yawn. i dunno why i always feel so tired when i get home from school. D: thought i would be able to study theory, but i'm just too tired and i'll probably just fall asleep. :/ crap. today, i went to school quite late and saw sufyan on the train. quite surprising really, since i usually only meet him on one of those earlier trains. and its so unfair that ri is only having school until 4 nov. D: i think our school is really the only one which has lessons until so late into the holidays.

anyway, lessons today were boring, but luckily there wasnt hcl. egeog was boring, then we had the campus live 938 coming over to talk to us, and then early recess. after that was bio and 2 hours of mahts. after school, i went walked to the bus stop with debbie and the rest, since crystal said that she might take quite a while as she had to go do mep stuff. when i got to the bus stop, i called crystal and she was at the other bus stop. so i met her at the mrt and went home with her. tested each other on theory during lunch at mos burger. :D it was super fun and its quite a good place to study too. the environment is much better there. studied theory until around 4.45pm when we finally went home. when i got home, my mood to study just poof disappeared. D: crap. shall go study again later.

i'll do my best for theory exam tomorrow, yeah? :D

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jessica: haha no i wont miss the fun! and i cant believe you all actually didnt tell me about it earlierrrr!!! i had to ask wanyee! hurr. D:

MJ: EHH. you want your ice cream now arh? haha okay lah i buy now and walk over to your house, see if its still an ice cream or become soup already. [what an impatient person. tsktsk.] of course must wait until we meet up during gathering or something right.

suzume: yeahh i guess so. i thought there was something wrong with my laptop at first. :/ haiz. sian.



OMG YOU KNOW WHAT. I JUST REALISED THAT THEORY EXAM CONSISTS OF ONLY 1 PAPER! LOL. i thought it was 4 papers! because we did revision on papers A, B, C, and S what. so i thought our exam would be that whole set. haha i suck right. i called crystal to confirm, and i think she found it quite humourous that i actually thought that there were going to be 4 papers. oops? haha sorry lah i didnt know mahh. i never actually thought that it was possible to have 1 paper in 2 hours. thats why it never occurred to me. until my friend told me. lol. with 2 hours to complete the paper, i think i should be able to get at least a 90 bah. if i dont, i'll slap myself twice. hard. :D

after reading jessica's tag, i went to ask wanyee what was going on on saturday, and she and jac are actually going to jessica's house! tsk. never tell me earlier. HOW COULD YOU LEAVE ME OUT OF THE FUN! D: make me feel so... outsider. haizzz. haha but nevermind. now that i know, i want to go! plus, its after my theory exam, so thats great, isnt it? :D but they wanted to go night safari after that... :/ but i dunno if i can go for that. my mum didnt really agree to letting me go to jessica's house, but from her tone, should be can lah. but the night safari one will be much harder to persuade her into letting me go. jessica said they can dont go. but then that will mean that i 害他们 cannot go night safari. so yeah, i'll try persuading my mum and see how it goes.

today, debbie didn't come to school! D: she said her throat was really bad, and i bet it was because she ate my hashbrown. TSK. told her not to eat it, but she just had to eat it. sighh. shan't let her eat these kind of junk food next time. not even if she whacks me really hard many times. so anyway, no table partner today D: had to endure 3 hours of chinese on my own. the first hour was quite slack and i fell asleep for quite a while, i think. haha zhuangyun saw me sleeping :/ oops. oh well. at least teacher didnt. second hour was quite awake and copied a lot. third hour was copying too, but was more tired, and it consisted more of listening, so i half listened and half studied theory :D

during recess, i stayed in class to do my bio homework and study theory. thanks zhuangyun for helping me to buy chocolate toast (: after that, we had maths. finished the questions we had to do super fast and studied theory :D bio after that was okay. spent the later half at the lab cutting up potato slices. it was rather fun and made me craving for french fries after that. :D had maths again for last period, and i was [as usual] studying theory. basically, i think i spent most of the day today studying theory. o.O haha i think i managed to study finish most of the italian terms up to grade 4. after school, went home with crystal only. yiinghuey had some stuff to do. after that, i waited for yiinghuey at cwp to eat lunch together. crystal couldnt stay :/ she had to go home and study for theory. anyway, we went to eat at macs, then window-shopped for about an hour plus, going into a lot of shops and seeing a lot of stuff, and finally went home feeling super tired.

i was supposed to study more theory when i got home, but i fell asleep! tsk. lucky my mum came home about 5mins after i fell asleep, which woke me up and reminded me that i was going to be late for theory lesson if i didnt hurry. theory lesson was :/ sian. teacher spent most of the time marking our papers, and i just self-studied. i guess i'll have to chiong tomorrow, since i'm so slack today. or maybe i can study during lessons again tomorrow. :D came home and ate dinner super late. around 9.30pm - 10pm. and then i wanted to play audi, but there's this stupid patch which is using up a lot of time. had to go download the patch from the website. sianz. maybe i should go study theory instead? but i think i'll just fall asleep. :/ SIAN.

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suzume: hmm. thats a nice way of putting it :D haha but i still think a lot of people think i'm weird. haha. oh well. *shrugs*



I DIDNT HAND UP MY HOMEWORK. crap. the theory homework that i was supposed to pass to the counter by today :/ I DIDNT HAND IT UP. i think i'll go and hand it up after school tomorrow, before my theory lesson. :D at least its better than just bringing it to theory lesson straight. yepp thats what i'll do. and i dont feel like doing hcl homework. considering the fact that I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT HOMEWORK IS THERE. haiz. i think i'm hopeless, especially when i'm in holiday mood. sighhh.

debbie is currently sending me a lot of super nice songs :D 谢谢你! and the songs seem to be synchronizing super fast. not like the time when guangyan sent me a lot of songs and they all took super long. i wonder why? oh well. i think i shall call garwai later to ask about hcl homework. and then for now, i'll just have to finish up my theory and bio. should be easy enough bahh.

and you know what! i forgot that leon's having o levels this year too!!! D: crap. i was only thinking about my seniors and i forgot! see how much my memory sucks? haiz. so anyway, smsed him to tell him to jiayou for o levels too and how sorry i was that i forgot that he had o levels ^^'' and he actually forgot that i was sec 3 and thought that i was sec 2! tsk. i shall assume that that was the result of studying too much for o levels bahh. anyway he's super guai [umm. seems like, anyway] so i guess he's been studying a lot. 对不起，我忘了你今年需要考O水准，所以忘了帮你加油 :/ [sorry, trying my hand at typing a chinese sentence :D] and leon is taking triple science. D: crap. i feel so extremely 失败 okay. everyone's taking triple science. haiz. yeah so anyway i realised that i haven't talked to leon in a veryveryverylonglonglong time. shall disturb him more after his o levels :D

yay now i have nice songs to listen to. and i really feel like audiing. D: hmm. if i finish theory and bio by 10.30pm, maybe i can audi. then do a bit of chinese. and study theory. lets see if i can finish by then, okay? if i cant finish by 10.30pm, then i can't play audi for... today and tomorrow, until i've completed all my homework, okay? :D my goal: finish theory and bio by 10.30pm. jiayou!!! :D -off to do my homework-

okay im going to type this post super fast because i still have loads of stuff to do after this. umm... i didnt do my chinese homework yesterday :/ but i didnt die today. so... yay? haha. and i copied some from people but copying makes me feel guilty because i know i have to do it myself to learn. but i really dont have the time, so what do you want? uhhh okay maybe i DO have the time. but. :/ okay i'll just admit i'm too super slack. yeah so all i did yesterday was my math and english homework. and then i went to play audi. didnt even do theory homework or study theory :/ oops.

anyway, today was awesome because i bought egg mcmuffin from macs and ate it in class during the 9am break. :D it was yummy although a bit cold and soggy. and my hashbrown was soggy! D: and debbie stole some even though she was having a sore throat. TSK. but hashbrown still rocks whether its soggy or not. YUM :D ate only half of the burger during the 9am break though :/ because i didnt have time to eat it finish! haha. spent more time eating the hashbrown =.= didnt go for recess [plus, we were released late] so i stayed in class and finished my burger and milo. [hot milo which had turned cold by then D:] JUST after i finished eating, my elit teacher walked into the classroom to tell me something. like PHEW. lucky i finished eating liao lor. haha. although she caught me eating in class before :/ haha. oops?

lessons today were the usual. english was boring, maths was fun [because i was eating macs during maths :D], bio was spa which was okay, and last but definitely not least [3 HOURS], hcl was uber sian. the first part was mostly copying stuff, then the later part just involved marking our work and listening to the teacher. 3 hours just for that. and i didnt absorb anything in after the 3 hours. wowee. how effective.

finally found a song which i quite like from among the many songs that wanjane likes. haha. sort of, anyway. because i usually dont really like the songs that she like. i think we have super different tastes. yeah so anyway its some song by mayday :D and its super nice and i especially love the lyrics :D umm... yeah then these few days i've been crapping a lot with debbie and she agreed to send me songs :D yay. i think there are very few songs that both of us know. haha. i think its just me who's weird. i bet you're nodding your head right now. or saying 'YAH.' haha oh well. everyone thinks i'm weird. i think. and i have really different tastes from everyone i think. like if i go shopping with yiinghuey and crystal, its very easy to tell how different our tastes are. haha. sort of, anyway. but then, isn't everyone considered weird?

yepp so i've got to do my theory homework now, before violin lesson. :/ our theory teacher told us to pass to the counter [at my music school] before thursday, so that she could mark it earlier. so yeah, which means i need to finish it quick. and i still need time to practise my violin before i go for lesson later. CRAP. the rest of my homework isn't that much, i think. guess i can do them after i come back from lesson. hcl and bio. and i'm quite sure we're going to get hcl homework everyday for the next few days before our chinese o levels. sighhh. -depressed-

and yeah this is taking longer than its supposed to. uh oh. i'm already missing audi! [the last time i played it was last night.] D: but i dont think i'll have time to play it today. sobs. D: oh well. -off to work-

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darice: DARICE HO!!! stop it! i tell you arhh, the next time i see you, you are SOOO dead meat.

wanjane: haha okay. BUT. YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO CALL ME ON FRIDAY NIGHT. cant believe you forgot D: you evil person. after your os you have to treat me to lunch. twice! :D

suzume: omg 200 pages?? thats scarryyy. (: but yeah, 谢谢你!!! and JIAYOU for your competition too, okay? we shall both be guai and stop playing so much audi and start studying! :D [hopefully.]



guess why am i here? well, thats easy enough. because i'm slacking! like DUH. but CRAP. i'm NOT supposed to be slacking!!! D: sometimes i really hate myself. -sigh- oh wow. now i feel like counting how many chinese cloze passages i have to complete. let's see. here's my chinese homework in total:
- 3 compos
- 10.5 cloze passages
- 6 mcq compres [optional, because i have no idea if i even have to do the compres.]
but, the point is. 3 compos!!! they're nuts. plus i havent studied theory. i shall study grade 1 and grade 2 today. hopefully. right now, i'm halfway through my english compre. =.=

life sucks. in a way. but somehow, i have to admit that this kind of life, being able to have fun and play your computer games and everything, yet being chased for homework in school and trying to find time to squeeze both homework and games into your schedule, and having to chiong for your occasional tests and exams, but yet having time to go out and shop or have lunch with your friends once in a while... well, i think this life really rocks. i dont know why, i just find it extremely relaxing. maybe its because i dont care about my grades bah. whatever you call it, i just find it amazing, being able to lead a life like this. don't you think so? i think that, when you mix the stress with the happiness of relaxing [or whatever you call it], it makes everything seem so... balanced. like you would die with stress only, and you would still die if you got to relax everyday with no worries [you wont mature or grow up or learn anything], so i think its best if they're even. right now in my life, i think my balance of stress and relaxation is really even, and this really rocks. :D okay am i being too random? :/ oh well.

fell asleep after i finished posting my earlier post. for a few minutes i think. felt like a hour though. which is good. after that, i felt more enthu and energetic, so started on my math homework. i was super happy that i managed to solve qn 5 of math homework :D because i havent done homework in a long time, so it just felt satisfying lahh. haha. yepp then started on english after that. OH MANS. basically, right now, its like. ENGLISH. HCL. THEORY. HOMEWORK. EXAM. NO TIME. STRESS! hahaha. my summarizing skills rock :D ok random again. i should go back to studying. spent too long doing random stuff already. MUST CONCENTRATE! jiayou jiayou jiayou!

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josie: HI JOSIE! :D haha WHATEVER back at you! =P

debbie: yepp. hmm. i'll let you read it when i feel like it lahh :D yes i know i'm evil.



NOOO. you must be kidding me. i ponned cca today and came home sooo early! AND. what happened? i spent the time doing random stuff and listening to songs and reading blogs! D: that was about 2 hours of my time GONE. sobs. D: this sucks. i need to start on my work NOW.

right now, i feel like calling 2 people to talk to. chewlin and wanjane. but i haven't done my work! so i can't call anyone! [if i call anyone of them to chat, i think i'll chat for a super super long time :/] i dunno. i think i'm getting stressed out. i'm stressing myself out for theory exam. D: SUPER SCARED LUHH. plus, i'm aiming for a minimum of 90, so yeah. :/ HOW. but yeah, i need to do a reasonable amount of work before i can call anyone to chat. and then, after that i still need to decide who to call. haha. i feel like talking to chewlin suddenly because i haven't talked to her in a longlonglong time. D: i miss her! and i feel like calling wanjane because... uh... i dunno... to crap? haha. BUT I NEED TO FINISH HOMEWORK FIRST. darn it.

i have LOADS of homework to do. english, maths, and hcl. and hcl have this whole pile to do :/ just imagine. 3 chinese compos, a few compres, and 10++ cloze passages. WTF. darn it. at least i can leave chem homework till next week. but i seriously need to start on my theory! D: its freaking me out really badly. i haven't even started. this makes me feel like crying. sobs. and i haven't been practising my violin regularly either. -swears & curses- I NEED MORE TIME, PEOPLE. I CAN'T GET ANY WORK DONE WITH THIS LIMITED AMOUNT OF TIME. OKAY NOW I FEEL SUPER STRESSED.

anyway, i've updated the links to stnicks girls :D added a lot more people's links. besides that, nothing much else already. guess i better start work.

i've been working on my novel for the whole day. what do i end up with? 4 miserable pages. F-O-U-R FOUR. this sucks. and my opening/beginning/introduction sucks. i just know it sucks. i can do better, but i'm not trying hard enough. crap. its just not smooth or fluent enough. maybe its because i haven't written a novel in a long time. i think i need to start expanding stuff. some of the events seem too short. i have no idea how long i want to make this, but i still think i should expand the events. hmm. maybe i can expand these 4 pages to about 10 pages? i dunno if that'll make the whole thing nicer or not. maybe not? i have no idea. i guess i'll try to work on it again tomorrow or something. for now, i really need to start focusing on my homework and theory. its 8.30pm now so after i'm done with this post, i guess i have about 2 or 3 hours to finish my homework and start studying my theory. plus, i haven't read any chinese stuff in quite a while. maybe i should do that too if i have the time.

anyway, did i mention that i'm in a birthday-holiday mood? haha. well, yes i am, even though my birthday was ages ago, but thats not counted, because i haven't used the money that my dad gave me to buy myself a present either. so i'm really looking forward to when i can finally go for some serious shopping and get the stuff that i want. :D and i'm in holiday mood because its SUPPOSED to be our holidays now, so yeah. it doesnt matter if we dont have holidays during our supposed-to-be holidays. know why? because even if we have to or dont have to go to school, i'll still be in the exact same holiday mood. :D nothing's going to ruin my holiday spirit, especially not going to school. and i doubt that theory exam or chinese o level exam or bio spa is going to ruin it either. its really quite hard to switch me back to school mood after i've switched to something more than just a holiday mood. :D have fun in school then, people! because i'll be having fun in my own world.

besides that, jan received his ns letter today, and he's going off to ns on 11 dec! :D was super elated, but my mum just had to spoil my mood by telling me to go with her for jan's enlistment notice thing. like wth? no way am i going! not unless you tie me up and drag me there. you have no idea how happy i was that he was finally going to go for ns, and then you just had to tell me to go for his enlistment notice thing, right? well, no way. why do i have to go anyway? i dont even see why my mum has to go. jan can bloody well go on his own. its not like he doesnt have legs or he'll get lost on the mrt, so i think there's no need to go for such a stupid thing. and its not like he wont be back for the next 2 years, right? hellooo. he'll be back once a week. i think its stupid to send him off. not like he's never been away from home before. and if i was the one going for ns, i dont think i would want my parents coming. it would just be weird. anyway, i'm just glad that jan's finally going off! :D and it cant be at a better time. next year is o level year, and without him at home, i'll be able to study muchmuchmuch better! :D [and it also means that i'll be able to play my games and watch my videos without distraction.] this alone is cause for celebration! :D plus, after his ns, he'll probably be going overseas to study. which means, double celebration!! :D yay!

today's dinner was just soup and dishes for me. no rice because some idiot decided to cook rice only for himself even though i clearly stated that i wanted to eat rice and my mum told him to cook for me too. well, whatever. [my parents weren't involved, because they were going out to eat dinner together.] couldnt really be bothered to get mad at him or anything. imagine. just less than 2 months till he's gone. great. shan't quarrel with him over this. so anyway, i didnt have any rice to eat so i took a bit more soup. dinner wasn't very appetizing without the rice, though :/ and crap. i just realised that i haven't practised my violin today. whoops. [uh oh.]

quite upset about the fact that i only finished 4 pages of my novel in a day, but i'll get over it. must be because i was trying to fix the pieces of the puzzle together for too long. hmm. so i think i better start on my homework now. i have cca tomorrow D: crap. haiz. off to homework, then. bye (:

been eating weirdly lately. my dinner yesterday was 1 yogurt bar, 2 cheesecake-like cupcakes, and 2 tiny chocolate and nut pieces in those tiny cupcake wrappers. and a bottle of vitagen. :D lovely dinner, really. today was even weirder. ate at 4pm, because my mum started cooking at i-dunno-what-time and ended at 4pm. so we all ate at 4pm and wondered if that was lunch or dinner. i say it was teabreak :D but our teabreak was kind of weird too. there was only tanghun[a kind of transparent noodle] with soup. i ate half a bowl, after my dad didnt want his any more. =.= and jan ate a bowl of it. then, i ate egg and tomato and carrot between 2 slices of bread. jan ate the ingredients first, then ate a slice of bread on its own. =.= yepp. that was my teabreak. plus, my mum made me eat a slice of papaya before teabreak. what a queer teabreak that was. and we're having dinner later, but it'll be lighter, since we've already eaten quite a bit during teabreak.

anyway, i had the queerest dream today. it was really beautiful, because even though whatever happened wasn't really very nice, but everything had seemed so real and it was really amazing. could remember vividly the images and everything, although i'm still trying to piece everything together. i think i'll forget all these after a while, so when i woke up this morning, i tried to draw out the scene, although it didnt work out too well. the whole thing was too confusing and i could only draw a part of it. but it was really beautiful, even though during the dream i was running away. so im going to start writing a novel about it. its given me quite a lot of inspiration to start with.

besides that, i have a lot of homework to do and i haven't started studying theory yet :/ crap. why does my inspiration come at such a bad time? haiz. but i really feel like working on my novel, so i think i'll just have to leave my homework for later.

wtf. what is your freaking problem? just because mum nagged at you for the whole day and dad turned off the main power switch of your computer, you have to start disturbing everyone and piss everyone off as if we should do something about it. firstly, helloooo? shouldn't you be used to mum nagging at you already? and stop arguing about everything with them. even if they're wrong, you can leave it as it is. its just a super minor issue. or if you want to correct them, say is nicely. don't shout in our ears. we're not deaf and we can hear you, okay? plus, you're the one who is in the wrong in the first place. its a week till your exams and mum and dad just want you to study. thats all. they're doing it for your own good and you don't have to make such a big fuss of not being able to use the computer. you're the one who started annoying them first, playing your computer games for the whole day. and, i am not a part of your argument or whatever, so can you just please leave me out of it? its not like i did anything to 惹你, and even if i did, you can tell it to me in my face, right? so why the hell do you have to purposely disturb everyone? you know what all this looks like to me? it looks like you just want attention. its stupid to do this and you probably know it too. you wont get any result from this. you dont have to turn on the bloody distorted radio so loud just to make everyone notice you. and now that dad is scolding you, i think you really deserve it. stop being so selfish and self-centred. stop raising your voice and shouting at people and calling people stupid and idiots. and stop acting as if you're so smart because even if you are, so what? even if your IQ is a thousand, i can guarantee you that your EQ is lower than an average person. just, shut up and stop disturbing everyone in the middle of the night on purpose.



okay i am super pissed at jan right now, but lets skip that for the time being. didnt do much today, mostly audied and watched the television. was supposed to do my homework and study theory, but as usual, my limited self-disciplined didnt allow me to do so. anyway, i watched twitches too on disney channel today, and so i'm watching twitches on the internet now. havent watched it yet. oops? haha. yeahh so anyway, my mum pissed my dad and jan off today with her nagging, so my dad got even more pissed at jan. then they turned off his computer switch and he went to watch tv and played games on his handphone and then turned the radio on really loud just to annoy us. doesnt all these make him seem so stupid? i think it really does. oh well. anyway, back to my movie. stopped to blog because the radio was getting too noisy to hear anything, but now that its turned off, my ears feel much better.

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jessica: oops. its not called beancurd soup right? haha but i dunno what its called :/



fell asleep quite early again yesterday. nowadays i seem to be falling asleep very easily, and especially when i'm halfway doing something. sigh. anyway, today morning i was supposed to wake up at 7am [i set my alarm], but i overslept, and my mum only woke me up at about 8.30am. went to find the documents i needed for making my ic, and then left the house with my mum around 10am. reached ica around 11am and then went to take photo first. didnt really like the one i took today, but then the one i took a few months back was even worse, so yeah, i just chose the one i took today. after that, went to make my ic and it was amazingly fast. i remember the last time i came to renew my passport [i think?], i had to queue for really long. i guess the ic making or whatever is faster than the passport one. went home after that. read my book ['bad blood'] all the way on the mrt there and back, and even while my mum went to ntuc to buy stuff and i was waiting for her.

came home and it was about 1pm, so i ate instant noodles for lunch. then, went back to reading my book. when i got a bit bored of it, played a bit of audi, then practised my violin and piano. i havent touched my guitar in quite a while. oops. -feeling super guilty now-. then, i had dinner and finally went back to reading my book again. finished it a while ago, and overall, its quite nice lah. a bit spooky, but not that bad, [i think there's definitely scarier ones, right?] and its quite interesting. i wonder if the other book i borrowed will be scarier. i have a feeling it will be :/ haha. and now i'm still wondering if i'll see delilah [she's this really spooky doll who can move on her own] appearing in the toilet or something. haha. me and my imagination. i remember how i used to be so scared of the shadows in the dark when i was younger. cant really guarantee that im not anymore, but i eventually found out that theres not much to be scared of actually. the worst that can happen is probably a cockroach popping out of nowhere i guess. oh yah. which reminds me. on friday i was reading the book on the way to school, and i saw this cockroach going past me on the mrt platform, going underneath someone, then finally disappearing into the mrt track.

anyway, i'm supposed to study my theory and start doing homework, but i really feel like playing audi now :/ haha. oops. hmm. anyway monday is a holiday, so i guess its alright? haha. oh yah. and wanjane was supposed to call me yesterday night. tsk. oh well. off to audi now. bye!

yesterday night, i fell asleep halfway while doing my homework. woke up again at around 2am plus, and packed up quickly and went to bed, thinking to myself 'who cares if i havent finished all this homework by tomorrow. worst to worst i can do it tomorrow morning or something. i just need to get some sleep now.' today morning, i woke up and went to school reading my storybook. its the one crystal recommended and its quite nice so far. i havent read very much of it yet, though. anyway, we're using the primary section's classrooms for today and the whole of next week, so it was quite a long walk. sat with debbie hoe as in our term 4 seating arrangements. today's lessons were supposed to be math, english and hcl. but our english teacher hadnt come to school, so it was another hour of maths. although we were released 15mins early for recess :D it was super cold the whole day today. cold in the classroom and cold in the mpr2, where we had our 3-hour hcl lesson. the hcl lesson wasn't as bad as i imagined, since we had chairs and tables, so it seemed more like a classroom, and we could sit in groups and the teacher hardly noticed if you're not paying attention. :D well, at least they wont if you act as if you're listening. played throughout the whole time, and almost froze to death too. i seem to be going to the mpr2 very often nowadays. haha.

after school, i went home with crystal and we went to sembawang's sun plaza. crystal says she saw eugene! the guy from our job attachment. hahaha. i didnt see his face properly even though he walked past me, because i wasnt looking up. was just wondering why the guy who walked past me was wearing some weird shirt with a blue checkered pattern on the bottom right of the shirt. hahaha. it looked super weird and gay. hahaha. oh well. yepp then we went to popular cos crystal had to buy something, and it was only till i saw the inheritance trilogy books that i realised that the third book, brisingr, was out. O: felt super slow. haha. but i realised that i dont want the trilogy that much anymore. maybe because i havent read it in a long time and cant really remember what its about anymore, so i'm not as interested about it as i was a few years ago. yepp. so then after that, crystal finally agreed to eat with me at cavana, after i asked her for quite a while :D was glad she ate with me. we were both super full after that and crystal went home. i stayed at sun plaza for about an hour or so i think, [i'm not sure. i wasnt aware of the time. 10 hours could have passed and i probably wouldnt have noticed either.] because they were having this dvd/vcd sale on the first storey and there were loads of dvds there :D my videos! haha. yepp so i went to look through the dvds, and there were a few music albums there too. too bad i was almost broke already [4 bucks left. definitely not enough to buy a dvd.] so i couldnt buy anything D: was wondering whether i should come back again on another day to purchase some stuff, but decided not to. it'd be too troublesome anyway. i didnt want to waste my time.

when i got home, it was about 5.30pm i think. went to bathe, then settled in front of my computer, and have been at this computer for the past few hours. mostly checked the summary of movies, wondering if i should watch them or not. ended up with a list of movies that i want to watch. oh yah. and my mum bought home my birthday cake today. im glad that she bought me a cake, but im not very happy about it either, because its the exact same cake that i bought for her birthday. and remember i mentioned very long ago that the cake i bought for her birthday is the same as the one her colleagues bought for her? plus, she was saying that her colleague said that this cake was very nice. yes, i agree that this cake is nice, and nice is good, but do you really have to get me the exact same one? sometimes i really cant stand my mum because i feel as if she really doesnt have a tinge of 创意. [like how she keeps buying the same thing for you if you tell her that you like it.] people dont buy the exact same cake for birthdays, even if its really nice, ok? i know you like it very much, and your colleague probably likes it very much too, but that doesnt mean that everyone else in the world likes it. in fact, after i heard that it was the same cake, i didnt really have much mood to eat it anymore. i think it really pulled my 心情 down by a lot tonight.

anyway, i think i should go off and play my audi now. maybe it'll cheer me up, yeah?

managed to finish my stupid script by yesterday night, then went off to sleep :D i love sleeping mans. today, i came to school with jac and we forgot that our classrooms had shifted, so we went up another level. haha it was super funny when we realised that our classrooms were actually downstairs. oh. and then after the pledge taking in class [it was raining, so no need to assemble. yeah man.], i went to mpr2 with peishan. elaine and valerie were there already. practised until the sec1s finally came. then, we presented to them and listened to the other sec3s presenting, before we were finally allowed to go back to class. it was maths lesson when i went back. yay i missed the whole of english. but boo cos i missed so much of maths :/ after all, maths lesson is definitely more interesting than english lessons. then, we had chem spa at the lab, which was not very fun, but ok enough. for recess, i went with wanyee and jac and jess and elaine. i realised that i havent been going recess with huishan and celine and shushien and sharon and alison for very long :/ oops. after that was bio spa and we went to the lab again. did some stupid potato thing which wasnt very fun either, but easy enough. lastly was elit, which passed quite quickly and i have no idea why. was extremely sleepy around the end of the lesson, and even fell asleep halfway while zhuangyun was asking me something :/ haha oops sorry.

after school, me and jac went to eat beancurd soup. [is that what you call it? haha i dunno.] thanks for helping me order, jac :D cos i didnt know anything about it. haha. felt super retarded. anyway, i saw some of my friends at the shop too. after we were finally done eating, we went back to school and opened our presents. we both had one. jac got chocolates and mine was a cute dog towel from wenyi. thanks wenyi! :D during cca, wenyi and linghui were off at plaza sing buying the banner. at first, we went to mpr2, but were chased out and we couldnt find any other place to use, so we ended up staying in the cyber cafe and working there. basically it was left with natasha, sarah, rachel and me to get the cca working on the posters and stickers. after that, we went to the library and asked for permission to use a computer. did our to-bring list and compiled our cca names from sec1s to sec 4s for the cca camp. felt accomplished lor.

and yeah i'm not in a very good mood now. havent done any homework and super sleepy now. shit. dunno if i should do my homework or not. i dont think i will. :/

oh well. i ended up watching my videos for quite long until about 12pm. then i practised my violin for about 45 mins and packed my laptop. didnt really work on the powerpoint. which also meant that, when i got there, the quiz wasnt done yet and peishan wasnt too happy about it i think. oops :/ sorry. we did the quiz during the meeting time and sorted out who would do what. but we didnt really do our scripts or anything. the meeting was quite fruitless i think. ate my lunch at the library cafe. it was french fries. haha. then we did some work there, and then me and peishan moved up when i was done eating and my laptop was going to die soon. elaine and valerie went home first becuase they had done their part. anyway, we finished up the quiz quickly because we wanted to go watch a movie after that. but it turned out that the movies were either showing too late [i had violin lesson after that so i couldnt stay too long], or peishan was going to watch it with her friends, or peishan watched it before. haiz... was really looking forward to watching a movie, but yeah...

i got home quite early, around 4pm. went to bathe, then continued watching my videos until about 6pm. then i wandered around the house wondering what to do, and ended up practising my violin again. i was afraid that the amount of time i spent practising in the morning wasnt enough, because i havent been practising regularly :/ after i was done, i went for violin lesson. today's lesson was alright, but my hand really hurt from trying to stretch, and my fingers hurt from pressing the strings so hard. but it was especially my hand which made me quite worried and pissed on the way back from lesson. it felt quite numb and i had no idea why. maybe it was because i forced myself too hard during lesson time. was trying to stretch my hand on the way back, but the numbness was definitely there. i could feel it. plus, stretching my hand was more difficult than usual. :/ i hope theres nothing wrong with my hand and it just needs a break. i need my hand to play my violin after all. and my piano and guitar too.

the powerpoint is finally done, and i'm left with my script. and elit homework. hmm. i wonder what about theory homework then? maybe i can do it in school tomorrow? haha i dont know. i'm feeling kind of sleepy now :/ oh mans. i might just carry forward my elit homework time to tomorrow. haha. oh well. better go and do my script now. goodnight!



disappointed.

you forgot...

it feels as if the distance between us is growing larger as time passes
and perhaps, one day, we'll become total strangers to each other
like we've never met before.

but i want to let you know that, for as long as i remember you,
you'll always have that special place in my heart
which no one else can replace.

and even if you forget me,
i'll be here waiting, my dearest friend,
waiting for you to remember me once again.

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jac: haha okay. i couldnt tell who wrote some of the rolled up notes :/ oops? haha. could only tell a few. like the ddr one was definitely wanyee and the cold storage one was definitely you. haha. :D

wenyi: thanks! :D and you're very lame! haha.



thanks to tg, muni, genin and wenyi. :D haha. too many people to thank already, so i broke everyone into groups :D haha. oh. and i suddenly feel like going on a shopping spree. D: but have to wait until after chinese o levels i guess. SIAN. plus i still have theory exam. double sian. =.= exams after my exams. how dumb. i havent started studying theory, so you can tell me i'm so dead. as in, even without studying, i guess i'll still pass it lah. but i mentioned that i want to get at least 90 right? so if i dont study, thats never going to happen. haiz. no mood to study :/ i'm totally in holiday and birthday mood. haha. and. cant wait till after chinese o levels. then i shall go on this huge shopping spree :D i want to buy a lot of stuff, not only clothes. i want to buy presents for my friends and my own present too :D haha. because my parents told me to go buy it on my own what. yepp. so anyway, i want to go watch my videos now. have to do the stupid powerpoint later. and practise my violin before i go out. so i better not waste time. (:

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MJ: tsk. haha i dont care you owe me a present. i owe you a present too, kay? [see? i'm so nice. hahaha.] and i'll owe you 2 presents by the end of the year. but. you still owe me a present! :D



haha okay. today is my birthday and i'm 15 years old now. feels weird. because i dont really feel anything. but yeah, last night a few people smsed me to wish me happy birthday. garwai, jessica, jacq, yiinghuey, and denise. :D sorry to garwai that you're not the first. zoe accidentally wished me happy birthday in advance the day before. hmm. but then why do i seem to remember that wanjane wished me in advance too? haha oops =x yeah so anyway, thanks to these people who smsed me so early. and especially to jacq who had read my blog just before smsing me [her timing is super 准] and knew about my headache and tried to get me to be high. it did help quite a bit, since i remembered that my birthday was her birthday too, and i realised that i haven't wished her happy birthday. haha oops again =x yeah so i wished her happy birthday lor. haha. its quite fun to have someone with the same birthday as you, i realised. (:



today morning, while i was going to school, i received an sms from chewlin and that really raised my spirits. [wasn't very high in the morning still, as it didnt really feel like it was my birthday] and the fact that the sms was from chewlin and not some random person [oops. no offence. no one in particular anyway.] made me more excited than i previously was. thanks chewlin! :D yepp. when i got to school [i didnt see jacq on the bus! D: she came earlier than me! wow. first time man.], zhuangyun gave me a soft toy flower :D it was super nice. and garwai gave me this wrapped up packet of a huge heart lollipop, a cute pencil, and a finger puppet. although the finger puppet thing was a bit. weird. haha. as in, it was just a bit. odd one out. something like that anyway. haha. garwai if you're reading this, no offence hor! after that, i went to find jacq in her class, but wanyee passed me the guides cookies and then i got chased out by them. tsk. oh and jacq cut and rebourned her hair.

its day of reflection for the sec 3s today, so a team came over to share their stories with us and stuff. i guess it was quite touching and helped quite a number of people to open up and others to reach out to them. but as for me, i just remained as i was and wasnt really affected by any of it. as usual. but yeah, i was quite touched at some points too, what with all the stories, and i'm glad that, at least others can grow through this experience, yeah? i guess you could call it quite a fruitful day, even though i was really quite upset that my birthday was actually spent as a day of reflection. as i said to some of my friends, 那里有人这样过生日的? haha. and me and jacq didnt cry, so that was good i guess. it would be quite dumb [for me] to cry on my birthday just because it was day of reflection. but anyway, i guess it was a good experience for many the sec3s and very worthwhile too.

during recess, i went to find jacq and the rest again, and they told me not to go into their classroom. =.= after some time, they were finally done [obviously something got to do with my present] and they told me to come in and gave me my present. the card was super nice and i could guess what the present was after reading the card. haha. put the present down and then me, wanyee and jessica gave jacq her present. haha. the whole situation was quite weird lah. because at first it was wanyee, jessica, and jacq who gave me the present, then i had to 'change sides' to the person who was giving the present, and jacq had to change to the person on the receiving end. so it was pretty weird lah. but quite fun too i guess. after that, we all went to eat recess together :D oh yes. throughout the day, i got a few more smses from wanjane, huishan, wenyi, darice and peishan. and birthday wishes from some people in my class too. although i have no idea how some of them knew that today was my birthday. o.O suspicious. haha.

after school, i packed my stuff and left some of my stuff at the specs stand, with jessica and jacq's stuff. we had planned to go to amk hub after school and drink bubble tea there. [it was supposed to be lunch, but we were all full.] but then, wanjane called me and told me that she was reaching school already, so i had to go to father barre to get my present from her. and jessica and jacq decided to go off first and meet me at amk hub. after i got my present from wanjane, [it was a green beer mug soft toy. if that even makes sense.] i decided to go all the way back to the specs stand to leave it there [didnt want to bring it to amk hub], and then i called jacq and they were still at the bus stop, so i managed to reach the bus stop before the bus came, and i could go to amk hub together with them. at amk hub, we drank bubble tea and walked around and complained about how we didnt want to go back to school for cca and wanted to go home instead. especially me and jacq. haha. finally went back to school around 3pm and jessica and jacq had to go for cca. i could go for cca later, so i stayed at the specs stand reading wanjane's card and extra slips of paper o.O her postcard is super weird. and arranging my presents so that they wouldnt drop. and garwai's sticky lollipop present wouldn't make all my other presents sticky. haha. =x

for cca, we didnt do anything much, and basically watched a movie. but the movie was cars and i didnt like it much. i think sherlyn was pretty bored too. we were released from cca early and i went home with wenyi. thanks for helping me take my box of cookies, wenyi (: and to those people whom i asked for presents, sorry :/ oops =x haha. i dont really mean it lah. its just for fun (: you all know that, right? so yeah. it really doesnt matter if you give me a present or not. i'm not that calculative lah. haha. yepp.



when i got home, i started sorting out my presents. took a few photos :D for remembrance. wanted to post the photos of my presents and cards here today, but i decided to post it on another day. today's kind of early still. then, i kept my presents and only the one that jacq, wanyee and jessica gave me was left. opened it up and i think the present was really super nice and extremely pretty :D i liked the blue-ishness of it, the stars, the hearts, and the rolled up notes. :D i think it was really creative to come up with folding hearts too, and i also enjoyed reading the rolled up notes a lot. there were 22 of them altogether :D i counted. yepp so i really really like my present a lot. (: and i want to say a very big thank you to wanyee, jacq and jessica for this super nice present :D love you guys! <3 and when i came online just now, shuling and songsim wished me happy birthday on msn. (: thanks. and peishan wished me happy birthday again, then asked for the powerpoint. tsk.



hmm. now i'm starting to worry about the stupid presentation on thursday. tsk. i should be enjoying my birthday, okay. but anyway, i'm going out to woodlands library tomorrow to work on the presentation, and i hope that it goes well on thursday. also quite looking forward to thursday lah. haha. and i realised that i owe a lot of people birthday presents too. sorry! i'll get you your presents okay (: haha but anyway, to those people who gave me presents, THANK YOU A LOT A LOT A LOT and I LOVE YOU! :D i think i'll either do the stupid quiz for the presentation, or just slack and play audi or watch videos and eat my chocolate cookies :D yay. see you!



oh. and. HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO MY TWIN!!! :D
JACQ: I LOVE YOU AND I KNOW YOU LOVE ME TOO AND LETS ENJOY OUR BIRTHDAY TODAY OKAY? :D but i'm still older! haha. and i'm so sorry i forgot to write your birthday card! i forgot that my birthday was your birthday too. :/ sorry. feel super guilty now. i'll pass it to you on thursday okay? HOPE YOU HAVE LOADS OF FUN TODAY! :D

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wanjane: tsk. if i dont get my present tomorrow then... you owe me lunch! :D hahaha. then after your o levels you shall treat me to lunch. =P but anyway, JIAYOU FOR YOUR O LEVELS! you extremely slack person who's probably going to start cramming soon.



let's see... its about 1 hr 15mins to my birthday and i'm not in a birthday mood at all. nothing much. just my usual headache. it always ruins my mood. crap. this really really sucks. anyway, i dont know why but i dont seem to be very excited for my birthday this year. i cant really remember if this ever happened before. i guess not. but yeah, my mood is totally ruined because of this headache and it makes me more tired and wanting to sleep earlier. but i want to stay up until 12am at least. but i think it would really suck if i'm having a headache at that time, right? it wouldnt be worth it at all. haiz. so i'm wondering if i should stay up or not. but i probably will. my hair's not dry yet anyway. haha.



today, i went out at around 12pm and came back around 9pm. so thats about 9 hours, yeah? haha. woke up at 8am and watched my videos until about 11.30am, when crystal called me and said that i could come over. haha. tsk. so unprofessional. especially since they told me to take the 12.15pm bus already.

but yeah, anyway i went over and the first surprise was the pancakes. they told me not to eat much beforehand, and when i reached, there were pancakes all prepared on the table. the side dishes were chicken and scallops and the drink was 7up. i think it was really an interesting combination. after we were done eating and feeling very full, they got me to close my eyes and brought me into the room, where i opened my eyes and saw my present and their cards :D that was the second surprise. they got me this noticeboard sort of thing when you can pin up stuff, and pinned up 4 photos and other nice stuff and their 2 cards. :D that was a really neat present. and. it had a lot of weird photos of me and i shall agree that yiinghuey is really a great paparazzi. haha. tsk. then, we set up our laptops [me and crystal brought our laptops over] and wanted to play worms together. didnt manage to get it working and ended up playing audition for a bit. after confirming that worms wasn't going to work, we went out again and the third surprise was the cake. it was cheesecake with cherries. interesting too, but yeah, i'll admit that the cake they baked last year was better lah.

after eating a slice and drinking 7up and feeling full again, we went back to our laptops and computers. yiinghuey and crystal played audition, but since my laptop wasn't connected to the internet, [long explanation] i watched the videos that i had already loaded on my laptop in the morning. the timing was quite accurate too, with my videos being only 3mins longer than when they ended their audition game. after that, the next event was playing badminton. we all went downstairs and played a nice game of 2 vs 1, swopping the solo person occasionally. it was fun and helped us burn some of the calories we gained after eating so much food. i dont know how long we played for, but by the time we were done, it was 6.30pm. while we were playing, we also agreed to go eat dinner together at cwp.

after we were done, we went back to yiinghuey's house and cooled off while packing up. then, we all went to cwp and ended up eating dinner at macs. it was supposed to be my treat, but :/ that didnt turn out very well. haha oops? but anyway, we started this interesting story thing on the bus to cwp, where each person would say 3 - 5 words only, and it was quite fun. after we were finally done eating dinner, it was almost 9pm already. my dinner included 2 ice creams and french fries :D haha. was kind of full with the food in the afternoon, so i didnt want to eat a burger like crystal and yiinghuey. but it ended up with me being even more full, because of the fries. when we were finally done eating dinner and talking, we headed home.

and. we agreed to go shopping together sometime :D and i mean real shopping. not just window shopping. cant wait for that! :D its going to be uber fun too. like today. and, thanks a lot for today, crystal and yiinghuey. you guys rock the world! :D i think its really very 难得 to have friends who would organise stuff for a whole day just for you to have fun. although the dinner was organised by me :D haha. um. and sorry that i wasn't really very enthu and was kind of 分心 around the second half of the day. that was cos i was having a headache :/ but yeah, anyway, THANK YOU CRYSTAL AND YIINGHUEY! YOU TWO ARE THE BEST! :D



after i came home today, i went to bathe and dry my hair. i was supposed to work on the quiz for the powerpoint presentation for the assembly talk on thursday, but zoe hasn't sent it to me [not her fault], plus i'm not really in any mood to do it, so i decided that i'll just do it tomorrow. guess i'll just have to apologise to peishan tomorrow. i told her we'd be able to finish it by today. but on the other hand, i'm quite happy that i dont have to worry about this right now. not with my birthday in half an hour and this really bad headache. i wonder if tomorrow will be fun. haha. feels as if i might just lie down and fall asleep and never wake up again. anyway, i called wanjane just now and she said that she'd try to bring my present tomorrow. haha she better bring it. if not, she'll owe me lunch. :D yepp. ok crap. this headache is getting quite bad. i think i better go to bed soon. i guess i wont stay online until 12am, but i'll probably stay up in bed until past 12am. :D so far... zoe, garwai and jessica have wished me happy birthday. haha. thanks a lot! :D [although zoe's one was accidental. sort of, anyway. haha.] and yiinghuey and crystal too, i guess, sort of. but um. i think they're going to save their wishes for past 12am. haha. anyway, goodnight world! :D i'll wake up tomorrow without a headache, yeah? :D [its 11.45pm now, but i'll just change my age in my profile to 15 now :D i wont be online by 12am anyway.]

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MX: since i felt like it? haha :D but the chinese song before this was very emo too.

wanjane: haha i have my reasons for wanting that. and you think i so rich can buy ipod touch for you arh? tsk. haha the harry potter book was just random crap lah. because i couldnt think of anything else besides a skateboard, so i just crapped. and too bad about your sodagreen song =P



today was quite slack too :/ oh crap. now i'm feeling guilty. i didnt practise my music leh! D: and i did very little theory. and nothing else. except watch my videos. time seems to pass faster for those who do not treasure it. i guess. yeah, so basically i slacked off the whole day watching videos. and i feel super guilty. plus, i'm supposed to start working on the stupid 3R assembly talk thing. gahh. peishan told me today that its from 8.45 - 9.45, so i'll be missing most of math! D: aww mans. maybe i'll go back earlier :D and, sad to say, i'll only be missing 15 mins of english. sigh. oh well. hope the talk goes well bahh. and i'm supposed to be doing the quiz for the talk now, but i'm not in any mood to do it. anyway, i need to go to sleep soon. so i guess i'll finish it up quickly tomorrow morning or something. i'm bringing my laptop over to yiinghuey's house tomorrow, so at least if zoe sends me the powerpoint in the afternoon or something, i'll be able to add in the quiz. yepp. then wednesday have to confirm and practise with the rest lor.

in the evening, my dad wanted my brother to go and collect his spectacles [my parents went out in the morning & afternoon for lunch and went to repair his specs at the same time. they're blurry.] and bank in some money into his account. then after that, he wanted me to go along too and bank in money too. and in the end, the whole thing ended up with all of us having dinner out. its been quite long since the last time. i remember the last time quite clearly still. it was probably about a year ago i guess. i really miss these kind of family outings. nowadays we hardly ever go out together anymore. anyway, dinner wasn't really very nice and my dad complained about the food, but the main thing is that we're eating dinner as a family, right? and family outings are fun. yepp. so i hope this happens more often lah. [haha fat hope.]

and i'll be going out tomorrow afternoon. i think crystal and yiinghuey planned something interesting. sounds like there'll be cake. haha. what with all the eggs. and with the laptop, i'm guessing there'll be some audiing too. not sure though. haha. shall go see what they have in store tomorrow. and even though i dont know yet, i'm sure its definitely something great and i just want to thank them in advance! :D plus. thanks zoe for remembering my birthday and being the earliest person to wish me happy birthday. even though you messed up the dates and days and thought that monday was the 21st. haha. nevermind lahh (:

yepp. i better go sleep now. or else my mum will get very angry if she wakes up and finds me still awake on the laptop. goodnight! :D and jiayou to all the sec4s i know for the o levels tomorrow! :D especially wanjane and genin! hahaha. sorry arh so 偏心. but yeah. cos they're my very nice seniors mahh. haha :D goodnight world!

on friday night, i fell asleep on the chair around 11pm and woke up at 4.30am. :O instead of going to bed to sleep, i finished up my chem homework first, then went to sleep. so i went to sleep again at about 5am. luckily jan had the whole computer room lighted cos he was using the computer, so i could do my homework inside there. couldn't do it in the living room because my mum would wake up from the bright light. yepp. but she woke up anyway and i got scolded for being up so 'late'. haha. well whatever. i'm getting sleepy earlier and earlier these few days. must be because of the change back to usual lessons in school. lessons always make me feel extra sleepy and tired, because they're so boring and i dont learn anything from them. ah well.

i didnt do anything much on saturday. woke up quite late and lazed around. did a bit of theory and wanted to practise violin but my dad went to sleep, so i couldnt practise if not i would wake him up. then i had to cook lunch with jan. by the time lunch was done, it was almost 3pm so i turned on the tv and watched the magicians of love until 5pm. by that time, my mum came home and i ate dinner while watching my videos. watched until 12.30am and went to sleep. thats how i wasted one whole day just like that. not doing any homework or whatever. felt really guilty at the end of the day, because i didnt do any work or study or whatever. i cant continue on like this with my theory exam coming up. tsk. shall try and finish some homework and do some theory before i start watching videos today.

the emails that i'm getting from crystal and yiinghuey are really getting absurd. not that they weren't absurd from the start. but. they want me to bring my laptop and tie pigtails and not wear black and wear unmatching socks. like whattt. the unmatching socks aren't going to happen. and the pigtails thing is freaky. i asked yiinghuey if i really had to do that and she said she and crystal would reconsider. phew. hope they really do reconsider. and they still havent told me the time to go. thats probably going to be in the email today. haha. but i really have to thank them because they went all the way out to plan this. even though some of the stuff are weird. yeah. i bet tomorrow's going to be fun. :D

oh yah. on friday night, my dad came home with a pair of sports shoes. its red and white and super nice :D and he wanted to use it but the design wasn't really right for him so he gave it to me. haha :D but yeah he said thats not my birthday present. and the shoes are a bit loose but thats okay cos i dont have any sports shoes anyway. i've wanted one for very very long :D later on, i gave him the list of 5 items [the last one wasnt an item] and he looked at them and he said that i could go get them myself. haha. yepp so he gave me money to buy the stuff. that was kind of disappointing, but then at least i can choose what i want, right? :D cos if my dad buys it, i might not like the design or colour or whatever. so yeah. but i think i'm going to ask my dad if he could buy one of them for me anyway, because i have no idea how to choose. oh yah. here's my list:
1) mountain bike
2) MP3 - creative zen nano plus (1GB)(black/white) [but i'm not sure if they sell it in singapore]
3) new & better violin stand
4) harry potter and the deathly hallows (adult version)
5) my own conducive study place in the house
i wanted a skateboard at first, but after thinking for very long, i decided that it was really quite unrealistic as i wouldnt have a place nor time to practise. so i replaced it with the harry potter book. thats probably the thing i would want the least, because thats such a stupid present. really. it was just because i couldnt think of anything else to ask for.

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wanjane: tsk. you better do well! anddd. we end school at 1.30pm on that day, because its day of reflection :D so no excuses! hahaha :D



today was a whole day of lessons. maths then 2 hours of english which i slacked quite a bit. then, recess which i had cca meeting, and after recess was chem and bio. was pretty dead during chem and bio, and slept during the last part of bio :D about 15 or 20mins i think. yepp. i think i'm super sleepy these few days. yesterday night, because i had cca and meeting after that, i reached home quite late and didnt have time to dry my hair before i went for theory. so, when i came home at night after theory, my hair was still very wet. felt sleepy at around 11pm [its been quite long since i've felt sleepy so early] and fell asleep on the chair, because my hair was wet so i couldnt go to bed. [hahaha i was during chem when i fell asleep! :D] when i woke up, it was 2.30am, and i checked to make sure that my hair was dry before i sleepily crawled into bed and fell asleep yet again. yepp. so after bio, we had an o level briefing and went home after that.

oh yah. i think a lot of people are born in october. denise's birthday was on the 12th. jessica and sarah's birthday was yesterday. one of my teacher's birthday is today. mine and jacq's birthday is on the 21st. then ken's birthday is on the 25th and sherilyn's one is on the 26th. and sherlyn's birthday is on 29th. cool, right? :D october is a great month for celebration. :D

i went home with crystal and we went to the library to eat fries and drink hot chocolate and for crystal to teach me theory. tsk. i must at least get a 90 for my theory exam, or i'll feel super 失败, since i'm quite sure that i can't beat crystal's score of 95. and if i get a 90, then at least i wont feel that i'm that far away from crystal in terms of studying and results? yeah. haha. in a sense. after crystal was done teaching me and we were done with our food, we went up to find nice books :D and all our books were black and red in colour! ultimate coolness :D crystal had 2 books - 'eclipse' which she borrowed from her friend i think, and the 4th book of percy jackson from the library. and i had 3 books from the library - 'bad blood', 'the devil's footsteps', and 'dirty work'. at first, i wanted to borrow a book called 'princes', which was also red and black in colour, but i saw 'dirty work' after that, and since i could only borrow 3 books [crystal wanted to borrow 1 but she didnt have her card], i put back the book. but anyway, we ended up with 5 books which had black and red covers, which was SUPER ULTIMATE COOL :D and we took a photo with all the books placed on the library floor. i think the people around us who saw what we did were thinking that we were weird. haha. oh well. i still think its super cool. after that, we went to cwp popular and bought stuff there. i bought a new file :D [my old one's coming apart]



when i got home, i went through my grade 6 exam pieces, and i got scared by 2 main things. firstly, the piece that i was learning will have to be played twice during the exam. secondly, i will need to know how to play both the harmonic and melodic minor scales during the exam. after seeing these 2 things, i started getting really scared and anxious for my grade 6 exam. i told myself that i'd start working hard from now. yes i will. i'll work hard as i've never done before, and i will push myself to do better than i've ever done before. work hard for what? everything. my school subjects, chinese, physics, theory, violin, my other instruments like piano and guitar, sports, general knowledge, japanese, writing with my left hand. everything that i want to do well in, i'm going to start working hard now and i'm going to prove that i can do it. you just wait and see. which reminds me that from today onwards, i shall refrain from using the laptop more than 2 hours a day, unless its for work. and i shall not waste time stoning at home anymore, and i shall start using my time well.

ah yes. i listened to my exam piece just now from the cd, and it sounds really professional. i want to play as well as that. here's a few goals that i've thought of so far:
1) learn all italian, german and french terms for theory exam
dateline: 24 october 2008
2) learn all that is needed for violin exam grade 6
dateline: violin exam next year
3) read chinese everyday and practise writing it often
dateline: 5 november 2008 [chinese o levels]
4) start studying school subjects, physics, japanese, and writing with left hand after chinese o levels
dateline: by the end of the year
5) exercise [and go swimming]
dateline: none



ah yes. crystal and yiinghuey's messages are starting to make more sense now. thats a very interesting story that they have there. i've found 2 pieces of details so far, so i guess that's progress. and i think my dad was asking me for my list of things that i want yesterday night. wasn't very sure because i was half-asleep, but i think i heard him asking. i remember telling him something like i dont know yet or i haven't written it yet. oops. haha i'm not sure either. oh well. i'll get it done today and give it to him :D i figured out the 5 items already. although the 5th one is not really an item and it cant be bought. its more of an idea. i think. haha. i shall write my list of items here after i've given it to my dad.

i cant wait for monday because thats the day when crystal and yiinghuey are going to make the whole day super fun. and tuesday would be quite cool too i guess. on wednesday, i probably have to meet up with peishan and the rest to discuss the assembly talk bahh. haishh. and on thursday is the assembly talk. *sigh* oh well. at least i'll be in a more enthusiastic mood i guess? and an assembly talk cant be that bad, right? oh mans. i need to start doing homework this weekend [i have a lot of homework] and start planning the assembly talk. i'm in for a long hard weekend. jiayou to myself :D oh and my last finger on my left hand seems to be swollen or something :/ hurts when i type with it. oh well. hope it doesnt affect my violin practice, yeah? byeee!

haha today was a weird day. in which i slept a lot :D the day started with the school colours award, and i slept for most of it and hardly heard what was going on and got woken up by the people sitting around me about 4 times. haha oops :x then after that we got back our literature paper. its the only paper left. i did pretty alright for elit, and it was one of the few papers which i felt a tinge of satisfaction in (: i didnt expect to do so well, because i seldom do very well for elit, you see. ah well. thats an A2 for elit, at least. after that was recess, and i went with wanyee and the rest. (: then we had english lesson together with all the other EC classes about a mock ASEAN thing, and i listened quite intently for the first 10 minutes or so. however, i eventually started dozing off. [because i was tired, and i knew that i wouldnt be one of the 10 people chosen in the class anyway, so yeah.] woke myself up about 5 times, because i was afraid that the teachers might catch me sleeping, but turned out that it was really 白费力气. haiz. should have just slept soundly all through the lesson. oh well. after that was elit, which was quite fun, [except for the fact that i dont have any memories of my first day of school in kindergarten or primary school] and then chem, which was the usual lesson. the start of lessons yet again is definitely unwelcome here.



these exams are really one of the worst results i've gotten in st nicks, because they're so... AVERAGE. my family doesn't like average results. especially not a lot of Bs. in this exam, i have a total of 1 A1, 1 A2, 3 B3s, 1 B4, 1 C5, 1 C6. which also equals to 2 As, 4Bs, and 2 Cs. its really one of the worst ever, but also one of the most satisfactory. its the worst because i'm expected to get all As for my maths and sciences especially, but i only got 1, plus i got C6 for amath. but, its very satisfactory because my languages, which are usually very bad, aren't too bad this time, with an A2 for elit, B3 for eng, and a high C for hcl. thus, in conclusion, [haha i sound like i'm writing an essay] the bad thing was that my maths and sciences dropped, and the good thing is that my languages improved. brilliant. terrific. looks like its really quite impossible to improve in everything, huh? i can only either improve in this or that, never both. haiz.



oh well. i guess i'll finish up my chem homework, then maybe play a bit of audi? :D haha. and crystal and yiinghuey are getting suspicious. they've been sending me an email a day ever since yesterday, and will probably keep sending it until my birthday. and i'm supposed to use a program to decode the messages. and i got the english version and i understand it, but it doesnt make any sense unless you're some alien. oh well. hope i can figure it out soon, yeah? and the story is quite interesting anyway (: and my class is officially shifting to 2purity starting from tomorrow to have our lessons there. the good thing? they have a whiteboard and i'm ok with the place. the bad thing? its only temporary and we have to shift again to the primary section sometime next week i think. D: i dont want to shift to the primary section. its too far away. haiz. oh well. better get doing my homework. then i can play audi after that. yay :D goodnight!

o.O 500th post :D

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wanjane: you better not! haha since you know you slack so much, then you should start studying! tsktsk. still come here to 炫耀 how randomly you're going to do for o levels.



oh wow. my mum didnt nag! :O -super shocked- but she hardly said anything. so :/ but i guess it might also be because, before i told her my results, i already said 'uh. my amath not good.' and was giving a depressed look, so yeah. haha. dunno lah. but i have a feeling she's going to tell my dad immediately when he comes home. D: and yes, i got a B for everything so far, except for math, amath and chinese. and my mum was asking why i couldn't even get an A, as usual.

i went to amk hub after school today. and yay cos school ended at 1pm for me today. no physics paper mahh :D ate pepper lunch with my friends, then we walked around the shopping mall until about 3.30pm when we went home. my violin lesson today was alright. (: [even though i only practised for about half an hour] anyway, i bought my grade 6 scales and exam pieces before lesson, and they totalled to almost $50 :/ yeahh and after that, my teacher used both books during the lesson and i'm starting on exam pieces already :D yay. i hope that, given the time i have to practise, i'll be able to pass my violin grade 6 exam smoothly :D therefore, i shall get myself to practise hard. my 1 hour violin lesson doesnt have much difference from my 45min ones. i dont really feel that its any huge difference, just that there's more time to do more stuff. but there isnt much feeling of the time dragging on. although i do get a bit more sleepy in class now :/ its been quite a while since i've felt sleepy during class.

and yeah, i need to keep reminding myself of what i have to do.
- study for theory exam
- read more chinese
- practise music more often
- study physics
- play basketball
- go swimming
- learn to write properly with my left hand
- finish reading the 9 books on my waiting list
- read the set of encyclopedias in my house
- clear out all my random stuff
- earn my own pocket money
- go on a shopping spree and get new clothes
- study everything

i shall start on theory, chinese, music, and the 9 books first. they're more important. the first 3 are important because i have exams coming up, and i need to read finish the 9 books because otherwise, i'll never finish them. haha. shall start on the books i borrowed from tg first, then the ones i bought from popular that day and finally the ones i bought from the book sale. and i'm planning to go swimming one of these few days. i just suddenly have an urge to go swimming, and i want it to be sometime near my birthday. so i wanted tomorrow, but i doubt i'll be able to make it tomorrow :/ oh well. another day then. and i mustmustmust start studying for everything after my birthday.

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wanjane: yo. haha NO its good :D because then you shall be inspired to make the whole day a very good day [because its my birthday] and work hard for your english paper and have no regrets! wahahaha :D even though that doesnt really make much sense. oops? haha. oh well. and yes you better come find me. (:

suzume: ehh. who auntie lahh. tsk. and i'm going to start after my birthday! :D haha earlier than you =P



i found a nice drama to watch again. wondering if i should watch videos or play audi. i have violin lesson later, so i need to save some time to practise too. and i havent done my theory homework. i better do it later today or something. hopefully.

got back another 4 of my results today - higher chinese, additional mathematics, social studies, elective geography. was quite happy that i managed to get a C5 for my hcl and didnt fail it, cos i was worried about what would happen if i failed hcl and whether i would need to drop to cl. lucky i didnt. my amaths was an amazing C6. and its probably going to earn me the biggest scolding ever when my mum comes back later. sure, my dad will probably scold me too, but not as bad as my mum, i guess. i hate it when i get scolded. especially when scolding also involves a few hours of nagging. crap. if i promise that i'll start studying hard from now on, can you promise to stop nagging forever? no, right? haiz... personally, i was really quite upset about it too, but i guess i was more worried about how badly i would get scolded. my social studies was a B3 and my egeog was a B4, and if i combined them into 1 subject, then it would just be a B4.

i guess the main thing i'm worried about is just my amaths. usually, the rest will just be the usual scolding, but this time, my amath paper will probably cause the start of some explosion, and all the other subjects will just be extra fuel to add to the explosion :/ crap. i wish someone would pull me out from this nightmare. it was terrible enough knowing my results, not to mention my teacher asking me what happened to me, crystal shaking me like siao and asking what happened to me, and my inference on what would happen when my mum comes home. you dont even need to tell me how dead i am. i'm really sorry, but all i want to do right now is sit in some corner and cry for 2 hours straight and never ever let my mum see my results. [until i finally work hard enough to prove her wrong and let her know that i dont deserve her hours of nagging.] but thats not going to happen. never, in fact. its impossible. but its getting more and more difficult trying to keep up this false front, and i wonder when it'll just all come crashing down again.

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suzume: thanks a lot! (: you guys are the best. oh and yes i will tell you when i play audi! i'm so sorry i forgot to tell you these few days :/ i'll make up for it! :D



at last, something to talk about again. went to school today and it was quite crappy. we got back 4 of our papers - english, chemistry, mathematics, biology. all of it was average. which was bad. my mum always wants the best results, and my dad hates it when i get average marks. i think that he thinks that it makes me seem like an average student, so he doesn't really like it. i remember the last time i got back an average ppr, and he was asking 'why are all your marks so... average?' and yeah i could tell that he was quite disappointed. crap. D: oh well. at least its average and not below average. well i got B3 for english and sciences, and A1 for mathematics. but yeah, they were all below expectations [my parents' expectations, duh] as usual. even mathematics, sad to say. dunno what my mum will make of it. shall show her my papers later. the only paper i didnt take home today was chemistry, because there were calculation errors. and i'm feeling quite disappointed because of how lousy [uhh. compared to expectations?] my results are, but i'll just carry on smiling and pretend as if i don't care. as usual, yeah?

today was a whole day of getting back exam papers and checking answers. which also equals to boring. it was quite noisy, but i didnt really mind it, since i couldnt be very bothered. ate a lot today :D and was happy that my cca meeting was cancelled but upset that i still had to go for cca. haha. sorry, because i felt that it was kind of a waste of time. [when i could be ate home playing audition] oh well :/ before cca, i was with zhuangyun and we just burned off about 1 hour wasting our time while waiting for our ccas to start. and the people who were practising guitar in our class were quite good, i think. at least they sounded much better than me. i shall aspire to be as good as them and start learning the guitar properly. maybe i'll go buy some more guitar books and start self-learning everyday. i only have one proper beginner book so far.

after cca today, i went home on my own, reading my storybook. oh yah. today morning i saw sufyan. turns out he had exams last friday, but not yesterday and today. what a weird timetable. haha. oh well. jiayou for your exam tomorrow then. and my storybook is one of the few that tg lent me. [and i havent returned after so long :/] thats why i'm planning to read them finish sometime soon, and maybe return to tg during the december holidays.

uhh okay. my mum just looked at my exam results for the 4 subjects and after hearing that my marks are 60+, she immediately said 'thats no good.' and asked for the grade. after hearing that it was B3, nothing changed and she continued about how i got B for so many subjects and that i couldn't even get an A2 [exclude mathematics. she doesn't care. its an automatic expectation for me to get A1 and not any lower for mathematics.] and that wasnt good and how i needed to work harder. gahh. whateverrr. she just walked off and said that she'll look at my papers closer later. [she's busy now] i can't stand this. i shall chiong audition now because i'm feeling in a really bad mood.

- study for theory exam
- read more chinese
- practise music more often
- study physics
- play basketball
- go swimming
- learn to write properly with my left hand
- finish reading the 9 books on my waiting list
- read the set of encyclopedias in my house
- clear out all my random stuff
- earn my own pocket money
- go on a shopping spree and get new clothes

just to remind myself. (:

i got into an audition fever yesterday :D shall play audition the whole day today. want to earn enough money to buy nice clothes :D



i guess i'm getting used to the feeling of being ignored and left out. its becoming more common and i'm just trying not to care anymore. if you guys want to talk to me, i'll talk to you too. if you ignore me, then i'll just stand there and look like an idiot. i guess thats the only thing i can do, huh? i dont want to lose these friends, but then again, it seems stupid to be friends with people who just ignore you and walk off, right? haha. oh well. even hanging out with my other friends, who are all from the same class and i'm the only one from a different class, is better, because they dont ignore me at least. i guess i just have to learn to get used to this feeling of being left out, since i'll be with these friends for quite a while more.



i realised that i dont learn anything from school. really. the only times when i'm able to absorb and understand what we're supposed to know for the tests or exams or whatever, is only when i'm at home staring at my textbook or notes. thus, i have concluded that it doesnt really matter if i come to school or not, since i dont learn anything anyway. i guess the only reason i come to school is because my parents want me to. how boring. i wish my life weren't so boring. :/ sianz. i'll change this someday. you'll see.

yesterday was games day and it was almost exactly like last year's. not much difference. just everyone playing games at different venues and people going around to watch and cheer for their friends. i dont think it was very fun. i only liked playing the game itself [mine was table tennis] and i really regretted not being able to play against wanyee. ): i'm so sorry wanyee! lets find some time to play table tennis together someday, okay? after school, i went home on my own while reading a book i borrowed from the library on thursday. reached home and watched my videos for the rest of the day. quite slack, i guess.

today, i'm supposed to go out soon to my aunt's house. she's overseas so i need to go to her house to take in her mail =.= i regret wasting my time on this, but i said i would, so... haiz. anyway, i can at least do some stuff on the way there, i guess. tomorrow, i might be going out with wanjane for lunch. i'm planning to go jogging or something tomorrow. i've been too lazy sitting at home watching my videos all day long, so i think i should do something else. see how bah.



frankly speaking, i dont see much difference between students from neighbourhood schools and those from elite schools. really. besides their academic levels and use of language, i dont think they're so different after all. students from elite schools can curse and swear just like those from neighbourhood schools. [i've heard it with my own ears.] and their behaviours aren't all that different either. so i really dont see why elite schools are considered elite. there's a lot of things out there besides academics, isnt there? so why does everyone only care about your results? i think i really dont understand the world at all.

which reminds me. that day i heard yet another comment about academics. jan got a pass for one of his subjects, and my mum saw that there were such a thing as distinctions and merits, so she was asking 'why is it just a pass?' and jan said 'a pass is good enough okay.' and my mum asked 'if you can get distinction, why not get distinction?' SIAN. i hate hearing these kind of things. oh well. not like you can shake off the expectations that others have of you. i want to not care, but yet, at the same time, i also want to do well. so i dont know what i should do. it sucks being so confused.

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alison: yo! :D you found my blog! haha :D see you around!



on wednesday, crystal came over to my house at about 11am. i was watching my videos as usual. woke up at 8am lehh. so early... *yawns* yeah then she came and i taught her violin first, then she taught me piano. uhh the lessons are a bit weird i think, and not much progress so far [because there's only 2 lessons so far], but hopefully we'll get better, yeah? (: and i didnt know teaching was so tiring. haha. yeah then i think our lessons were quite short. i think that, for us, its more of just understanding and practising. the teacher explains, you understand, you practise on your own. not much to do during the lessons i guess. so our lessons were kind of short. haha. oops? yeahh then after lessons, me and crystal sat around and didnt do anything much. called yiinghuey because we were feeling bored. haha. we all agreed that the after-exam period is super sian and we dont have anything much to do. [which explains why me and crystal were so bored] crystal left around 2pm, so thats about 3 hours spent at my house.

after crystal left, i continued watching my videos until about 6pm. then, i started practising violin [i miscalculated the timing, and thus had little time to practise my violin] and rushed for lesson after that. sad to say, my violin has been upgraded to grade 6 this month. that's good, i guess. but then the fees went up and the time has been extended to 1 hour :O crap. that isn't good. but it was interesting that my first 1 hour of violin lesson passed by quite quickly, and i didn't really notice that it was 1 hour instead of 45 minutes. and fortunately, it didnt go so badly. although i was quite worried because i only practised it at the last minute. after my violin lessons, i felt very inspired to practise my music everyday again :D which is good. although i'm getting quite broke because of music stuff. my violin fees went up, i still have theory fees to pay, and i need to buy violin grade 6 scales and exam pieces asap. sobs. my money shall fly away. and i'm not intending on getting money from my parents to buy my violin books, so yeah.



today i went to the arcade with my 2wisdom friends. woke up at 11am [i was supposed to wake up at 10am] and then left for causeway point at around 12.30pm. met wanyee and we ate lunch together at yoshinoya. darice came to find us and sat there too, eating her french fries, which was also her lunch. yepp then jacq and jessica came together, and we all went to the arcade. oh and theresa came along too. sad to say, almost everyone was late. and i know that at least 3 of us [wanyee darice and me] overslept. haha. anyway, we played at the arcade for most of the afternoon, until around 4pm or 5pm. it was super fun playing with everyone there :D especially wanyee whom i played with the most, even though she won me in a lot of games. haha but nevermind lah. oh and wanjane called me sometime in the afternoon [lucky i wasn't playing any games at that time] and asked if i wanted to eat lunch with her. haha that was super random okay! i told her i was in the arcade and had eaten my lunch already anyway. haha. must be jealous that i'm playing in the arcade while you just finished your very long day in school!

when we finally left, we walked around cwp to shop. by that time, only 4 of us were left. jacq and theresa had gone home already. shopped until about 6pm [i think] and then we went to macs to sit down and decided to eat there, with the exception of darice and her sushi. it was a bad choice on my part to buy so much food. D: managed to finish everything, but was extremely full after that and almost had a stomachache. when we were done, [or rather, when i was done] it was 7pm and everyone went home. it was a super super fun day :D thanks a lot guys! although i was kind of broke after that. spent about $10+ on the games, but since i had topped up my card twice with $10... well, that was $20 gone. until the next time i go to the arcade i guess. and i spent quite a lot of money eating too. about $5+ for lunch at yoshinoya, and another $5+ for my meal at macs. plus, i bought a drink for $1.50. thats about $13 gone. then i bought something which cost $6, while shopping. in total, that's $20 at arcade, $13 for food and drinks, $6 on shopping, which equals to $39 gone, and that can be rounded up to $40!!! crap. i just busted $40 today!

after wanyee, jessica and darice left for home, i went to the library and looked for books for a while. found an interesting book, then sat down to start on my theory homework. [yes, sadly i haven't done my theory homework yet. thats so unlike me.] when it was almost 8pm, i went to my music school for my theory lesson. somehow, the 1 hour of theory passed by quite quickly too. i didnt manage to get much done, but thats alright. i'll do my homework tomorrow or something. (: exams are over anyway, so i need to concentrate on my theory exam now. i have got to start studying.

after theory lesson, i went home and my dad managed to successfully scare me by suddenly appearing next to me while i was finding my wallet for the keys to the house. for dinner, my mum let me have a choice of eating the packet of rice or some lighter food from delifrance for dinner. [fortunately] so i ate the one from delifrance and was super full after that. and then, later on my dad made oats and i ate a bowl of it, so i was super full again. [i was super full 4 times today. 1st time was after eating at yoshinoya. 2nd time was after eating at macs. 3rd time was after my delifrance dinner. 4th time was after eating the bowl of oats.] in conclusion, i am just super super full today.

right now, i shall either go watch my videos, play audi, or read my book. yepp. tomorrow is games day and i wonder if its going to be fun. :/ oh well. see you around!

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jessica: haha okay okay. well i love linkin park too :D



its officially END OF EXAMS. for me and some people, at least. sorry for those who still have exams, but hey, dont worry about it, it'll be over really soon. :D yay. but, i dont seem to feel very high anymore.

must be because the shopping trip at orchard was really tiring. people who went[in order of index number! :D haha]: celine, me, cheryl, clarice, shushien, shirley, huishan, alison, sharon. yepp. 9 people. but celine left earlier. anyway, thanks very much to celine's chaffeur, we were able to go to orchard and then taka and then far east plaza. yepp. when we first reached orchard, we sat on a bench and stoned and did nothing much. after the shops finally opened, we walked around taka for quite a bit, then ate lunch twhere. i ate fish and chips, even though i'm not supposed to because i have an extremely bad sore throat. but nevermind. SHHH. you didnt hear anything :D the 8 of us ate different foods from 3 different places. so we split into 3 groups and had our lunch separately. there was hardly a placehich could seat 8 people all at once, anyway. 3 groups: me, clarice, cheryl. alison, shushien, shirley. huishan, sharon. yepp. haha.

then after that we met up again and walked around. basically, we spent almost the entire day walking around. and then later on, we went shopping, and split into 2 main groups: the couples and the bodyguards. haha. couples: shirley and sharon! alison and shushien. bodyguards: me, cheryl, huishan, clarice. and shirley and sharon really make an interesting couple. we amused ourselves quite a bit thinking how they really looked like a very sweet couple. hahaha :D

oh and chewlin and shiying came to far east plaza for a while, so i told chewlin to come find me. at that time, the 'bodyguards' were sitting in the basement, taking a break from following the couples everywhere around. haha. yeah but me, chewlin and shiying didnt talk much and just stoned a lot. haha. stood there and talked a bit, then stoned, then talked a bit, then stoned. haha. a bit weird lor :/ oh well. but it was cool meeting them there anyway (:

i finally went home at about 3pm, when a few of us had gotten quite tired and just wanted to go home. went home with huishan, cheryl and sharon. took the mrt home as usual, and was really really tired. haiz. what a long day. *phew* i want to go to sleep! but then, i cant. so i might as well go and watch my videos. haha. and i'm not very excited about the fact that is end of the exams anymore, because the whole day tired me out, plus i'm suddenly not very excited about my violin and piano lessons tomorrow anymore :/ and i'm worried that i might not play well because i havent practiced. haiz. well, whatever. i can always watch my videos first and worry later, yeah? :D bye! [i'm gonna find something to eat mans. i'm starving!]

today was 2nd last day of exams :D i love the fact that we have holidays everywhere. anyway, we had amath and chinese papers today. sure enough, it was super boring and sian. and i hate myself for being so complacent and over-confident. i really really hate myself. after exams, i went home with crystal and we went to yoshinoya to eat lunch (: and now i'm home and i want to watch my videos. oh by the way, yesterday night i studied until around 10.45pm, then watched a movie until 12am and went to sleep. yepp. 1 more exam! haha but everyone's already taking it as though the exams are over. anyway its just 45mins of elit. then after that, we can go taka! and on wednesday, music lessons throughout the day. thursday - arcade! school on friday, and then the weekends! yay :D life rocks. seeyou!



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OK. english language paper I
OK. higher chinese language paper I
OK. elective geography
OK. english language paper II
OK. mathematics
OK. chemistry
OK. english literature paper II
OK. biology
OK. social studies
OK. additional mathematics
OK. higher chinese language paper II
english literature paper I

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i cant stand this. its seriously too noisy in here. and even if everyone shuts up, you can feel the emotions building up inside them. crap. just great. exactly when i wanted to start studying. no wonder i can never study properly.

when i wanted to start studying, my dad was angry at my mum, plus he was using my laptop and table. so i read some chinese and then went to bathe. after i was done bathing, my mum was angry at jan. [apparently, his results weren't good enough, even though my mum asked me to calculate the total marks and i got 72/100. but she said that a 70 wasnt good enough and he had to get at least 80.] well, whatever. just leave me out of it okay. and then my dad was angry at my mum because she was noisy. argh. whateverrr okay. sometimes i wish i had my own room mans. not having your own room sucks. this whole place is noisy like hell. and then my mum walked by and asked why i wasn't studying for amath. well, 1) you're noisy. i cant concentrate. 2) even if i dont study, i wont die. 3) i can study it later. but i just told her 1) and she got really mad and started nagging about me instead. that wasnt a good thing to do, but hey, i really couldnt stand it okay. but now its worse. it sucks when you fall into traps like that. next time, i must really learn to just shut up and ignore everything.

okay its sort of getting a bit better. maybe i'll listen to my songs while studying. and i want to finish studying quickly. planning to watch a movie later. from the dvds crystal lent me. dunno if i'll have time, but i can try, right? (: see you around. [just came to blog because i was feeling pissed and couldnt concentrate.]

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Suzume: haha okaaay. i love to sleep too, but its not because of the dreams. its just because i'm a lazy pig :D lalala~ arcade!!! :D



okay i didnt study anything yesterday. just spent the whole day watching videos as usual. shall study today. i just finished watching the whole of season 2 of my videos, and i havent started on a new series yet, so i think i'm ok for the time being. guess i can finish studying amath today and then maybe read a bit of chinese. i'm in for a super boring day tomorrow. amath plus chinese. siannn.

i'm starting to realise how contradictory i am. i thought i'd be able to do a lot of things after my exams, but now i know why i always have a problem with my self-discipline. right now, even though my exams havent even ended yet, i'm already so screwed. i'll never be able to do what i want to do when i have the time. my self-discipline is just not good enough. it only takes effect when i'm feeling like it. when i'm not, then its as good as nothing. and when i have a lot of time to do whatever i want to, my self-discipline just disappears and i just become slack. this sucks. this really really sucks. crap. i'm not motivated to do anything any longer.

oh yah. i know my birthday's coming soon. um i didnt say anything hor. i'm just stating a fact. oh by the way, i dont think i want a skateboard that badly anymore. i guess i'll still put it on the list, but i dont mind if my dad gets me something else. yeah. and i'm still wondering how its like to have a birthday without birthday presents. it'll probably be quite interesting i guess. and it'd be cool if i dont know when's my birthday, right? haha yeah i think it'd be super cool. haha no this isnt being sadistic. i'm just putting myself in the shoes of others. i dunno. i know i should be glad that people actually remember my birthday. but then again, i'd really like to know how it feels if no one remembers. it'll probably be fun, i think. and i know "we never reflect how pleasant it is to ask for nothing." so right now, i'm telling myself that i dont want anything for my birthday (: i'm not going to ask for anything. i just want to lead my life like i want it to be. yeah? the only thing i'm not very happy about is that i have cca on my birthday -_- it really spoils the mood, man.

yeah so anyway, i'm going to go study now (: after i work hard for this, i'm going to start working hard for myself. alright. lets go! :D

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jessica: haha you do??? you dont look like the type who will listen to linkin park! hahaha.

MJ: wow thats the first time someone say i study until very yong gong. hahaha. i dont think so lor. i think you too slack already. but i thought you're more hardworking than me? haha.



yay i watched a whole series finish yesterday :D and i'm watching the next 2nd season now. my throat is not getting any better. in fact, i thin k its getting worse. yesterday i coughed a lot during ss exam. today i have an extremely runny nose and if i attempt to talk or swallow something, my throat hurts really bad ): sad, but at least it refrains me from talking nonsense i guess. haha. lalala~ okay so i hope i recover really soon because i want to eat lots of chocolates after my exams areover. at this rate, i wont be able to eat any for the next 2 weeks or so, i guess D: oh well. i must stop forgetting to take medicine. haha. i always forget :/ yeah and yesterday i slept quite late, and my mum was really angry at me, but i'm glad she doesnt seem to be angry at me today. (: yepp thats all i guess. nothing much going on around here. i'm just watching lots and lots of videos everyday. shall study for amath later today, hopefully. seeyou!

oh well. i did say that even if i couldnt finish studying, i still have to. guess i sort of finished it after all. sort of. and today's ss exam was not much different from chemistry. and i just realised that i always have time management problems for the exams on fridays. oh well. but as usual, i got over it. walked around in cwp with jacq after that for about an hour [even though we were planning to walk till 2pm, but jacq had something on after that. hmph.] and then i bought lunch and went home. so yeah, i want to go watch more videos now. shall start on another series :D seeya!



[STUDY REVIEW]
additional mathematics 0/8
higher chinese 0/?
english literature 0/?

[EXAMS]
OK. english language paper I
OK. higher chinese language paper I
OK. elective geography
OK. english language paper II
OK. mathematics
OK. chemistry
OK. english literature paper II
OK. biology
OK. social studies
additional mathematics
higher chinese language paper II
english literature paper I

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