asked me if i wanted to change shoes, but i didnt... oh well. me crystal and felicia had lunch at long john silver and dinner at banquet. and we went window shopping. felicia went shopping, yeah. after we finished our work, me and crystal went to candy empire for me to buy chocolates :D and then crystal's mum came to fetch us. thank you to her :D

oh yah. then while standing there and stoning yesterday, i saw some guy who looked like songsim pass by. so i smsed him and asked if i just saw him in vivo. and it really was him leh! haha. i think that is so cool :D yeah i suppose i should have gone out and called him after he walked pass the sony ericsson shop, but cos there were customers inside so didnt dare to.

and then yesterday when i watched my azumi 2 finish le, then my mum told me to take the red envelope from the piano chair. i glanced at the piano chair and didnt see anything there, so i told her there wasnt any red envelope. [i thought she wanted me to take it for her, and i was thinking who would send anything in a red envelope cos all the companies send letters in white envelopes. and i was wondering whether it was some kind of bomb or what.] so then my mum asked me to open the piano chair and i opened it and i saw this red envelope with 'Jane 收~' on it. and i was surprised. looks like wanjane really sent me her letter. :D haha but her letter actually quite crap lah [no offence] cos she kept repeating stuff. and saying random stuff. haha. and her paper folding skills suck. haha. but yeah i was happy that i had a letter :D

i need to go practice my violin [this whole week im not going for violin or theory lesson just cos of the job attachment... T.T] and then later im meeting crystal. shall blog again sometime soon. :D byebye~

first day of job attachment. met up with crystal at around 10am at woodlands mrt and we took mrt all the way to harbourfront. played rubiks cube on the way there. was boring and i wasted my time, so i'll consider bringing homework to do tomorrow. we reached vivocity about an hour earlier, and we walked around. met debbie and abigail :D they came an hour earlier too. wow. went to check out the shop, then walked around again. the bookshop we went to was nice. i want to go there again tomorrow. and i feel so tempted to buy the whole of vivocity down. so many shops with nice but expensive stuff.

job attachment started at 12pm. me and crystal worked at LG all the way through. 5 people went to singtel, 5 to M1, and 6 to LG at first, but the 6 of us split into 2 groups. 3 at LG and 3 at sony ericsson, which is just next door. lunch was from 12.30pm - 1.30pm. me and crystal went to the chicken rice shop. the job attachment was quite boring because we were supposed to learn about the specifications of the handphones, then ask the customers 'how may i help you?' but we didnt ask because our personal experience is: the people in the shop asks 'how may i help you?' while we browse. we say 'we're just looking around' and leave the shop. yeah and a lot of people were just looking around so we didnt really ask. those who wanted servicing walked straight into the shop to the counter. quite sian and tiring because we had to stand up for quite long. and boring. i wonder what tomorrow will be like. but glad that there's roadshow on thursday and friday, so we wont be so bored. but anyway, all the handphones in there are uber cool :D we were allowed to go at 6.30pm today.

me and crystal walked around vivocity, then went to subway. it was my first time eating at subway. i only like the cookies :D they're extremely delicious. then we went to cocoa trees cos i wanted to buy cookies but the queue was long so i went to buy chocolates instead. D: bought 4 bars of tomblerone cos it was selling 'buy 3 get 1 free'. actually i only wanted to buy 2... finished a whole bar of tomblerone before we reached the mrt stn. took mrt all the way back and crystal was getting tired. played rubiks cube again on the way back, but it wasnt very fun. we were all tired and wanted to go home.

when i reached home, i bathed then continued watching my azumi :D did i mention? actually i finished watching hana kimi japan version le. so yesterday night i was wondering what to watch cos i was bored, and i scrolled down and saw azumi so i watched it. I LOVE THIS SHOW :D AZUMI ROCKS. yepp anyway going to watch azumi 2 now. seeya!

funny happenings.

i was supposed to go out early today to buy newspapers and teabreak for myself, my mum and my brother. but, i woke up late and kept delaying it until my mum finally told me to go in the evening and to go cut my hair at the same time. so, i went to cut my hair first, but its still quite long, so that was kind of like a waste of money ): after that, i was supposed to buy newspapers but i went to buy my audition card first instead. the counter person was weird but funny.

me: do you have the $10.70 audition card? (cos they only showed the $21.40 audition cards)
counter person: *turns and checks* we've run out of that. but the maple or ? ones are fine too. (? = i didnt hear clearly. probably some other asiasoft game)
me: oh ok... the maplestory card then.
counter person: ok. do you want to choose your card? i'll let you choose the card.
me: oh. um. anything lah.
counter person: anything? *turns to take the card* i give you the aeroplane one ok?
me: oh. ok.
counter person: *changes his mind* or i give you the bear lah. the bear cuter. *takes the bear card and places it on the counter*
me: oh. ok. thanks. *thinking: o.O what was that about?* *takes card* *looks at the BRIGHT PINK TEDDY BEAR on the card* *thinks: oh man... maybe i should have just chosen my card...*

and i was smiling all the way home because of that :D funny things make people smile.

and yes i did remember to buy the newspapers. but i went home and my mum said that my hair didnt look as if it was cut. and i think she wasnt too happy with my hair but she didnt nag, which i was much thankful for, cos i expected her to nag for about an hour.

说真的，其实我只有3个online 功课剩下，但不知道为什么，我们又加多一个功课了。就是chemistry quiz。我知道我的华文真的不太好（我不知道lan4是哪一个），但我还是要试试看，因为我真的很怕我今年的华文O水准会不及格。说回话题，那个chemistry quiz真的气死我了，因为不只有一个。我去看了，都可以晕倒呢。有6个耶！6个。我怎么可能有那么多时间去完成6个？1个就已经够烦了，现在还给我们6个，这样，我们怎么好好地去欣赏我们的假期呢？干脆不要有假期好了。

我其实应该觉得满爽的啦，因为我刚刚完成了我的geography功课。完成功课，的确是应该觉得开心，但完成了这个，记得了还有英文literature，advanced数学，social studies, 华文的功课，还有很多别的东西需要做。所以呢，虽然的确是应该觉得开心，但现在，我的心情真得很不好。非常非常非常非常超不爽。因为我真的没有时间，不够时间去完成我需要做的事。但如果你问我，后不后悔我在这段假期里没有好好认真地读书学习，我应该还是会说：不后悔。我决定的事情，从不后悔。而且，我不懂。错过学习时间，值得后悔吗？我觉得，根本就不值得啊。如果你用那段时间，做了你最喜欢做的事情，那这段时间，有什么好后悔呢？

我现在要去睡觉了:D 睡觉时是最舒服的，因为你根本就不用去想，想你今天做了什么或明天要做什么。所以我最爱睡觉了。希望能够有一个很精彩有趣的梦，让我放松，放下我全部的烦恼。你们也是！晚安！:D

400th post oO

had piano accompaniment session again today and i confirmed that i know that guy - Eric. we went for grade 4 group piano accompaniment session together. 2 years ago. haha. but anyway i'm happy cos i asked my piano accompaniment teacher and she said he's same grade as me :D that means he didnt go for the exam last year. phew so he's not grade 6 le. if not i'll feel damn paiseh cos he grade 6 le then i still stuck at grade 5. but i still think he's more pro than me D: haiz... anyway, i didnt take the exam last year cos my teacher didnt want me to... i think he thought i wasnt ready for grade 5 exam last year. this year actually he didnt want me to take the exam either, but i wanted to take, so yeah... oh well. yeah anyway i told my piano accompaniment teacher that i knew him and she was like 'oh. he's your friend ah?' and then when she opened the door for him to come in, she was saying 'eh eric, your friend.' but he was like 'huh?' lols. yepp and i like my piano accompaniment teacher cos she's nice :D

yesterday i woke up late as usual and amazingly, finished my bio homework! :O and i didnt turn on the laptop until evening! :O that is so surprising. i felt damn guai cos i didnt turn on the laptop, but i still suck cos i took so long to finish my homework. even i myself have no idea why i take so freaking long to finish my homework. i think i have a problem with putting my pen down onto the paper and writing. like even though i already know the answer, i keep checking to make sure its correct, before i actually write it down. which wastes a lot of time. but its a habit which i find very hard to break.... haiz...

yeah and i have 1 and a half more days, to finish up most of my homework. starting monday i have job attachment until friday, and saturday still have another piano accompaniment session and im going yiinghuey's house after that to have runaway band prac, so i probably wont have much time to do homework. and sunday.... last day of holiays... have to pack and all, and i'll probably be chionging homework until past midnight. haha who wants to bet that i wont?

shall go do some homework now. cos my mum's at home. and i forgot to mention - i started on ANOTHER video series. hana kimi - japan. -_- all wanjane's fault lah. i said that i didnt turn on the laptop for the whole day yesterday until evening time right? yah lah. then at night i was feeling very bored, then i went to read wanjane's blog, then she mentioned about hana kimi japan version and i decided to go watch... =.= i really really suck big time. no self discipline at all. my dad was sooo right to scold me cos i lack self discipline. so i better get doing my homework now, cos i want to watch my videos later. ciao!

i woke up at 8am today. 8am leh! chao early lah. and my mum asked me to eat a double cheeseburger for breakfast. -_- i dont like double cheeseburgers. haiz. only managed to finish it by 9am. then from 9am - 10am, i forgot what i did... anyway, i was late! again. as zoe puts it. she says im always late ): anyway, met zoe and linglan at yck mrt stn, then we took bus and walked to zoe's house. started doing a bit of our project first, but we 'digressed', as jocelyn calls it. she's one of our facilitators. yepp but we did quite a bit before jocelyn came, then peishan and janeal. i dunno why we whole day laughing de... but yeah it was quite fun, the meeting. and zoe's room is nice and her house is nice and she has her own room [ok not surprising, cos a lot of people have their own rooms] and she is rich. D: yeah then we actually wanted pizza/kfc for lunch but ended up eating instant noodles cos it was free from zoe's house. and it was nice :D i like instant noodles anyway, so yeah. jocelyn went off first, then we watched 老师嫁老大 cos we were bored and zoe had the movie. then we just decided to go home and finish up the proposal.

and i rushed home to bathe and go for theory lesson, which i wasnt late for :D great. and i collected my violin exam details today D: haiz have to inform the school... sian... and honestly, im so shocked with fear that i cant really feel any fear right now. when i got the details, i just read the whole thing and it was like 'oh. ok.' kind of thing. my whole mind is blank and i dont want to think about it. i have about 3 more weeks till my exam, in which i shall try to practice more if possible. i really dont want to think about it. its too tiring. i just want to do my best. and i know that my current standard is not my best, so i really have to buck up.

the first few weeks of term 3 is going to be quite hectic, i suppose. what with micromouse competition, o level chinese oral, and violin exam. plus chem and bio tests to study for. not to mention i hardly have any time left to prepare for term 3 because the whole of next week is job attachment week. please please please just let all of these go well so that i can return back to my normal daily life after i've gotten them over with. and i cant wait to go for chewlin's rgco concert in july because its a few days after o level chinese listening comprehension, which is good cos i'll feel very shuang going for a concert after an exam and a stressful few weeks of school. :D

i'm not done with my homework yet so i'll probably try to chiong these few days. and i'll probably study for chem after job attachment. and i doubt i'll have time to study for bio at all because its the same week as my violin exam and anyone in their right mind would rather study for an exam than a useless test. :/ hmm so maybe i should just study tomorrow or something. good idea. i'll try to finish my homework quickly and start studying. so i wont have to chiong so much when school reopens. am i getting guai-er? maybe its just the violin exam that is pressurizing me... haiz...

shall go do homework and dry my hair now :D goodnight

yay i was damn guai today can. i only watched 1 hour of video. haha want to know why? cos i woke up at 2.30pm -_- and i had to practice violin cos i had violin lesson in the evening. so i could only spare time for 1 hour of video. ): haha but like 2.30pm leh! its the 2nd time i woke up so late. i know the last time i woke up at 2.30pm, i was like :O I BROKE MY RECORD. YAY :D haha then my mum set the alarm clock at 10am for me actually [shhh dont tell her i woke up so late] normally she sets it around 11am, and i wake up around 1 or 2pm. not that bad. this time she set at 10am, i wake up at 2.30pm. wow. more than 4 hours later leh.

actually i woke up around 9am+ cos xiwen called me. then i woke up again cos elaine called me. -_- then i was like thinking: argh! why today so many calls so early in the morning! and then i sort of 故意 go back to sleep. haha :/ oops.

and i am seriously having weird dreams these few days. and, as i said so earlier, i dont know why but i just feel that they're very important. SIGH. i shall try sleeping a bit earlier today. since
i slept at 2am+ yesterday.

tomorrow i need to wake up early to go for environmental project meeting again -_- this time it'll be at zoe's house. I WANT TO EAT PIZZA TOMORROW OK! i feel very deprived...this holiday havent eaten pizza yet. :/ AND I HAVENT WATCH ANY MOVIES YET!!! D: so sad. i didnt watch any movies this holiday lehh. I WANT TO WATCH MOVIES! yeah so hope that tomorrow's meeting will be more fruitful than our first 2 meetings. we have to do quite a lot of things.

yeah ok and...back to my list of things im supposed to do during the holidays. just updated it, so here are the things left to do:
- study for tests next term [chem, bio]
- study everything that i've learnt so far
- practice violin
- practice piano
- practice guitar
- study theory
- study aural
- talk chinese
- chinese assessment book
- maths assessment book
- filing (maths)
- exercise
- watch movies
- reinstall hansware on laptop
- elit project
- ss project
- nyaa
- job attachment scrapbook
- homework x4
- online homework x5

i just realised that i've hardly done anything much. except complete 4 pieces of homework. and added some other stuff to my list, so... theres not much different in the length of this list and my previous list. haiz...

off to complete more homework. maybe i'll be able to cut down my online homework to 5 by the time i go to sleep. 加油!

12.36AM: yay im left with 5 pieces of online homework. goodnight! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WANJANE! :D
[sorry i made a mistake, i wished you 4 times. haha go count it yourself.]
eh but no fair you're 16 le. means you can watch nc16 shows. haiz.

haha hmm. today = 9 june ok. so today i met up with yiinghuey and crystal in the morning to go library. me and crystal ate instant noodles for breakfast, then we all went library and koped seats and did our homework! i felt damn guai today cos i wasnt playing around and i was the guai-est there, among the 3 of us. 很难得ok! normally im the slackest, as compared to yiinghuey and crystal de lor. but i think today crystal quite slack. o.O yiinghuey's normally very hardworking but today she seemed very tired. so yeah. i felt damn accomplished today! :D even though i only completed 2 pieces of homework plus a bit here and there. for lunch, me and crystal went down to the cafe to eat first, then i waited there while crystal went back up and yiinghuey came down. haha. felt stupid waiting there though :/ ah well. lunch was yummy (:

then we went back and did our work some more, then went to crystal's house. the first 20 minutes or so, we were playing with her new violin and just being random, then we finally settled down to watch sweeney todd. haha not scary de lor. the 2 people sitting next to me 吓到很惨 lor. yeah then we make the 气愤 more scary by making the living room dark. crystal's living room 本来就 very dark le lor, so we didnt turn on the lights, then no sunlight come in also, so quite dark. but it wasnt very scary to me lah. just... like crystal said, gory. besides that, quite okay lah. dont know why they say its m18. not fair can. if i watch this on tv, i wouldnt even know its m18. i'd think its pg13 can. -_- at most nc16, no further. haiz. feel so deprived cos i cant watch nc16 or m18 shows. ): oh yah, crystal's sofa damn shuang can. i sit there so long watching the movie until i felt like falling asleep. haha. :x oops. so basically i dont think sweeney todd should be m18 lor. i dont see why its m18. oh well.

yeah then i reached home around 7pm+, and sadly, my mum came home extra early today, which was bad, cos i got scolded again -_- haiz. but sort of used to it already lah. then played audi while eating dinner, cos was playing with yiinghuey and crystal. after that i just watched my videos. did i mention that i started on ANOTHER series - tokyo juliet. im rewatching it too. i really dont know whats gone wrong with my mind this holiday. dont blame me. i feel very sot diao rewatching so many things too, but sometimes i really very bored and nothing to do, so yeah... which means i started on 6 series this holidays. :O i siao le lah. normally holidays i at most start on 2 or 3 series only leh, unless its december holidays, cos thats longer. haiz. gonecase le...

yeah so nothing else lor. this week might have to chiong homework [very unlikely] and i think thursday i have meeting again. about the environmental project. yep. and i have no idea whats wrong with me these few days. i keep getting headaches.

another thing: yesterday, i dont know why, i just couldnt fall asleep. kept fidgeting on my bed and took very long to fall asleep. [that happens very rarely. maybe once in a few years?] i could even hear my own heartbeat and kept the beat in my mind, something like counting my heartbeats? but not really counting with numbers, just counting. without numbers. i dont know how i managed to fall asleep eventually. and even with that, i had a weird dream which made me very uneasy and i woke up in the middle of the night. [my mum was asking my brother to go to sleep, but i usually sleep like a pig and dont wake up when anyone talks or shouts, unless they shout in my ear] then when i went back to sleep, i had another weird dream, which was related to my previous one. and my dreams arent only weird, but.... i dont know why. i have a feeling they're very important. i dont know why would they be important, but i just have this 预感 that these dreams are important and i have to remember them and take them to heart.

i dont know if something is wrong with me these few days? all the things i've been doing.... they arent very normal. not what i would do during my usual holidays. hmm. i'll have to think about it. whether im ok or not.

well i've got to go to sleep now. scared that my mum might wake up and break the lovely silence of the night. dont you think its just amazing to be able to hear such silence? just occasional small sounds breaking it, nothing else louder than that. its really quite relaxing. yeah really got to go now. bye and goodnight.

someone slap me and get me to wake up from my ignorance and stop me from being so stubborn. im really nuts this holiday. normally i'll just watch my videos straight and finish watching them and then do my holiday homework during the last few days of the holidays. this time i think i've really gone overboard. i started watching 5 different series:
1) 小鱼儿与花无缺 cos i was halfway through that already
2) Net Deception cos i found out that someone actually put it on the internet
3) Blood+ cos i was feeling bored and wondering what to rewatch
4) Love Storm cos its on my list of videos to watch and i was feeling bored at that time and didnt feel like watching the above 3 series
5) Hana Kimi cos i watched it on television and decided to rewatch it again

so, basically, i started watching 1, then got bored and found 2, and started watching 2. then the next day i was feeling bored and didnt feel like watching 1 because it was around the last few episodes and those episodes werent very nice. didnt feel like watching 2 because i was too tired to stop the video every few seconds to read the chinese subtitles [its in canto and i dunno canto :/] so i started watching 3. watched 3 until very shuang for 2 days. then next day i woke up and decided to do my homework. but since everyone knows that i can hardly ever concentrate on my homework, i ended up searching for another video to watch - 4. so i started watching 4 for 2 days again, first part wasnt nice, but then the middle was nice and i was feeling shuang again. then saturday i woke up and went for piano accompaniment lesson, so i came home and watched 5 on the tv. i was like 'oh i forgot this is quite nice too' and decided to rewatch it on internet. -_- i suck right? and now i dont feel like watching 5, want to rewatch tokyo juliet and ko one. everything watch halfway then stop. freak. and i still havent watched finish the videos i stopped halfway from my last holiday break - corner with love, brown sugar macchiato, bull fighting. bull fighting im left with half of the last episode only, but i still havent watched after so long -_-

haha ok i bet you didnt understand all that. oh well. just telling you how slack i am and how i suck because this holiday i dunno whats gone wrong with me but i just feel like enjoying life and doing what i want to do and not study for school, even though o levels are just next year. i havent done any homework except english and half of maths which i did when i met up with crystal on monday. and i havent started studying anything. last time i remember saying that i'll concentrate on studying physics, but i havent touched it.

i think i've really lost any hope of getting good results or further studying. not because i didnt do well, but because i dont want to bother. im too lazy to face up to the work and pressure. if i do well in o levels, i'll get into a good jc, then i need to study for a levels, and then get into a good university, then study to get all the stupid doctorates and whatnot, and after that? work. work as a doctor or at least some good profession and earn money. for? the money? no way. are you nuts? i dont even love money, why would i spend so many years of my life pressurizing myself just cos of a good job and salary? when i look at it this way, i think i'd rather be a roadsweeper. serious. haha well i just realised, if my parents read this, i am oh-so-dead. but i have to admit, im just lazy. i just want to do what i want to, nothing more, nothing less.

and i dont know why, this holiday, im taking this extremely seriously. im really just doing what i want to - watching my videos and going out with my friends. when school reopens, i am so doomed. i know i'll definitely suffer when school reopens - what with chionging all my homework. but i just wont move to do it now. cos i doubt i'll get a chance to watch so many videos when school reopens. i know i wont. so for now, i suppose, just let me chiong my videos in peace. and when school reopens, then i'll chiong my homework, yeah? i really dont know whats right or wrong anymore. i just want to do what i want to do, and i definitely do not want to do homework. guess i'll have to keep on lying, huh?

and i realised that playing the violin CAN calm you down. like when your parents arent on talking terms and you're in the middle. i dont think i've experience this before. hmm. maybe i wont give it up after all. lets see how bah. or maybe i'll give it up, cos its too troublesome. i dont know. yeah and my parents are having a cold war? well its my mum who's having a cold war. my dad's just being himself so if my mum doesnt talk to him, he doesnt talk to her either. and its all because of some guy who my dad made friends with. cos he's a good friend to my dad, but my mum doesnt like it when my dad invites him over, which is quite often. yeah and he's about my brother's age bah. maybe a year or two older. he came over today and its probably the first time i saw him, cos the other times my dad invited him over, i wasnt at home, only my brother was at home. we werent too pleased cos they used my brother's computer and my laptop, but i think he's ok lah. as in, he seems ok, so i dont know why my mum has to kick up such a huge fuss over it, even though she's never met him before. but i know her character so... oh well. nothing i can do, i suppose.



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had ec meeting on thursday. stupid peishan make it so early! 害我 have to wake up so early to go for that stupid meeting. and then this elaine take so long. made me wait at mrt platform for 18mins and watch 4 trains go by. yeah then me elaine and vala were the first people there and we helped everyone to kope seats. then linglan came, and peishan and facil, and chaiyi. janeal and zoe didnt come. yeahh so we discussed lor... then peishan looked damn sleepy at first [her own fault lah =P] and i wasnt really in the mood to tell our facil abt the whole proj so she had to tell. yeah then cos we met at amk hub macs again, so i ate macs again -_- for brunch. oh and the starting part of the meeting, all of us weren't very enthu or anything. then linglan [佩服，佩服] asked elaine to help her get a helium balloon and she sucked it and started talking funny! all of us started laughing like siao. haha and linglan brought her laptop but the wireless internet couldnt work -_- yeah so the balloon thing was funny and later on elaine followed her and sucked the helium from the balloon too and talked funny too. to us it seemed quite fake but i suppose its real lah. haha. yeah and linglan's balloon almost flew away once.

after our meeting [it ended extra early], we went to the shop at amk hub which sells board games to go see if we could get any inspiration. ended up just going 'wah :O' at the games. when me and linglan got bored of the shop, we dragged peishan out cos we wanted to watch movie together. but there weren't any nice movies that were pg! D: stupid nc16 and m18 movies. argh. so we went back down and walked around, then linglan was hungry so we went food court. and then peishan see linglan eat and she became hungry too -_- so she bought food too. after that we went to linglan's house :D when we were walking out of amk hub, linglan actually went back to the guy giving out balloons and asked him to refill her balloon! LOLS. funny sia. by that time, she sucked 2 balloons already i think. haha. then i was eating my icecream while crossing the road and linglan was in front of us holding her balloon. peishan suddenly felt it was very funny cos she was wondering if linglan would suddenly fly with her balloon, so she grabbed my hand [the one which was holding my icecream!] while we were running across the road. my icecream almost dropped ok! scare me lah. had to stuff it into my mouth when the bus came.

reached linglan's house and were planning to watch movie on internet at first, but she couldnt get her internet connection back, so we played cards - blackjack then cheat. after that we played uno then monopoly. and all through it, peishan was trying to solve her rubiks cube which she bought from linglan. i think i lost 50 cents for the card games, cos peishan earned $1 [darn her. hmph.] and linglan lost 50 cents. at the end, we were watching tv while playing monopoly before linglan's mum came home and we left. yeah so basically quite a fun day, i suppose? reached home quite late but luckily i managed to bathe finish before my mum came home, so i told her i came home about 2 hours ago, just that i havent dried my hair yet. lol. theory was ok lor. really cant wait till exam though. after exam, i want to take individual theory. group is fun but uh... not very useful. yeah.

then friday whole day i watched videos. in the morning, crystal called me to ask if i wanted to meet up, but i said no. I SAID NO! D: HOW COULD I SAY NO! normally during holidays, when ppl ask if i want to go out during the hols, i'd immediately agree. must be because these few days im a bit siao. watch videos like some idiot and at the end of the day, all i get in return is a very bad headache. next day, wake up, watch videos, get headache but still stay up very late. -_- i dont learn my lesson. IM SO SORRY CRYSTAL! D: but im really not in the mood to go out. just feel like sleeping all day long.

然后，不知道为什么，我在假期时，睡得特别多。如果没什么事，不用出门，每天大概会睡10-12个小时。比如今天早上时，我需要比较早地起床，因为我有小提琴课。就是跟着弹钢琴的人一起拉小提琴。那我昨晚1点早上才去睡觉，今天早上9点就起床了。算起来已经8个小时了，但起床1个小时后，我还在打哈欠。我妈还说，我睡够多了，怎么还想回去睡觉，但我也不知道啊。

yeah so then my piano accompaniment lesson today was ok. oh yah! there was a drum lesson going on while i had my lesson, and i was like feeling damn shuang when i heard the drums :D DRUMS ARE COOL. I WANT A DRUMSET. just before my lesson ended, the teacher opened the door, cos her next student was here already, and she asked 'your lesson starts at 2.15 right?' and i think he nodded or something, so she closed back the door and turned her attention back to my lesson. then she saw me grinning [i was trying not to laugh], and she asked 'you know him ah?' then i said no. [i didnt even see him] so she asked 'then why you laugh?' then i was like 'oh um. nothing.' and focused on my lesson. [i was laughing cos it was funny to see her open the door, ask her next student something, then close back the door in his face] a minute or so later, i packed my stuff and got my bag and walked out of the room. while walking out, the other student got his stuff and walked in and i was like :O WHAT THE HELL I THINK I KNOW HIM AFTER ALL. im 90% sure its that guy who had group piano accompaniment lessons with me 2 years ago when i was sitting for grade 4 violin exam. well yeah he was sitting for grade 4 violin exam too at that time -_- so he's either grade 5 [same as me] or grade 6 now, but i think he's grade 5. oh no wait. let me change that. im quite sure he's grade 5. hopefully. haha but he seemed damn pro. well as least pro-er than 2 years ago when he was sitting for grade 4 exam. oh well. or maybe its just cos im landiao.

then the whole time when i was going home, i was thinking: 不会吧，不会那么巧吧... i sooo do not believe that it was really him. and i was thinking that if i really didnt 认错人 then that would be so uber cool cos its like really so coincidental. i think coincidences are cool :D haha but i dunno if he recognised me or not lah. i think it was him cos he seemed damn familiar and his dad seemed damn familiar too. if his mum was there, i'd be able to confirm. oh well. *sighs* haha but i still think its so cool! :D haha ok pardon my high-ness. yeah but dont you think its kind of ironic yet cool and amazing? how my teacher actually asked 'you know him ah?' and i didnt see him yet, so i said no, [at the same time, i was thinking, why on the world would i know him - cos i hardly have any violin friends] but then while i was walking out, i saw him and i was thinking 'hey! i think i DO know him after all!' lols i think its so damn funny lah.

yepp so today went home and watched tv. its been quite a while since i last watched tv. besides turning to look at the screen once in a while when my brother or mother's watching it. haha but i watched hana kimi so thats not very interesting. watched it on internet already. yepp then right now im blogging and planning to eat dinner then do my homework. lets hope i start being serious with homework cos i only have one week left to do my homework, cos its job attachment after that, then what we all dread - school reopens.

and i want my audition card!!! D: cos its the best i can get with what little money i have. although i seriously wouldnt complain if you gave me any other things on my wishlist :D ohohoh. get me an electric guitar or motorbike. i'll honour you if you do. haha. tata~

omg i feel sooo guai today :O cos even though i woke up at 1pm [cos my dad came home and went out again -_-], i didnt watch any videos or play any games! [ugh i dunno why, when i finished typing the previous sentence, i suddenly started feeling damn giddy] yeah then i dunno why i so guai... maybe its cos of my weird dreams i had last night, or cos i watched too much videos. ok the second option is unlikely, cos i ever tried watching videos for 2 whole weeks before, during either june or dec hols. turned out quite ok and i didnt suddenly become very guai the next day or anything. dunno lahh. but although i didnt watch any videos or play any games today, i didnt get anything done either :/ lol.

cos i woke up, then settled some cca thing, then made lunch [yay didnt have to eat that terrible beehoon cos i told my mum not to buy], then did theory for a while, and what do you know? it was 4.30pm already. wow time passes so fast. then i tried sleeping for half an hour but it started raining really noisily so i couldnt sleep. and then i dried the clothes and kept them [omg damn super guai can!] and practiced my violin as usual. and went for violin lesson. haha although i didnt bother to clean the wet staircase outside our door cos i was kind of late for violin and too lazy :/ big mistake. came home and totally got scolded. oh yah and i 'read' the papers. haha by flipping through it so that it looks like its been read. cos my mum just insists on me reading the papers and when i really go and read, i take very long cos i very interested in a lot of things, so it wastes my time. so i just flip through it and make it a bit messy, so it looks like its been read :D

and i know that my sms surely bao this month le lah. what did i send so much smses for? let me see...
1) wanjane! smsed wanjane a lot, cos farewell was just over.
2) programming section. had to sms the section to decide dates to work on micromouse, ask cheryl [cos she previous section leader] stuff, and get the section's details to register for competition.
3) environmental project. had to sms peishan about the proj and details, and sms the whole group to tell them about stuff.
4) crystal and yiinghuey. smsed them to meet up or other random stuff.
5) other random things and crappings.

yeah then i think im getting a bit stressed over violin exam... haiz... dunno leh. i think the main reason is cos sometimes i think im quite well prepared, sometimes i think im not prepared at all, and sometimes i think that maybe i can just go in and anyhow play and i might still pass. the thing is, i have NO IDEA AT ALL whether im prepared or not. as in, i dont even know what are the requirements for being prepared for the exam. -_- yeah so getting kind of stressed over it but i'll try practicing harder i suppose. its the only thing i can do, yeah?

shall go and play audi now. dunno if its still lagging, but hope its not, cos someone wants to seriously own me. hope i win instead :D seeya!

i shall try to stop my habit of numbering my posts. it wasnt always like that. i didnt number my posts last time. then when muni numbered hers, and she reached 100 or 200 and stuff like that, i started numbering mine too. i realise now that im such a copycat. ugh. im so disgusted at myself.

anyway, i realise that i havent been blogging for quite a while? especially since its the holidays and i should be very free. cant really remember what i did on sunday but i think basically, i woke up late, used the computer for almost the whole day, didnt practice my violin, rewatched episode 1 of net deception, and started watching my lovely blood+. something of that sort.

on monday, which is yesterday, i woke up very late, around 1pm, and was woken up by crystal's call. she called me to ask about english homework -_- i was like *press answer on the handphone* says sleepily, 'hello?' crystal asked if i had my english homework with me. i was like 'huh???' still sounding very sleepy. lol. anyway, talked to her for quite a while, then we decided to meet at semb library. i had to wash up quickly and i didnt even eat lunch. ok actually the didnt eat lunch part was on purpose. because our mum bought bee hoon again and me and my brother just refused to eat it, because we were totally sick of it. i think if i eat it again anytime soon, i'll just vomit. yeah so i just left house without eating my lunch, with my homework and everything.

met up with crystal and ate instant noodles from 7-11 for lunch. after that we went to the library to do our work. i managed to complete about half of maths paper 1 and half of amaths paper. thats not really a lot lah... but good enough. then about 2 or 3 hours later, we went out of the library and to macdonalds. bought food there and ate, then did our work. and i really ate a lot that day. 2 or 3 hours after eating instant noodles, i ate a filet meal, and then about 10 or 15 mins after that i ate a chocolate pancake from mr bean :D it was yummy ok! haha. actually i bought 2 and wanted to eat both, but i was feeling kind of full so i decided to eat it on the way home. anyway, did some work at macs, and i was complaining about not being able to go home to watch my blood+. i kept saying 'i want to watch my blood+' over and over again. haha. :/ yeah so after we were done i went home. that was around 6pm already i think.

oh and i forgot to mention that when i woke up at 1pm that day, my brother told me that one of the computers hard disk had probably crashed. so i was like :O what the hell and asked him which one. at first he didnt say clearly so i thought it was mine. after that i asked him again and he said that it was his. PHEW. yeah so even though i was happy that his computer wasnt working, i wasnt very happy either cos it'd mean that i'd have to share my laptop with him. and i didnt want to. and my brother said he wasnt too sure if it was the hard disk, so i just hoped he'd be able to fix it and went out to meet crystal. at that time, he'd opened his computer's CPU. when i came back, the whole computer room was in a mess. i guess he probably digged up programs and stuff, and his hand was injured and the CPU was still open. haha. yeahh so about 1 hour after i came home, he finally fixed his computer. he figured out that the problem was with the RAM, after testing if different parts of his computer was working, to find out if it was really the hard disk which crashed or some other part of the computer that wasnt working. so he managed to get his computer working after that and i was glad, cos it'd mean that i wouldnt have to share my laptop with him.

i told him to tell our mum that i went to NTUC for a while only, from around 6pm - 6.45pm, and he asked 'do you have anything nice to eat?' [he always asks that after i come home] but you could call it something like a bribe. cos i was asking him to lie to our mum for me. and then i was considering whether or not to give him my yummy chocolate pancake. gave it to him in the end ): i wanted to eat that actually ok! haiz. decided to give it to him since he took one whole afternoon to fix his computer. ok lah i have to admit that, this time, i think he was really pro, BUT, i still wont admit that he's my brother. like whateverrr. because he's so damn egoistic. you know what he said? here's a quote from him: "I'm so smart I should be considered a crime against humanity." like what the hell right. oh well. the earlier i grow up, the earlier i'd be able to move far far away from him and then i'll never have to see him again. yay for me (:

yeah then today i woke up at 1.30pm :/ haha oops. yeah and then i turned on my computer and started loading my blood+ videos. have been addicted to them ever since sunday night when i was thinking of what to do cos i was feeling bored, and decided to rewatch my blood+ videos. they're really nice ok! :D have been watching videos the whole day. started watching episode 16 after i woke up, and now im at episode 27 (: yay me. but the episodes are half-hour only, so yeah.

and i feel kind of guilty cos i havent done any work today. and i havent practiced my violin since saturday. 3 days never practice le leh! and tml i have violin lesson ): haiz. i guess i'll just have to practice harder tml. and get it over with. and i havent studied aural or done theory finish. :/ shall do it tml or sth too. for now, i want to watch my videos :D and my mum bought cheeseburger for me today cos i told her i'd definitely not be able to finish a packet of rice. yay :D i hate outside food now. i really really hate it. especially bee hoon.



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