ok so it seems like they're equal. my brother's hand is injured and my mum's foot is injured. but this whole thing is still rubbish. anyway, i managed to complete most of biology yesterday, so i just added in a bit more today, before handing up. as for chinese, i didnt do it because i remembered that we had 作文 - 报章报道 today. and teacher didnt come anyway, so yeah. i totally chionged it at the last part lahh. haha. i always seem to be short of time near the last part :/ we had speech during english and i think mine was ok. but i really have to agree with alison's way of looking at things. after her speech, she said she didnt do well. and huishan tried to comfort her by saying 'you did fine'. know what alison said? 'yeah, i did fine. not well, just fine.' see how high her standards are? :D really 佩服她. i was like WHOA when i heard that. i shall make alison my idol, cos her standards are HIGH, and that line she said, it was just so cool man. from now on, i shall be like her, and strive to do well and not just fine. oh yah. and mrs tan's back today :D yay. no more relief teachers :D

as for my results and grades so far, they have been deproving quite greatly. i have no idea why. maybe because i'm emphasizing more than ever how i DO NOT care if i fail or pass, so now i'm getting a challenge? like, to see if i really care or not. well, even if i really care, i wouldnt show it, right? anyway, i got my first fail for biology and first B4 for math in st nicks. [and it was E math, not A math] haha. that is certainly interesting. in a way, i'm not in any trouble right now, because i wont show the test papers to my mum [obviously], but i'm so dead when we get back our ppr at the end of the term. i have a feeling that i'm going to get a whole week of scolding during the september holidays, and wont be allowed to go out at all, unless its to go to school. so dont plan anything in the september holidays! its 99% confirmed that i wont be able to attend. yeah so anyway, i have no idea why i'm deproving. i mean, deproving is alright, but not knowing the reason for it is NOT alright. i guess i'll have to study harder for the math and chem tests next week, and start studying extra early for the bio test next next week.

today after school, crystal and i stayed back for the wushu kickboxing, then went to woodlands library for a while after that. at first crystal didnt want to go, but she went in the end, so i managed to borrow the 2 sequels to 'magic or madness' :D yay for me. i guess i'll read them on the train and bus to school this whole week. i must remind myself not to read them at any other times, because i need to use any other possible time to study for the tests next week. my dinner was from breadtalk: nacho cheese and a chocolate muffin. i bought marble cake too, but i'm feeling quite full, so i think i'll eat it during 9am break tomorrow. yay for me! oh its 9pm already. off to watch my tv :D bye!

for an updated report, i think my brother's hand is injured, cos i heard my mum saying something about his hand and i saw him looking at his hand just now. and my mum is still pissed at everyone. like, she's angry at my brother because he asked her to shut up and they quarrelled and fought, and she's angry at my dad cos he didnt intervene, and she's angry at me because a moment ago, i was on friendly terms with my brother. like what the. -_- really, whats her problem? haiz.

well, from just now until now, all i did was math homework. [it was only 2 questions :x] and i need to finish chinese and bio by tonight, cos they're both due tomorrow. plus, i want to watch a show from 8.45pm - 11pm. tell me i'm so dead. I AM SO DEAD. gahhh. crap. i ate instant noodles for dinner, and now i'm really full. :/ oops. maybe i should have just eaten bread. yepp so i guess i better chiong some homework now, before i watch tv. and my mum's seriously pissing me off. whats her freaking problem? is there a rule that says i cant talk to my brother? ugh. she scolds me just cos i talked to him. just because i TALKED to him. what the hell. my mood right now: *volcano erupting soon*

gahh. again. AGAIN. for goodness sake can't they stop it. its so irritating. they have no idea how annoying they are. or maybe they do. but whatever. heck. i was actually in a GOOD MOOD okay? until they started it again.

i woke up at 11am+ today, but both my mum and dad werent at home. i asked my brother and he said that they went out to eat breakfast. and i was totally shocked. how long havent they eaten breakfast together? so i didnt believe it at first. but then they came back together, so they must have eaten breakfast together right? yeahh so i was really happy cos i guess my mum's not angry at my dad anymore.

then while me and my brother were eating lunch, my mum just had to start complaining over something got to do with my brother's eating habits, and he started asking her to shut up [as usual] and then they started quarrelling ALL OVER AGAIN. its been quite a while ever since the last time they quarrelled. and their quarrels usually turn into fights. so they started fighting again. gahhh. what the hell is wrong with these two people?! cant they just get along? cant my mum just stop complaining and nagging so much? cant my brother just tolerate my mum's complaints? why do they have to fight over such a TRIVIAL matter?! it really makes me very pissed.

so i just ate a bit more of my lunch [i was losing my appetite while they were fighting] and threw the rest away. well, at least i didnt throw away much. and went on to polish my shoe and make my nice hot cup of milo :D and while i was making my milo, my dad came into the kitchen and started telling me how stupid they were. and i almost burst out laughing there and then. not because he said they were stupid [he's said that many times], but because, this was what i was seeing at that time: in the foreground [just in front of me], my dad was telling me about their behaviour and how stupid it was. in the background [the living room], i could very clearly see my mum and brother fighting. you know what it looked like? it totally looked like some television show! where the newsreporter stands in front and talks about whats going on behind! LOL. damn funny can. haha. i was trying hard not to laugh.

yeah and that scene lasted for about 20 seconds? maybe around there. then my dad went out [i'm guessing he went to take a breather] and they stopped soon after he went out. well, right now, i'm in the room where my dad and brother sleeps in. my brother's in the computer room and my mum's in the room i share with her. so i only have this room left, unless i want to stay in the living room. [which i dont, because its a total wreck.] plus, i need some private space. and my dad smsed me not long after he went out, so we talked a bit. but my dad's so funny! when i told him that they stopped quarrelling already, he said: there you are! i cant be very wrong with my knowledge! [haha yeah he's egoistic. you cant blame him. haha. but he's so funny lah.]

yeahh so now i think my mum's in a bad mood cos she just called me to do something and i took quite a long time, so she started nagging at me again. well, whatever. i hope my dad's coming home soon. i guess i better finish up some homework now. i dont want my homework to start piling up again.

i read quite a bit of 'magic or madness' yesterday, and finished it today afternoon. [well, i couldnt have finished it in the morning, because i only woke up at 1.30pm] then i started on 'sketches' and finished it not long ago. both books are quite nice. i'm looking forward to reading the sequels for 'magic or madness'.

and i actually ate the beehoon that my mum bought for us today. i am so shocked. i hardly touch the beehoon she buys, because just the smell alone horrifies me and makes me feel like vomiting. you would probably feel the same if you've been eating beehoon for your lunch almost every weekend and public holidays and school holidays. i wasnt very hungry today, but what made me eat the beehoon was because i needed to eat something while i was reading my book, else i would feel bored. oh no. i'm starting to think maybe my hobby is eating. that wouldnt be nice. i eat too much, really. here's what i usually eat on a normal school day if i stay back for cca:

1) breakfast before i go to school - bread and milo
2) recess in school - rice with dishes, or 2 pieces of bread with something, or noodles, or... well, just a full meal. just a few days ago, i ate 2 pratas and 1 french toast. yum :D
3) lunch in school - another full meal.
4) teabreak before i go home [after cca, cos i'll feel hungry] - french fries, anyone?
5) dinner when i get home - a packet of rice plus dishes.

although i do skip my meals sometimes. i've been skipping lunch these few weeks, because its not like i have anyone to eat lunch with, so i just skip it and go to the library to do extra studying. or, if i'm really hungry [which is a 100% chance], i grab some toast just before my cca starts. and i've been trying to miss out on my french fries just after cca too. because i found out that it makes me full and i seldom have appetite to eat dinner after that. oops. and i usually dont finish that packet of rice i get for dinner, especially if i've eaten something before that [either i ate out with crystal and yiinghuey, or i ate french fries on the way home]

but, ever since the start of this week, i've told my mum not to buy me dinner on mondays and fridays, and that i'll eat out with crystal and yiinghuey instead. so at least i wont be stuffing myself with dinner after getting back home, when i've just eaten a full meal about an hour ago. anyways, i realised that my eating times are irregular, because my rule is: eat when you're hungry. and i get hungry every 2 or 3 hours. see? i eat breakfast at 6am. i get hungry at 9am [but i never bring food for 9am break so i dont eat during that time] then i finally get to eat recess at 11am and i'm starving by that time. even though i might have eaten a full meal for recess, i would be hungry 3 hours later for lunch, at about 2.30pm. and even if i ate a full meal for lunch, i would get hungry during cca. :D i think my eating hours are interesting. so its better for me to just NOT eat a full meal, and eat light snacks every 2 or 3 hours. haha.

enough about what i eat. i woke up at 1.30pm today and havent done anything except read my books and eat. i didnt do any of my chores [shhh.] and i didnt practice my piano or violin or guitar either. [well, that was because my dad slept the whole afternoon, so i didnt have a chance to practice] i havent played my guitar in a long time. and i cant be bothered to practice much of my violin nowadays. its getting harder to learn. i just feel like giving up. :/ maybe i will at the end of this year or something. maybe it'll turn out that i failed my grade 5 violin exam, so i'll just tell my parents that i dont want to learn violin any more. whatever it is, i hope my parents will let me quit learning the violin at the end of this year. i already have it planned out. after quitting violin, i'll concentrate on my o levels next year [yeah right. as if.] and then i can start taking piano lessons when i get into jc.

ok right now i feel like starting my own business. then i'd be able to earn money. not just for myself, but for my parents too. i know i'm capable of doing that, but, i know i won't. my excuses? too busy, not interested, have homework to do, it'll take a lot of time to handle, need to study, etc. i guess you could say that i'm just trying to get away from all this crap. and if i dont feel like doing something, i just come up with excuses. 借口。通通都是借口。用来逃避这个世界的借口。不是吗？

oh well. i actually wanted to go to the library today to return my books. but by the time i was done reading, it was probably too late to go. guess i'll have to go on monday. i need to do my homework tomorrow, and practice my music. well, off to watch videos. see you!

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garwai: hello! :D haha. yeah i guess being numb is sort of bad? cos like. i wont bother to be sad over my failure, so i wont bother to study harder. :O no wait! must study harder! how could i say that? :x oops. but on the other hand, yay because its such an accomplishment to be so unfeeling :D



i miss my dad! i'm missing him a lot nowadays. he hasnt been around very often, especially these few days. and he hasnt been talking to me much these few weeks. D: i miss talking to him! i miss having those important issues talks with him, and stupid debates, random insults, or just telling him about some interesting event that happened that day. T.T i really really miss my dad! but even though he's busy, he still bought chocolates for us on tuesday :D i havent opened it yet though. then he wasnt around until thursday night. ): yeah so i shall start talking to him more when he's at home (:

we hardly have any homework this weekend. maths, chem, chinese only. yay :D oh yah. and theory. but that's all! marvelous. although i should start studying for EOYs i guess.... hmm. i might if i have time bah. still need to finish reading 2 library books. hopefully by tmr. one is overdue already, and the other is due tmr. i read dragon's keep today [i took the whole day. from about 6.30am on the mrt, before lessons start, during lessons, in between lessons, after school, in the library. until i finally finished it at about 5.30pm] and it was nice (: quite interesting storyline. although i think the ending was a bit rushed.

after school today, i went to woodlands library first. then crystal came and we stayed for a while, before we finally went home. well, crystal went home. i went to eat dinner at yoshinoya. cos i told my mum i'd be eating dinner out. well, i guess i'll either watch more videos or read my book after i'm done watching tv. bye!

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wanjane: oops :/ sorry i didnt reply your tag. but just look at when i last posted! i didnt blog any time after you tagged. until now lah. haha its tough being a section head. and what see me at work! =.= anyway, see you around!

chewlin: OKAY. I PROMISE I'LL SEE YOU REALLY SOON! :D if i dont, um... you can be angry with me? haha.



its been a while since i've last posted. nothing much happened from monday to wednesday, besides doing homework and studying for egeog test. you should see the things-to-do list in my student diary this week! its almost empty! :D yay! and, the things to do are minor bits of homework, unlike the compos and assignments from the previous weeks. its a good break from the past few busy weeks. and, when its empty, i feel so much more relaxed, because i know that i have very few things to do. i guess you could call this week a slack week. well, i DID mention that the RGCO concert would mean the end of a lot of things - programming competition, violin exam, chinese o level oral, worldview 360 competition, chinese o level listening comprehension, and a lot of tests and stress and pressure. i guess it really did.

i have been trying to be more attentive during lessons these few days, and am attempting to understand what the teacher is saying during lessons, and not only when i'm studying for a test the next day. i think there's a slight improvement in my short-attention-span condition. yay for me :D i'll just have to 加油 and work harder. i received my bio test papers on tuesday and it wasnt good. plus, the recent test [egeog] didnt go too well for me either. and i know that a lot of people are upset over their results. but, let me be that cold-hearted person who doesnt give a damn about things like this. so what if i failed? i dont care. and i dont care if you failed either. so dont tell me about it.

i know that recently, one of my friends is very upset with her grades as she have failed quite a number of tests. i know its common sense to comfort her when she's upset, but i dont think i did much to comfort her. in fact, i gave much thought to it and decided that it was best not to comfort her. why am i so mean? i dont think i'm mean. maybe its because i've gone through this stage and i know what its like to be at the bottom of a class. thats why, right now, i dont care about my results. they arent important to me any longer. whats the point, really? and since my friend is going through the same thing, i really think that, this isnt something i can help her with. she just has to learn to deal with it herself. some people might overcome this by working harder and getting better grades, while others [like me] might overcome it by slowly becoming numb to the stress. but you still have to face it yourself in the end. its not something anyone else can help you with.

i have math and chem and bio homework, but none are due tomorrow. :D i only have english speech tmr, which is hardly a challenge. plus, i ran home from theory lesson today, in the heavy rain, to watch my show ^^''



i can do it. i will do it. i must do it.

today's gathering made me HAPPY :D and i'm missing it already!

well, i was the first one at VCH, among everyone in the group. yay for me (: i reached at around 4.20pm? then muni came. and we went up to find chewlin and get the tickets from her. then deen came, then tg. and finally, oss and giff came together. and we swopped the seats for the guys. [we were feeling evil.] 1 person was supposed to sit alone, then 2 of them together. but in the end, all 3 of them sat together since they weren't too happy with their sitting arrangements. [and their unhappiness was caused by our swop in seats] oss had to sit in between tg and giff. haha. anyway, its been a while since i've seen them.

and oss and giff were quite late! tsktsk. so we made them buy the $2.50 roses for chewlin. haha. all the rest bought the $2 ones. :D so, all in all, chewlin had 6 flowers :D 1 from each of us. yep. we got oss and giff to buy the roses during the intermission, and they were de-thorning it. haha. but muni said that it was still thorny, cos she was the one who held the bouquet of flowers after the intermission. haha. chewlin! if its thorny, go find giff and oss! (: yeah. and me and deen were having a hard time trying to hold the roses in place before the intermission :/ before we finally handed it over to muni for her to hold after the intermission.

hmm. the RGCO concert was nice, but i think i prefer the DHSCO one that deen invited us to earlier this year. i found the songs more interesting. although the songs played after the intermission were quite nice :D the last song for the concert ended at around 7.15pm. it was supposed to be from 5pm - 7pm. but yeah. then there were 2 more encores, so the whole thing ended at about 7.45pm.

after that, we stood around and waited for chewlin to come out. oss and giff disappeared at first, but giff came back after a while and stood around waiting too. oss went to find all his friends, since he's from CO. by the time chewlin was done, it was around 8pm already i think. then we walked to raffles city. giff went off and city hall mrt stn. he didnt eat dinner with us D: oh well. and nick didnt come in the end. so it was just me, muni, deen, chewlin, oss and tg. took quite a while to decide what to eat. in the end, we went to the food court. me, muni and oss all ate roti prata :D i'm not sure what deen and chewlin ate. and tg didnt eat o.O he complained about their service i think. not too sure what though. yeah, then he helped me buy ice milo. thanks a lot tg, considering i cant even pay for my own milo? haha. oh well.

yeah and tg helped oss to buy a drink [crysanthemum tea] and money. haha. because there wasnt the honey dew sago that oss wanted, so tg gave him $2. then he somehow gave him another 20 cents. and oss was like 'what am i supposed to do with this?' and went tg went off and came back with some ice cream, i was suggesting that oss put the money in his ice cream. haha. because tg offered to put the money in oss's drink or stuff it down his mouth if he wouldnt accept it. haha. but no, i dont think oss put any money inside the ice cream lahh. haha. if he did, tg would have bit a coin, right? o.O and lets all just agree that tg's got mental issues? haha. and i think our group was the noisiest one in the food court. oops :x and although some of us [me and muni and i dont know who else] were probably feeling quite embarrassed, what with having some maniac sitting next to us, and try to pretend that we dont know him, i'm glad that there aren't any grudges or anything. [well, at least i shall assume that there are none? not with anyone there today, anyway.] cos we're all still friends, aren't we? :D

after dinner, it was 9.20pm already. we went down to the 1st floor, then just stood around waiting for tg to finish his you-might-find-a-lucky-coin-in-it ice cream. then me and muni were cold, so we grabbed deen. then i grabbed chewlin and she was warmer than deen. she was really warm, in fact. o.O a bit like she had a fever. hope she doesnt have a fever (: and then oss started being lame and said that chewlin's mum might appear from the ground. cos chewlin's mum was coming to fetch her, deen and oss home, and she was somewhere in the shopping mall but we didnt know where. and oss made us form a circle, so that chewlin's mum could appear from the ground. and he was just very lame lah, yeah? haha. then we took photos together :D haha. the guys took the photos. so the photos consisted of either the 4 of us plus oss, or plus tg.

yepp, then after that, me and muni and tg took the mrt home and talked about school stuff. and later on, i called my mum and she wasnt angry! which really made me happy and glad, because when she's angry at me, i can hardly be happy. so i'm really glad to everyone who made today such a great day for me! :D muni, deen, chewlin, oss, tg, giff [even though he didnt come for dinner with us], and my mum. and i dunno who else, but yeah. :D and i think i saw derek at the concert. that derek who was in charge of the astrofest thing, and who me and shushien passed the registration fees to, even though our payment was sort of late. yeah. that was interesting, seeing him there.

sorry chewlin! i still owe you $10 for the ticket! :/ oops.

and tg, if you're reading this right now, hope i didnt offend you in any way with my post. if i did, i really didnt mean to, yeah? i'm quite sure you're going to read this post, since you asked me to tell you when i was done.

yepp. i need to go sleep now. my mum's complaining that i'm staying up too late. i have geog test to study for, and math and chem homework to be done. all of which are not due tomorrow. HURRAY! :D i love today! although its been over for about half an hour now. oh well. seeyou!

didn't do anything much today. found a whole series of shows to watch :D even though i told myself that i was going to stop slacking so much and study more. well, not exactly study more, but read more about the world :D oh well, guess i'm unable to keep promises to myself.

did i mention that i couldnt find my blue mechanical shaker-pencil ever since this tuesday? i discovered it during lessons, and since i had chinese o level listening comprehension after that, i had to use a normal [note: NORMAL.] 2B pencil and huishan lent me her pencil too in case. i do NOT like using normal pencils. if i dropped it somewhere by mistake and didn't notice, then i won't hesitate to admit that i'm an absent-minded idiot. BUT. if anyone took my pencil, then you better return it back to me ASAP!!! i'm missing my favourite pencil already ): i miss my lovely nice blue pencil!

i can't wait to go for the concert tomorrow! [i'm sure you've heard it many times, but nevermind, it's alright to hear it yet again.] and chewlin told me that nick's not coming to the concert anymore cos he has a competition. like WHAT?! how could he? what kind of friend is that lah ): but at least he's coming to eat dinner with us after that. and, tg's going to the concert. so i guess its kind of like a replacement? haha. yay so we'll all be going for dinner after that :D me, muni, deen, chewlin, nick, oss, gifford, tg. :D great! [even though my mum's angry at me for going for the concert :/ oh well. can't be bothered with her lah. my friends are much much much more important, right? :D]

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wanjane: haha no i'm not -_- OH YAH. and its aisle. haha sorry i forgot? haven't used that word in a long long time.



HELLO. i feel HIGH now and i have no idea why.

i forgot to mention that yesterday's cca was weird. well, it was supposed to be sectionals, and i was supposed to bond with the sec1s? yeah something like that. but only half of the sec2s and 3s were there because the other half were doing njrc. and then there were supposed to be 5 new sec1s but there were only 3 there. so basically i just taught them some basic programming stuff, and then we played some games for a while, then we went back to the mouse. yeah. and i realise that my juniors are sadistic. tsktsk. and also quite lame. haha. we were doing this story thing, where you sit in a circle and each person adds one sentence to the story. and they kept saying the place caught fire and the people died and there were ghosts and it was haunted and then the place caught fire again and the ghosts died [how can ghosts die, by the way?] and it became a cemetery and it caught fire and etc... [you get the idea.] so after 2 stories, we started the 3rd one and i was telling them 'ok, no one's supposed to die in this story hor!' and then one of my juniors, when it was her turn, said something like 'he was dying soon.' and i was like :O whatttt? yeahh. haha. they're quite funny lah. :D

thursday night when i was going for theory, i saw jacq! :D and i thought the guy next to her was her boyfriend. haha. turns out he's her brother. but, well, how would i know? especially since i was behind them. yepp so i talked to her and her brother walked off to buy food [i think?] and we talked until her brother came back and i had to go for theory lesson. but i think its so cool to see her there! :D after theory, i brisk-walked home [i didnt run leh! :D] and i missed less of my tv show than i missed last week. good for me :D then i chionged 报章读后感 after the show, but i didnt complete it. did about 2 paragraphs, [which was a quarter only] and went to sleep, [i was tired :/] deciding that i would wake up early the next morning to do it.

today morning i woke up earlier than usual and did another 2 paragraphs. so i completed half of it by the time i set off for school. i missed the bus today though :/ and had to wait for the next one. but yay because jacq always takes the next bus, so its alright :D and when i reached school, huishan told me that she thought that i wasnt coming to school today. o.O and then i was supposed to do my chinese some more, but then since i came to school later, there wasnt time before assembly to do it.

today's lessons were the usual, plus math test. i have no idea why, but the lessons these few days are extremely slack. we hardly have any homework! :D really happy that we don't. so i'll be able to concentrate on studying for geog test next week. yay :D its a rare break. during recess, i was supposed to do my chinese, but i went to eat recess with the rest [french toast is nice but weird] so i didnt much time to do it. did a bit in the canteen, then came back to class and rushed it before lesson started, which, coincidentally, was chinese. :O i managed to finish 3 paragraphs before the lesson and i was feeling good about it. then during chinese lesson, i finished the last paragraph and handed it up. (: jessalyn sat next to me during chinese today. and she thinks my chinese standard really sucks. :/ oh well.

after school, i packed my bag within a minute and was ready to go find crystal. unfortunately, she was still having lesson and had phototaking after her lessons, so it was quite a waste of effort. i sat at the level bench and stoned for a bit. then walked around aimlessly and walked back to class. i forgot to mention, sharon's going to watch a rock concert today at ajc! :D i want to go! it is so freaking cool. anyway, waited for crystal for about an hour D: and finally went to the book fair. and since i waited for her for 1 whole hour, and had to rush back after that to meet yiinghuey, we only had about 1 hour and 15mins to look at the books! which really sucked BIG TIME. gahh. i want to go back to the book fair!!! its SOOO unfair that i only had 1 hour and 15mins there! i even take longer than that when i go to a normal bookshop! just feeling really pissed lah. and you are so NOT going to talk to me about this. i swear i'll just either blow up or ignore you for a month.

yeah but i'm still really looking forward to the RGCO concert this sunday! :D seeyou!

i seem to be forever chionging blog posts before i go for music lessons. i was supposed to study amaths during this time, but nevermind. besides that, i also have 报章报道 to do. anyway, i slept during chemistry lesson today, using alison's elephant as a pillow. and the teacher walked by to ask if i was ok. i told her that i was alright, just a bit tired, [what an understatement] and she walked off. oO our lessons are also quite crappy these few days. everything is so slack. i also seem to be eating a rather lot during recesses these few days. sharon and me went to play piano again today :D this weekend will probably be busy for me. ): and i really must stop mentioning that i know a certain someone.



what would you do if you've liked this guy for a while now, but you find out that your best friend likes him too?
i know this sounds so. only-happens-in-movies kind of thing, but what if it did really happen? hmm, i wonder. :D

on one hand, i'm glad that 听写 is over. but on the other hand, i have so many more things to do! lessons are quite slack for me these few days, because i hardly listen to what the teachers are saying. and during recess today, i was sitting on the opposite [ile? aile? ille? iyle? whats that word?] as wanjane. and i didnt notice at first, because there were a lot of people crowding around her table. then when they went off, i was quite surprised to see wanjane there. haha. and i ate a lot during recess today :/ like sharon, i was feeling junky :D then sharon and i went to play piano! :D it was so fun. can't wait to go again. (: i miss playing the piano.

after i reached home today, i called chewlin and talked to her while doing chemistry and theory homework :D i miss talking to chewlin on the phone! i remember i used to call her and talk to her for hours on the phone last time. my talk-time record came from talking to her. 1hour+ i think. haha :D and we're all doing our own stuff but still can talk, which is good (: and the RGCO concert is this sunday! hooray! :D i can't wait to see everyone - chewlin and muni and deen and nick and oss and gifford. i guess you could call it a mini gathering, which is still fun right! sad that i didnt go for the RI guitar concert though. chewlin told me about it. i love guitars! :D and tg performed too. haha. even though he didnt practice his pieces, i think.

okay i've got to go practice violin now. have to go for lesson in about 15mins. for today, since i've mainly finished my chemistry and theory homework already, all i'm left with is social studies homework. [i'll do my 报章报道 tmr] so i shall rush it later.

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wanjane: haha you weirdo! say must jiayou for my studies then say you hate school. and where got people say YOU must treat me, i insist. tsktsk. haha fine lor. i'll treat you after your o levels or something [if i have enough money] :D



today, i woke up and none of my muscles hurt. wow. how interesting. had to go to the spectators stand in the morning because of the kindness award thing, and they announced the council president today too - alison! (: and i managed to fit all the stuff under my table into my locker :D today's lessons were crap. hcl was just another listening comprehension, because our real one is in the afternoon. then our english teacher didn't come to school. there was a mathematics relief? teacher, but i didn't bother listening because his teaching style is different from our teacher's. and anyway, my mathematics notebook was in my locker and i didn't want to go through the trouble of taking it out. and our biology lesson was cut short because we had to leave the classrooms early to eat lunch, then have our chinese o level listening comprehension. basically, i studied a lot of 听写 throughout the day.

2.30pm - 3pm was freaking boring while we listened to the 92.4FM music. i'm more used to listening to music while doing something else. then, we had our listening comprehension for about 30 minutes, and we were free to go. i went to the library because i didn't feel like eating [i ate too much for recess, so much that i skipped lunch and teabreak] and studied 听写 some more. at 4.10pm, i went for cca and we had about an hour's course today. the first half an hour was spent listening but half studying my 听写 too. and the rest of the time, i just dozed off, because i was too tired. i can't believe i still sleep in school even after bringing forward my sleeping time about 3 hours in advance from my used-to-be usual. went home with wenyi after cca while it was pouring heavily. got wet and the bus took a long time to come. all in all, quite a fine day seeing how slack i was in school today.

what the crap i haven't practiced my violin. i had no time to practice. will have to chiong it tomorrow :/ shall go back to studying my 听写.

OMG what am i doing here?!?! my mum wants me to sleep at 11pm today :/ quite hard but i'll try. and i don't know what's up with her, but she is seriously AGAINST me watching the television these few days. and i can't NOT watch, you see, because i'm addicted! and it's not even my fault that i'm addicted. either way, i still have to sleep by 11pm so i shall rush this. i have to study 听写 right after this, then go to sleep. i still have to do theory homework, social studies homework, and chemistry homework, all by thursday. and our listening comprehension is tomorrow! go listen to 92.4FM at about 2.30pm! :D you'll hear our passage and questions and everything.

and, i need to clear out my table tomorrow because our classroom will be used for listening comprehension :/ which kind of sucks because my table is so full and heavy from books and files and other crap that you probably cant move it easily. i wonder how i'm going to clear it out. i'm doubting i can fit everything into my locker. i will have to go for cca after listening comprehension. i realised that i haven't been to 2 weeks of sectionals. and i'm the section leader! how irresponsible of me :/ i'm just worried about the sec ones now, because they probably have no idea what to do. can't wait to go for sectionals this thursday.

as for today, 20 people left for the hwachong institution literature seminar 15 minutes before the end of english lesson. which was good because we used the rest of the time [english and mathematics lessons] stoning and completing our own work. [by the way, what is it with nick? i even hear his name in my class lehh! tsktsk.] after school today, i had to go for the wushu kickboxing program with crystal and yiinghuey and some other people like peishan and wenyi. it was quite interesting, really. but i'm betting that my leg muscles will hurt when i wake up tomorrow morning. and it is a bit more complicated than i expected, but never mind. after the program [it ended early], we went to macs to eat and do our work. crystal stayed until about 7.15 or 7.20pm, while me and yiinghuey stayed until about 7.40pm. and, of course, i rushed home after that and got scolded by my mum as usual.

i seem to have a lot of things to do this week. oh no! its a few more minutes to 11pm. shall go and study 听写 now! by the way, thanks wanjane for helping me write the 汉语拼音 to all the words that i didn't know. [there was a lot] :D

when my mum is in a foul mood, she can go on for an hour or two. which really sucks, especially when you're trying to watch tv. i was happily watching hellboy when she started nagging and i was like 'oh no. not again...' and it was again. she just got really angry at us and then she started causing A LOT of trouble. like asking you to eat faster and getting you to do things while you're watching your very nice tv show, so that you'll miss it. and she was angry at my brother too. then she kept annoying me while i was watching my tv! its not that i watch tv often ok! just 1 hour every weekday. ever since last monday ONLY. before that, i didnt even touch the tv. because i usually only watch videos on my computer. and today, i just wanted to watch a nice show in peace for about 2 hours. *sigh* yeah, so i got really pissed at her too. but she cooled down already so its alright now.

putting that aside, i managed to finish my english speech and job attachment scrapbook :D not bad at all. feeling quite proud of my achievement right now. so im left with:

- study 听写 [wed]
- theory homework [thur]
- social studies assignment [thur]
- geography mindmap [thur, but i'm not going to do it yet]
- 报章报道 [fri]
- study additional mathematics [fri]

i think i shall start on my 听写 or theory homework later. i'd probably just do a little, then go and sleep. somehow today im not feeling very sleepy. nowadays i get start getting sleepy around 10 - 11pm. which is freaking annoying. how can that be?! when i used to sleep at 2 - 3am in primary school? no way. you must be kidding me. i wonder what's wrong with me. or maybe its just payback time since i used to sleep so late. but its still getting on my nerves because i need to complete homework earlier than usual. and i cant stay up late anymore, because i get tired so early in the night.

oooh it just started raining really heavily. and the clothes got wet ): but i like the smell of the rain. :D feels really refreshing. i guess i'll have a nice good sleep tonight.

so anyway, tomorrow will be the start of another week in school. how boring. i hope i read finish my storybooks quickly so i can start reading the encyclopedias. they are kind of interesting, you know. in a different way from my videos though. anyway, i dont have any nice videos to watch recently except nodame cantabile, and i'm not going to be playing anything these few weeks because i'm too pissed at my laptop for being so laggy and causing me to lose so many matches in games like topspeed [i tried the closed beta test] and audition. so, i'm better off just reading encyclopedias, i guess. its not like i'm any good at anything.

heres a rough diagram showing the expertise area of people:





its just a rough diagram, but yeah. see, if everyone starts off as 1, then a person who is good at languages and also not bad in the arts would be something like 2. an all rounded student [a raffles student, maybe?] would be 3. and then if you want to compare my expertise area to these people, its 4. i realised that i just spent about half an hour doing this diagram. oh well. better get back to work, seeing that i'm probably going to have to sleep soon. although i dont feel very sleepy right now, which is good :D

NOOO. i overshot my word limit by 98 words! i was doing english draft speech and the limit was 350 words. NOOO. now i need to edit it AGAIN. argh. this is so annoying. i am so pissed. to think that i was really serious just now when i started writing my speech. how am i supposed to cut out 98 words?! darn. *sigh* thats why im here blogging instead of cutting down on my words. just my introduction alone was more than 100 words already :/ i know that wasnt supposed to happen, but i was too inspired, so i couldnt NOT write it down. now what?! its too nice to cut out T.T but i guess i'll still have to cut it out in the end anyway. but 98 is seriously too much. almost a 100 words more. :O i always have problems with word limits. if i dont overshoot the word limit, then my story/speech/whatever sucks. if its good, then it overshoots the word limit. WHY?! nandaiyo?! [the proper word should be なぜ naze, right? i dunno. but i heard nandaiyo from all those animes and it sounds nicer, especially when you're frustrated. wait. i dont even learn japanese -_-]

ok so anyway, i didnt practice my guitar yesterday! D: and i only finished my math homework yesterday night, because i spent the rest of the time watching nodame cantabile. but for today, i WILL concentrate on my homework and get a sufficient amount of it done. by the way, thank you garwai for helping me scan the social studies pages, even though i have a feeling i might not be doing it any time soon :/ sorry if your efforts go to waste. here is my updated list of homework:

- english speech - edit [mon?]
- job attachment scrapbook [mon?][i decided to leave out the poster because i probably wont even bother to start on it]
- study 听写 [wed]
- theory homework [thur]
- social studies assignment [thur]
- geography mindmap [thur, but i'm not going to do it yet]
- 报章报道 [fri]
- study additional mathematics [fri]

its not really a big difference from the list yesterday. i guess i'll have to work harder. i have decided that once i finish reading my latest pile of books from my recent borrowing-book spree, i shall start being guai and read on more important things. like how our english teachers want us to read the english newspapers so that we know more about what's going on in the world, and how our chinese teachers always tell us to read more chinese newspapers and duzhe to improve our chinese, and how my mum tells me to read the encyclopedia because its informative and that reading storybooks is a complete waste of time, and how my dad has started reading malay books recently [he used to read mainly english and chinese books] and i have no idea why, because i didnt even know that his malay was that good. yeah. so i just have to work much much much harder.

even though a part of me still thinks that studying and doing homework is a waste of time. but right now, the guai part of me is stronger. i wonder when the slack part of me takes charge, because i'd really love to slack right now. *sigh* guess i'll have to edit my english speech, then maybe start on my scrapbook and then do something useful. at the same time, i shall eat tapioca crisps :D they're healthier than potato chips, at least, so my mum lets me eat more. seeyou!

tag reply (:
garwai: duhh i know the feng shui thing is crap. haha please lor. why do you need to sleep at a feng shui time anyway?

so yesterday i fell asleep while audition was on :O i must have been really tired. *sigh* i feel like slacking for today but i have a lot of work to do.

- job attachment scrapbook & poster [mon]
- english speech [mon?]
- mathematics homework [mon]
- study 听写 [wed]
- theory homework [thur]
- geography mindmap [thur]
- 报章报道 [fri]
- study additional mathematics [the test is on friday, but i didnt bring back any of my mathematics notebooks so i cant possibly study until i go back to school on monday]
wait. if i didnt bring back any of my mathematics notebooks, how am i going to do my mathematics homework? *groans*

anyway, why is it that i always prefer to do the things which are due later? anyway, i still have to polish my shoe and practice my guitar [i haven't practiced it in ages!] first, before i can start on any homework. [if i even want to start]

i also have chinese o level listening comprehension next tuesday. but i'm glad that the RGCO concert is next sunday. it'll mark the end of a tiring first 4 weeks in term 3 in school. and although next week still seems busy, i suppose it'll be much better after the listening comprehension and 听写, so i'm not too worried. unless i dont finish my homework in time.

i hope deen is alright.



just a quote:
'you can't possibly like him, because you grew up with him. to you, he is just the caring elder brother whom you've never had. that's why you can't like him. not even in a million years.'
i think thats just really sad ):

first things first. i shall reply my tags here today:

wanjane: thank you! :D but i cant donate $20 to you cos its not for a greater cause. how is buying music albums considered a greater cause? haha. btw, sorry i made you. um. jealous? by going to far-away shopping centres today and you were stuck in school with bio test. hope it went well! xD

mx: i hope you fail your math test! :D then i'll be happy. and thats good. haha. and anyway i'll pass my math and fail chinese, then you'll pass your chinese and fail math. so then we'll be even. :D i know im evil. and i dont care if you dont fail physics cos i dont even take physics -_-

mj: thanks, yeah? :D haha but i dont like asking teachers to repeat or teach me again :/ come to think of it, i dont remember ever doing that... o.O


WEDNESDAY 9 July 08
we had our council president election rally on wednesday. i have to admit that i think that this year's candidates arent as good as last year's. i dunno... just feel that their speeches werent as good as compared to the speeches of the candidates last year. anyway, i went home with alison after school. came home and practiced violin, then went for violin lesson. spent the night studying for maths. sorry i called you so late garwai! 害你不能在一个有风水的时间睡觉! haha. yeah then i went to sleep.


THURSDAY 10 July 08
on thursday, i studied for elit during recess. :/ but turns out i didnt use any of the quotes i memorised at all o.O

left class at 1.15pm [or rather, left the infinity lab] and met linglan and zoe. zoe went to find teacher so we waited for her, then we ate lunch in school and met at father barre to go for the worldview 360 grand finale. me, zoe and linglan reached the science centre earlier than the sec 2s and teacher, so zoe went to macs to buy food. at that time, i totally forgot that we had to go in by 3pm and i just went and bought an oreo mcflurry like linglan. :O what was i doing?! so we had to chiong finish eating our oreo mcflurry cos teacher came and she was quite angry at us i think. it was sooo cold that my tongue hurt and then became numb ): darn it. why the hell did i even get tempted to buy it in the first place? oh well.

then we went to the auditorium and listened to speeches and the top 3 groups presenting their project. i think the nushs group's project was quite detailed and good. the hua yi sec group's project was somewhat like ours, and the mayflower group's project was quite an eye opener for me. i dont know why, but i felt that the presentations were actually quite interesting, not like the usual course and workshops, so i was listening quite attentively. especially one of the facilitators asked a question like 'what about the students who do these things just for the CIP points?' to the guests of honour, which totally applies to a lot of friends i know. so i thought it was actually quite interesting for the answer to be 'its alright for them to participate, and we feel that as they take part in these activities, they will start coming back not just for the CIP points, but for the sense of satisfaction they feel when they help the environment.' i wonder when that will happen.

about halfway through, linglan started talking to the sec2s and their noise level was like REALLY LOUD. but obviously they didnt notice, so i told them to keep it down. and then linglan told the sec2s something about me, then she turned to me and asked why i was so interested in the presentations. i just told her that they probably didnt know it, but they were making a lot of noise. zoe, who was on my right, was just happily munching away on her nuggets and whatever other food she bought from macs. anyway, im wondering why im so interested in the talk too, but i guess its because this time, their presentation standard was low enough for me to understand most of it. no offence. on the contrary, i suppose its good. at least better than presenters using all the words which i dont even know-

*darn. i just missed 10 mins of my beach.ball.babes show just cos i was typing this! ARGH. FEELING PISSED. anyway, to continue where i left off,*

-the meanings to, cos then even i will get bored. but this time, i guess it really wasnt as bad as the others said it was. but its just pointless trying to change their mindset, so nevermind. anyway, another reason of me listening so attentively might be because i just felt like setting my mind to listening and understanding. i seldom do that okay. feel honoured, people. :D for example, i never set my mind to listening during lessons. i guess thats why my results are getting worse. but anyway, my attention span cant last long and doesnt come often, especially not for boring lessons in class every weekday.

yeah so after that we went back to amk mrt stn by taxi, cos teacher said we had to. but i really have to thank the taxi driver and linglan and zoe A LOT :D thanks guys! after i got home, i rushed some work and theory homework, then went for theory lesson. RAN home after theory lesson to watch my show! still missed about 20mins of it though. D: but thanks yiinghuey for helping me watch! :D thank you so so so much.


FRIDAY 11 JULY 08
today was quite a happy and relaxed day for me. finally :D and i went to rally with alison. its quite ok if they dont do any cheers or shout a lot. i didnt help alison to rally [even though im in her campaign team] for the past few days because i dont like these kind of things. 1) i dont like noise. 2) i get embarrassed really easily. 3) i'd rather study. 4) when i go canteen, i usually go straight to buy food, not walk around the whole canteen telling people who to vote for. 5) i dont like crowds. anyway, so today i went to rally with them and it was alright lor. and i saw wanjane. actually i didnt at first. she came up to me, whacked me, shouted at me, and walked off. she did ok! haha. then after that she came canteen again o.O and walked past me and we started shouting at each other. stupid lahh. haha. after the sticking-stickers-on-people thing, we ate recess together, which was the fun part. alison, shirley, cheryl, sharon, huishan, munfoong, huai chyn, and me. did i miss out anyone? hope not.

then ah, during the lessons after recess today, wanjane did something which she wasnt supposed to do. haha. shant say. later i get her into trouble. but like. tsktsk. she was actually sleeping during lessons before that. anyway, she is a very bad example ok! tsktsk. senior leh. must set good example mah. haha. lalala. and she had bio test after school. =P

after school, i went to braddell with crystal and abigail chua, cos they wanted to order choir comm tee. took a while to find the place. but the guy there - ben - was quite nice, and they didnt even pay enough deposit. but yeah, they got it settled in the end. then me and crystal went plaza sing to get the banner for their choir farewell. after that, we went vivo to get foam for the banner, and then i went home at last. crystal's dad was fetching her from somewhere else. so bascially, i travelled half of singapore today. the whole left half. i mean like, from our school in amk, to the industrial buildings in braddell, to plaza sing in dhoby ghaut, to vivocity at habourfront, then all the way back home, going past jurong east to woodlands. too bad i just didnt return my library books. besides that, im very satisfied. plus, i bought bread and a new pen :D yay. it was like going on a shopping race, cos the later part when me and crystal went to plaza sing and vivo, we were sort of rushing for time. but glad that crystal got her materials for choir farewell lahh. (:

i reached home at 7.20pm, and i was like SHIT. and brisk walked home. then i quickly bathed and got out of the toilet and pretended like i've been at home for quite a while already. PHEW. everything went just fine today. not like other days when i come home late and get caught. yay so today is really a good day. i shall go relax now, probably by playing some games and maybe writing my novel :D maybe i'll put down a list of my homework tomorrow or something. byebye!

homework im still left with:
- english speech [? due fri?]
- math homework [due tmr]
- job attachment scrapbook & A3 poster [asap]
- study for math test [on thur]
- study for elit test [on thur]
- chem homework [due thur]
- theory homework [due thur]

:/ haiz.

well today was the usual. we had 私函 during hcl today. then grammar test during english. and basketball for PE. yay i like basketball :D its so fun! i prefer basketball than netball. during maths, i dunno why i could hardly catch up with anything teacher was saying, so i felt really stressed and pissed. cos i seldom NOT understand maths unless i CHOOSE not to understand. and i was trying really really hard to understand it today. and when i get stressed and pissed, i can just start crying :/ which i ALMOST did today during maths lesson, but luckily, i managed to not drip any tears. haiz. bio was the usual. we were released earlier after bio, so the class was dismissed, but for the first few minutes, no one left because most of the class was trying to finish their maths homework. its quite interesting to see almost the whole class chionging maths homework.

i didnt eat at all in school today, because i need to save up $30. shall not state the reason here. yeah but then, all my HARD-EARNED effort went to waste, when jolene told me that i owe her $5. AW MAN. yeah so i paid her $5 and, as a result, i need to save up another extra day. CRAP. starving for another day? i dont know if i can take it. i was planning to starve in school for 2 weeks, cos i think i should be able to get $30 by the end of 2 weeks. i really hope so. i dont want to starve any longer than that. my stomach wont be able to take it. plus, today during cca, we were using photoshop and i was photoshopping this REALLY DELICIOUS-LOOKING CHOCOLATE COOKIES. and i made them look even nicer :D it looked so yummy that i felt like
eating it too. D: and i bought egg tarts when i finally reached the bread shop near my house, because i really couldnt stand the temptation. uh oh. ): ok. i shall not eat at all tomorrow until i reach home. and if my house doesnt have any food, then too bad for me.

tomorrow's the election rallies. im in alison's campaign team so we'll be helping her with her walk-in before her speech, i think. i guess it'll be quite fun, the whole election rallies. really looking forward to hearing everyone's speeches, cos i still havent decided who i'll choose for council president. all the 5 people running for council president are really good choices, so i havent decided yet. and im glad no one in our class has to go support the swim team. not that we dont want to, but since there are 2 people in our class running for council president, it'll really be a waste if not the whole class is there, yeah? looking forward to tomorrow :D

shall go do some homework now, because i want to watch tv later from 9pm - 10pm :D there's this new tv show called beach.ball.babes and yeah the title sounds kind of wrong, right? but i think its ok lah. cos i saw the debut yesterday [i was already listening attentively while doing my chinese compo, cos i couldnt see the screen cos i was looking at my compo paper, but i was listening to every word they said ok! :D] and it was quite nice, so i shall chiong my homework now. my mum's against me watching tv D: cos she knows i always get addicted. but im already addicted, so, too bad :P

well, i went out today for deen's dad's funeral. yeah. met chewlin at compass point. [and i thought i was late. chewlin was later and muni was later than her and nick was just plain LATE.] yeah me and chewlin went shopping for something first, while waiting for the rest to come. so we got deen a card and then muni came, so we all went to the food court to sit down and write in the card. chewlin first. and nick came while we were there. then muni wrote halfway and passed to me to write first, then she came back to write, and then nick got chewlin to write for him. yeah and muni went to buy M&Ms :D which we all ate. i took the most, but nick stole the most. haha. yeah and nick was like 'super busy' with his phone calls and everything, that we could memorise what he said already. cos he kept saying the same things to his friends. [he was trying to get them to help him print out his assignment or project of some sort that was due today, cos he left his laptop in school. good for him :D] and we were all laughing at him [hellooo. he was fidgeting in his seat like a worm while talking on the phone :O] and i was guessing that he'd probably be saying the exact same thing 5 phone calls later. haha.

then after we were done, we went to take bus to deen's house, but the bus took very long so we went to take lrt. and i borrowed nick's psp to play but the final fantasy game was boring cos, like nick said, it was a strategy game. i prefer action games :D i was pressing the psp frantically cos it was so boring. haha no offence. then when we finally arrived at deen's void deck, she wasnt there, so we sat around first. she came with sugi and then we all sat around the table and started eating nuts and drinking water and playing cards. and seems like nick is quite popular. deen's mum was like 'so handsome' and then her family members started talking about him and then deen said that apparently, her family members think that nick is her 5-year-old cousin's future husband. like WHAT?! like seriously, LOL. and nick mentioned that when he was in the mrt coming here, a lot of people were staring at him and he heard 'best speaker'. lols. he's famous. yeah so anyway he went off earlier cos he had to go to school to get his work and then go to some place in newton to hand it in. and deen was like saying 'yeah, you better go before my cousin comes.' cos her cousin was coming later.

so after nick left, then we continued playing cards, then andrew and russ lim came. seems like tg and andrew came yesterday already. yeah so we continued playing. and then chewlin had to go. and then andrew and russ lim [guys. *sighs*] started playing with stuff like the frozen drinks and frozen water, while we continued playing cards. then 3 of deen's friends from dunman came and they talked a bit. and andrew and russ lim went off soon after they had enough fun with their frozen water. yeah then me and muni left after that. D: really quite sad to go. like someone said, [or did many people say that already? hmm i think it was just nick and muni] its a rare gathering. even though the occasion wasnt very appropriate, but yeah, it was still a gathering, nevertheless. so it was really quite sad to leave. so muni and i took the lrt, then mrt, all the way back home. i sort of fell asleep in the first half of the journey, then the second half i was doing my chinese compo draft. did i mention that deen's dad's funeral somehow reminded me of my grandma's funeral. its the 2nd funeral i've been too.

anyway, i have a whole pile of incomplete homework:
- english speech [due tmr]
- chinese compo [due tmr]
- 2 pieces of math homework [1 due tmr, 1 due wed]
- english file [bring tmr]
- study for math test [tmr]
- job attachment scrapbook & A3 poster [due tmr]
- chem homework [due thur]
- study for elit test [thur]
- theory homework [due thur]
i wonder what will happen if i go to school tomorrow and tell my teachers whose homework i didnt bring that i didnt have time to do it. o.O maybe i should try. but i'd probably have to do that anyway, like it or not. well, better be off doing my homework now. i still have about 3 hours. maybe i can finish some things by then.



stay strong, we'll be here for you.

thursday night i studied for 2 out of 3 topics of bio. actually i didnt want to study de. i asked my mum 'can i not study for ONE test?' and she was like 'what test?' very suspiciously and suddenly. then i was like 'uh. bio?' then she started scolding me and nagging at me and telling me that i should have studied earlier and this is what i get from not studying earlier and everytime i study also fall asleep one, how to pass any tests, and i was supposed to study for it during the weekends and blahblahblah. which also meant: NO. so i studied 2 topics and went to sleep. studied the other topic in school on friday. the bio test was ok lah. [everything is ok to me anyway] yeah and then last lesson was english and most of the class had to go for chinese o level oral so 8 of us were left behind, doing english speech. after that i went home with crystal. we went to eat at kfc then went to library to find books.

did i mention that im on this borrowing-book spree?

i borrowed the top 3 of the books from school library and bottom 5 from woodlands library. plus, i swopped 2 of these books for another 3 books yesterday, when i went to the library again, with crystal and yiinghuey. yeah we went to the library, and we were supposed to do homework. well, they did. but i didnt. i was stuck there trying to finish reading my book so that i could return it and borrow more :D

and we're coming up with this new thing. fantasy: theres this royal family, and most of them resemble us and our fuchun friends. thus, we're going to write a story each, from points of view of 3 different characters. 3 princesses who are triplets, and got separated when they were very young.

and i have to do my homework and study, cos i havent started on anything. dum dee dum. good luck to me. plus im going out tomorrow.

Stay strong. We'll be here for you if you ever need us.

yesterday i had violin lesson in the evening. when i was done, i realised it was raining really heavily and i forgot to bring my umbrella. so i stoned there and walked around and found a shop which sold umbrellas but then i went to check the rain and it was drizzling only, so i went home without an umbrella after all. when i got home, i ate dinner then started studying for chinese oral. i would really really like to thank wanjane for coaching me on chinese oral for 1 and a half hours. 真的非常谢谢你！and i'm so sorry for using up so much of your time. 对不起！after that, i went to sleep because it was almost 12am already. felt very satisfied cos i studied. cos i wasnt planning to study actually.

this morning i woke up early but not early enough :/ anyway, met sufyan on the train again, as usual. did i mention that i keep seeing him on the train nowadays? either cos i go to school earlier or he goes to school later. or both. haha. yeah then i went to school and i called wanjane in the morning. then she told me that the call time yesterday night was 1 and a half hours. i was quite amazed. haha. but we used house phone, so i guess its alright. then she didnt want to come to my class [so evil right] so i suggested going her class [actually i dont want to go her class either] then in the end we just sat at the bench and talked until we had to go for assembly. saw her during recess again! :D haha. at the bench there again. and when she bought a tray of drinks for her friends. then after that when i finished eating in the canteen, she was somewhere around also. yeah. weird.

then index no. 1 - 4 in our class left assembly earlier to go for chinese o level oral. that includes me. yeah so we waited at the waiting room really long, cos we were the last few. hellooo i was the last person? at the waiting room, i tried to study, and stoned, and became bored, and had a slight headache, and wanted to sleep. then finally my turn. the passage is probably quite easy to most people bah. but there were quite a number of words which i didnt know how to read. then i just sat there and stoned lor. didnt get nervous until i entered the exam room, sat down on the chair, and took the paper to read. then i started getting nervous so i read the passage at a weird pace. haha. and then the examiner gave the topic. it was the exact same one we had during oral prelims. and i screwed it up still, cos i didnt even practice or think of that topic. basically i said almost the same as what i said during my oral prelims [which got me quite a low mark for it], so i suppose my chinese oral might be a just-pass. well, better than a fail, right? (: yeah, and at least i understood the topic, right? better than not understanding, cos that would be much much worst. and at least i said something.

came home and felt extremely tired. watched a few episodes of nodame cantabile :D yeah then i practiced my violin too. guai right? but i havent studied for bio test tmr, so my future looks quite bleak right now. shall go eat dinner now (:

FINALLY. my violin exam is finally over. and it just lasted for 20 minutes. :O haha yeah so i went to school early in the morning and stone during lessons - hcl, elit, bio. until 10mins before recess. then i packed my bag and alison just HAD TO say SO loudly that i was going for piano exam to the teacher. haha yes she said piano exam. then someone said 'violin exam lah' or something like that quite loudly too. i have no idea who. but anyway, because of that, the whole class was like 'good luck! good luck!' and i felt damn paiseh. :/ haha and amanda was like 'jane! you play *acts out playing the violin action*?' haha so cute. yeah then alison went to find teachers with me to get their signatures, then wished me good luck and hugged me :D thanks alison. must thank huishan too. she pasted 2 'jiayou' post-it notes in my student diary, 1 yesterday and 1 today :D thank you huishan!

yeah so i left school and i missed the bus -_- so i had to wait very long for the next one. then cos i left at almost-recess time, so i was wondering if anyone would sms me, cos its recess anyway and they can use their handphones. and cos i was feeling bored. then a few minutes later, still sitting there and feeling very sian, wanjane called me! :O i was thinking why she would call me unless she knows im going for violin exam now which i doubted that she knew. turns out she called me to ask if i was in the canteen. haha. so i told her i wasnt in school and that i was going for violin exam. and she told me 'jiayou' i-dunno-how-many-times. thank you! :D

went home first, then practiced a bit and went for my exam. i was a bit late :/ so i had lesser time to practice there. my teacher was trying to go through as much as possible in that 50mins or so. praticed with the pianist too. then went in for my exam with just my violin and my book. :O but it wasnt so scary cos this time, i played my exam pieces first. i remember that for my last exam, i just went in alone to do the scales first. since i played my exam pieces, the pianist was there too, so at least it wasnt that scary. and the examiner is nice. i think examiners are always nice :D or at least, so far all my examiners were nice. i remember the last time i had my exam, i had butterflies in my stomach cos i was so nervous and almost had a stomachache. and played a lot of notes wrongly. this time, i still played wrongly but i think it was... not that bad. still ok. scales was ok. sight reading was marvelously terrible. aural was ok except for the last section. 'ok' meaning that i could do it but not that i will pass. after that, i left the exam room, went to take my bag, and went off. jiayou to the girl who was practicing with the pianist when i entered the room :D even though i dont know you, but yeah, just jiayou! :D

while i was walking towards the lift, i took out my handphone and started wondering who to sms to tell that my violin exam was over. after i entered the lift, wanjane called me! yes, again. haha. her timing is damn 准 can. i told her that i JUST finished my exam and she started saying that she was pro. again. fine lor. i shall admit that she is pro. haha. but i think its really cool :D i wonder if this is called 巧 or 缘分? haha. yeah so anyway she asked me to go sleep. haha i really want to, [i slept in class today even though it was only half a day] but i cant. i have violin lesson later. and then i need to study for chinese oral D: i'll be glad when this is over. hmm. maybe i'll rest a bit though. later or something.

PHEW. what a tiring day in school. usual lessons are getting boring. luckily i managed to finish up cutting out the elephants yesterday night, but had to paste them during lessons today. during recess, me and crystal went to find a teacher, then after that we went to library and crystal helped me get the books of the princess diaries that im missing. thanks crystal :D although im still missing some. oh and it seems my math homework is wanted. again. thanks huishan for writing encouraging notes to me :D and thanks jessalyn for [i know this is weird] wishing me luck twice while shaking my hand. and i still havent finished alison's elephants. shall finish them up later. after lessons, some of us had this extra bio spa lesson cos we didnt attend it during the holidays. so i rushed for cca after that. this caroline whole day tell me i late lor -_- haha no lah i wasnt late (: cos i had valid reason. went home with wenyi after cca. wenyi had a totally different opinion of my violin exam though. she said there's no reason to get stressed, cos violin is supposed to make you relax. sounds very logical, doesnt it? i know thats true, but. its difficult to relax. its really difficult.

tomorrow's my violin exam already. and the last finger on my left hand is swollen and hurts when i press it down on anything. and i havent practiced my violin for 2 days. but i suppose all this is immaterial. what matters is if i really want to play the violin with my heart and if i love music, right? if i do, then everything else will come naturally. i hope so, at least. i can do it. i can do it if i try. i can do it if i'd just give it a shot. i can do it if i really want to. OK! lets go get some work done!