so long since i last posted D: ton of homework! hahaha i'm such a slacker i only completed 2 super retarded pieces of homework throughout the entire weekend so far. might do more later hopefully :D yay okay. hmm. busy week D: especially the bio test on friday which i totally did not fully mug for. too busy trying to get my sleep and facebook is very distracting ): sian. yepp okay i shall resolve to stop using facebook so often. maybe twice a week or something during weekdays. i wanted to cure my sleep deprivation during the weekends. managed to do rather well by sleeping at 12/1 on friday night, waking up at 10am, doing random shits and then starting on homework and falling asleep from around 12pm - 4.30pm. awesomeness :D which also meant that i had sufficient sleep so yay :D actually saturday my whole family was sleeping except my mum. basically saturdays and sundays can be a full-sleeping day for us sometimes :D and then wahahaha yay i'm going for astrigue :D awesome. but there's also apollo fac cip on the same day so :/ whoops. and if there's rosyth gathering on that day too then i'm pretty much dead >< deprivation =".="">< and then did my 2 pieces of homework in the span of... 3 hours? before i got sidetracked again and decided to finish reading my sister's keeper instead. loved it :D haha awesomeness manz. it was a depressing book but that's what life is - depressing. who cares. i thought it was very very real, so yay good good :D yup then watched a bit of tv and printed out consent form + math notes so now here i am blogging and facebooking. shall go eat brownie after this and get back to doing homework, hopefully :D i realised i can actually be very efficient if i want to. but you know, out of the 48 hours of the weekend, i only spend 3 being serious about homework, and the rest doing shit like sleeping/eating/playing violin/playing piano/reading storybook and basically wasting my time and life. yeahhh that's totally me (:

okay nothing much else to add actually wahaha i uploaded some photos yesterday still have more photos to upload. [on facebook.] SIAN i need to stop getting distracted by facebook and the computer and random stuff like stoning. TIME MANAGEMENT. ugh. i suck at it, i know. ton of incomplete homework all due this week. 800 word chinese essay! tell me you're kidding? nope. HAIZ. okay off to start on homework [ahem this is why i never get anything done.] and i need to stop msning/smsing people so often and concentrate on WORK. yay okay bye :D see you soon! i shall attempt to get my knee guard(s) and converse shoes and laptop cover thingy tomorrow :D

class outing was :D even though i had a ton of trouble leaving my house at first, but once that was settled, yay class outingggz :D arrived late and met esther somewhere then she brought me to justacia where we were having dinner :D quite a number of people were there :D haha apparently bryan was saying that i dress like a guy. does it matter :P my grey shirt is my favourite shirt right now :D yup. and then ate fish dory which looked nice but might not have tasted that nice. whoo then drinks + icecream :DDD haha we should have stayed there longer i would have eaten moreee moreee :D haha. after that most of the people left to get a lane for bowling, but they called to tell us that apparently we would have to wait 2 hours for an empty lane =.=" which was just rubbish so we went pooling + arcade instead :D haha pool so fun :D my first time pooling manz. online pool and real pool are very different i think ): haiz. but yeah. fun :D then i also went to play para-para :DDD haha. damn fun can :D i beat mark and teri :D lol. only spent a dollar but last song was totally killer i was half dying already because it was very tiring. and then i went back to pool table and realised that longpeng and esther had left already, which totally made me go WHATTT -panics- and i rushed to catch up with them. luckily i managed to catch up (: yay. met them at mrt station and we took the long waiting time train home, which also made me arrive home late and prone to another round of nagging because i was supposed to reach home by 11 :/ oh wells. fun day :D and yes, new classmate charlotte :O feels quite weird but oh well who cares :D whee. 10s77 - 20 girls, 6 guys, 0 councillors. the awesomest class EVERRR :D yay okay i shall stop zi high-ing over my class outing (: bryan and weichuan are pool masters :O and i keep jumping ball while pooling :/ but eh my ball jumps are damn cool okay! jump over then hit side, bounce back and hit the thing that i was aiming for. lol wtheck right. but yeah :D i think suatteng found my jump balls very entertaining. lol.

sunday was stay at home and chiong homework day :D although i didn't chiong much. did math in the early afternoon, then tried doing gp but failed by falling asleep, and then did lit essay at night :D whoo slept 1am not bad sia :D haha. i managed to finish the essay at 12.30 leh :O so shocking haha. yup. and then today was fun :D haha don't know why it was just fun. i actually listened quite attentively during the chem lecture leh! :O damn proud of myself kay. plus the fact that i was writing my second apology letter to mingjie. very shocking that i could still pay 85% attention :O usually i don't write letter also attention only 15% or something. wahahaha retarded bryan says that if i call him doraemon he will make me write apology letter to him too. as if luh haha :D doraemon! :DDD okay hahaha i think doraemon is a very cute name for him and HAHA BRYAN'S HAIR TODAY WAS EPIC WIN. everyone's reaction was like :O and the template/default and most funniest would be teri's reaction 'OHMYGOD BRYAN WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR HAIR?' totally LOL can. damn funny we were all laughing like nuts :D haha but no luh i seriously think his hair is nicer now than before HAHA regina was like saying now his hair have more 'volume' than his previously flattened hairstyle. LOL and yeah, we all dissed his previous hairstyle, so it's lucky he cut hair already :D

after lessons today was damn sian. and bryan weichuan had aep teri had chinese so basically quite sian lor. valerie weiqi and zichao were there too and i think valerie and weiqi quite sian of mugging already so yeah. and some other people there too so in the end we ended up playing ball :D valerie, suatteng, bryan, his friend, and me at first, just bouncing/passing the ball randomly to random people in the circle/outside. then later on we also passed to weichuan who was sitting there and suatteng attempted to pass to hazel but fail, attempted to pass to zichao also fail, because he scared of people shouting his name =.=" lol. if you say it nicely then he will hit the ball back. lol. yup then even later on teri and abigail joined us so yay :D quite fun luh :D and we started playing monkey :D haha. yeahhh lolol it was damn funny when the ball rolled all the way down the slope bryan was like -panic- hahaha. he was the current monkey, you see. then he went to pick it up and LOL HE ALMOST KILLED TERI BY ALMOST THROWING IT STRAIGHT AT HER HEAD. luckily it hit the pole, which also means epic fail because it bounced back and he had to pick it up again lol. but it was damn funny! laughing like nutters after that. yupp. and then finally at 4pm they had to go for lessons and whatnot so i went home ): thank you to kind secondary school people on the bus who got off the seat to let me sit down and sleep! :D much appreciated (: even if it might not have been for me but just because you wanted to stand up to talk/play with your friends better and it was a shun bian kind of thing (: who cares thank you so much (: thus i had extra sleep on the bus yay :D and my brain have been auto-programmed to wake up at marsiling already! :D the program set in quite fast leh :D whee :D

now off to do more important and urgent matters like homework, and maybe start on class blog :DDD whoo okay and probably facebook and checking smb and my email to see what homework there is and what i need to do for lit. siann. byeee! :D

wahahaha. went to school today for cca :D boy didn't come today so siquan and tseyoung and weisheng taught us stuffs. haha doubling up :D the jumping thing is damn funny everyone looks like monkeys :D and then drilled salsa for damn long until i was damn tired T_T haha tseyoung made everyone move to the bar to practise >< by the time we were done, the j2s were gone and only left j3s. then they made us do cypher first round compulsory and then free for all. i think if it was an all-j1 cypher it might have been better. haha daniel was damn funny can! go in then go out. totally lol wtheck. the seniors plus shaowee were totally giving us peptalk on cypher. haha.

anyway went off around 8.20 i think. had a hard time making people stop bboying and going for dinner instead :/ not that i didn't like bboying, but i didn't want to get locked out again. anyway, we went to kap macs. my first time going! :D i heard of it a lot of times but never actually been there so yeah. anyway people who went were the usual gang of seantan seanlim gateaux, plus extra people like kaien joey xinyun and me :D lol. yeah. damn unhealthy food can ): next time really have to change place. they have been eating there for the past few bboy training sessions =.= but haha dinner was damn fun! gateaux is damn lame la! tan and tan. haha cannot tell de. and he's like the person who is the most into rumours :O haha. and then haha i didn't know kaien was so niao lehh! walao eh. i thought seantan niao only, then become he + kaien vs me leh =.= haha. seriously i didn't know kaien so niao. haha. or maybe seantan's influence la (: haha. yah then they two took same bus as me mah (: so yah, niao lor.

i swear there's something wrong with wearing media club tee luh ): at first people like geri/joey i think, just went 'i love programming', which is written on the back of my shirt. then i was like =.= and then ignore. after that when weisheng came around to watch our salsa, he was like 'i love programming please twist more.' DOUBLE =.=" can. then dinner was the most crazy one. seantan kept going like 'programmer mah' and whatever, then a lot of things they go relate to programming luh =.= like when we talk about vbc, then link to ec3, then link to programming =.=" plus a lot of other stuffs. and then when we were on the bus, i was talking about seantan's shoes, then kaien was like saying something about binary numbers, which he apparently linked to seantan's shoes. wts right! then binary link to programming x.x last part was when they were getting off the bus then seantan said very loudly *ahemshoutedahem* 'i'll program you!' i was like totally WTF can! haha walao eh all the bboy people all say something to do with media/infocomm/programming de =.=" totally wtf =.= but yeah luh, dinner today with batch people, even though not all, was fun :D [but eh they call me hao lian leh! where got luh! haha walao.]

kk then yeah, off to sleep! :D it's 12 plus now and sleeping early might just make my mum happier and allow me to go for class outing tomorrow (: first time bowling tomorrow! :D kk SLEEP. byeee (:

wednesday 17 march

violin lesson was only half an hour :D performances by 3 people in a class of 5 that was supposed to have 6 people and 4 performers.. i was the first person to perform =.=" damn scary can. i could feel everyone staring/listening hard to what i was playing so i got damn nervous and screwed up a lot ): need to learn from my mistake and not screw up like that during exam, otherwise i'm pretty much done for. there were two guys who seemed around my age but i think they just started off. one of them said he only started learning a week ago O: wow. i think he plays drums? didn't get to ask though :/ whoops. yeah but i thought the experience was quite good. performing in front of others. teaches you to stop being so nervous and start getting a hold of yourself. i probably have stage-fright that i don't want to admit. or maybe it's just when performing violin. i don't seem to have stage-fright talking to people or anything. hnmm. oh well.



thursday 18 march

went to school in the morning because some retard by the name of bryan asked me to go =.= woke up at 6am leh =.= damn tired can. went to school at 8am and did a bit of math homework before going off to meet people for og outing at 10am. waited for slow people to arrive, then went to toonmin's house and dumped our stuff, then started playing random shit. quite a number of people came and left :/

then in the afternoon we wanted to go play basketball at the court that yiying booked at her condo, but cancelled it due to the rain. in the end we went to her condo and played hide and seek in the rain. walter damn hard to find can =.= but actually it's just because we didn't bother checking the corners. yeahh. then after the super long game the rain ended and we went back to toon's house.

continued playing random shit stuff and then celebrated toon's birthday with a card and cake and a ton of photos. i spammed a lot of photos >< haha whoops. i was using toon's camera as if it was mine and totally just spamming photos like shit can. hahaha. but he's camera is DAMN AWESOME TO USE OKAYYY. T_T i want his camera! it is really damn nice to use. and yeah, me and walter spammed quite a few photos with toon's camera, then boxiang was using his own camera. yupp (: sang birthday song for him then everyone took photo with toon. then sat around and played and cleaned up for a while, before we set off for bukit panjang centre or whatever it's called.

went to food court to eat dinner and there were 11 people until walter came back [he went off to meet his grandparent] so that was 12 people :D after dinner we sat down in a circle on the rooftop thingy and played truth or dare :D well it turned into truth or truth, but oh well. haha. quite fun lah (: in the end i only remember 8 of us left. tianhao, shaun, walter, toonmin, matthew, yiying, siming and me. yeahh. before that boxiang kaiyuan wilson were with us. chelsea left after dinner. sylvia yiting clarice huiying nikchan came during the day. yeahh (: quite successful outing actually, i think :D i had a ton of fun. left the place at 11.15pm which was freaking late and then i took lrt + mrt home (:

my mum spammed my handphone with 14 missed calls. wtf can. then i reached home at 11.50pm but my mum locked me out of the house because apparently i reached home late. only got let in around 12.45am which was like an hour later when my butt was hurting from sitting on the steps. actually i have nothing against camping outside my house la (: even better don't need to hear people nagging or anything. the only thing was that i needed to use the toilet =.=" yah. other than that i think i'd have been perfectly happy camping outside/being locked out. yup.

after i got let in, went to shower and dry my hair, then brought the laptop to 'sleep' because i wanted to blog and check email and facebook >< lol. fell asleep halfway through anyway =.= luckily i closed the thing and then later on my mum saw and she was quite annoyed that i brought the laptop to sleep [i was supposed to be sleeping] then anyway she put it back on the table and then when my dad woke up later on he was wondering why the laptop had a red light on and i think he tried to turn on/off the switch but i don't think it helped. luckily, he ignored it and didn't bother opening the laptop or anything. so when he went into the room i got up to save and close my stuffs and turn off the laptop (: yay. successful :D

which explains why i'm continuing my blogpost now, which is 12pm on friday 19 march. which is also toon's birthday [happy birthday toonmin! :D i want your camera! :D] and tsengwei's grade 8 violin exam date. JIAYOU AND ALL THE BEST, TSENGWEI! :D grade 8 sia. scaryyy. yup and then i'll be going back to school for cca later >< i think i still haven't gotten enough rest from yesterday's tiring day, even though i did get 8 hours of sleep. sian.

OKAY anyway need to start on HOMEWORKKK. ): how depressing. but yeah, i have a ton of homework. plus chem project is starting to worry me :/ i will start on that soon too. weilun and esther decided to restart the research arrangement thing, so now all of us have specific stuffs to do. i hope i do well, really :/ i don't want to pull anyone down. i will start on homework NOW NOW NOW. and hopefully finish all by tomorrow before i go for ct outing. which i'm not even sure if i can go for, since my mum is damn pissed at me for coming back so late and didn't exactly like the fact that i'm going for cca in the evening today either =.= plus tomorrow is evening until at night leh. SIAN. hope i can go lor. KK off to do stuffs. BYEEE. [i might go to school early to do homework there instead. hmm.]

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." - Martin Luther King Jr.

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i am SO SORRY. i was just damn pissed off on that day so ): yah. i need to stop doing things like that. i know i'm pissing people off when i get pissed off and i really shouldn't do it. I AM SO SORRYYY. i guess it was a bad day for me, but that isn't an excuse for what i did. i'd ask for you to forgive and forget, but considering that i myself is probably unable to do that, i don't know what to ask for. just, don't take it to heart please. i get very pissed off when i am in bad moods, so yeah. omg SORRYYYY ): i can't believe it. i was being such a jerk ): haiz.



anyway, have some mini violin performance thing today. damn mini, only perform for the other students. like last year lor. sian. my violin fail luh ): i don't know if there'll be scales but if there is then i'm dead. haiz. siannn.

busy march holidays lah~
fri evening: rf jam qualifiers
sat: rf jam
sun: bboy wicket workshop + sbdc
mon: back to school for math lesson
tue: bboy [profo won workshop + practise]
wed: violin [mini performance/exam rehearsal]
thur: og outing [toonmin's house]
fri: probably mugging at library + freeze flash mob + bboy
sat: ct outing in the evening [dinner + bowling]
sun: A FREE DAY AT LAST :DDD before another term of crazy school.

WALAO EH WHERE GOT TIME TO MUG RIGHT.
sian =.= okay i shall try my best to start mugging and bboying after today's violin class.
ta.

CONCLUSION: bboy seniors are very very VERY inspiring! :DDD not that they are damn zai or anything, but inspiring because their passion for breaking makes me feel very touched and inspired to do well and love breaking too :DDD and there are so many examples! liuyi, siquan, weisheng, vernzhiang, tseyoung. yeahh. okay i hope no senior sees this otherwise a bit paiseh =x haha. i will attempt to train hard even though my muscles are still aching from sunday's workshop :/ yupp.

anyway, today nothing much luh. went to school in the afternoon, did a bit of homework, then went for cca which was awesome to the max (: workshop by bboy profo won :D he's quite funny. i agree that we've been very fortunate so far. rf jam plus workshops by bboy wicket and bboy profo one. that's definitely not something you get easily. after workshop we stayed around to train. worked on stuff that wicket taught, and basic toprock. and then siquan taught us some drops :D and somehow me xinyun and yueching ended up staying back damn late with tseyoung who was teaching us toprock. haha okay lah actually it started because i was attempting toprock and then tseyoung came over and asked me if i'd mind if he teaches me how to do it. haha duh i don't mind right! so cool can learn from him :D because apparently liuyi says his toprock is damn nice (: but anyway, super big thank you to tseyoung! :D we stayed back from about 9 to 10. almost an hour or more, i think. oh yes and sooo sorry to weisheng for making him wait while we used the studio >< yeahhh.

okay luh actually nothing much. except the fact that today was awesome. i'm wondering if i should keep a record of what i've learnt so far :/ and hahaha okay since i'm so bored i shall be off to add all my seniors on msn :D haha i've already added all my cca people :D

saturday 13 march

sometime today i suddenly remembered my dream. i have no idea if it was last night or the previous night or perhaps even two nights ago, but it should be quite recent and it is FREAKING DISTURBING. in fact, it's so disturbing i can't even post about it here. one day i think i will just forget about it. but anyway, the main thing about it is that after dreaming about it, i felt quite disturbed because it makes me feel like i'm desperate or something. luckily, the dream wasn't that bad i suppose it was quite sweet actually. but it is still DISTURBINGGG and i will continue to be freaked out by it for the next few weeks or something. so there.

met yizhen on the mrt yesterday! :O too coincidental already luh! haha seriously, take same mrt then my mum saw her first and she was thinking that she looked familiar but didn't know who it was. i looked over when yizhen called my name and then i was like smiling at her while my brain was trying to match names to faces, and then she was like 'yi zhen' and i realised who she was. yup. i had to say 'cousin' to my mum before she realised. she was with her friend. and she is 165cm tall =.= okay nevermind actually it doesn't matter. it just bothers me because she's younger than me, that's all. apparently she just came back from competition and haha wow she talks a lot - so friendly :O haha quite good :D i talked less i think. talked about school and stuff, cca, yeah. whatever lor. yup. and then she burnt her fingers from putting them on the burning track! so poor thing ): and then uhm. yeah apparently her competition was quite screwed. and hahaha you know when she talks, i immediately think of how i talk, because the way she speaks is quite similar to how i speak when i'm with my friends. haha. quite cool to meet her on the train really :D it's been quite a while since i last saw her. and haha apparently her brother is shooting up too. oh crap he's taller than me too. haha. sian.

and i realised that i have a very good habit of using different tones and languages when speaking to different people :D when i'm with my friends, i talk a lot of crap and use words like shit and screw, which would probably not be welcomed/understood at home. in school and stuff i usually just say what i want to say. well, in hwachong anyway. and with fuchun friends. st nicks not really, because in st nicks i usually don't talk that much, unless i'm with certain people. then rosyth also a bit like that, i don't really talk much at all but it's because i feel out of place so yeah i will try not to talk so much in case it's weird. actually with fuchun friends i used to be like that, but now changed liao. then at home i will talk very singlishy and my sentences are usually shorter, but i refrain from using certain words. so yeah. it's like this auto thing already, so you won't catch me swearing in front of my parents. except maybe 'oh shit's which are acceptable.

and my brother just totally pissed me off today. it might sound stupid here, but at that time i was really feeling very upset so yeah. basically it was just, my mum was talking to someone and he was asking me to go and stop her from talking and to ask her to shut up. and i said no. and then he wanted to use the laptop and asked me to get off and then he tried snatching it from me and i just got pissed. and it was around that time when my mum came back and i grabbed my bag and walked off. and i freaking started crying. in front of the nurse. retarded or what. crying in front of some stranger is =.= retarded. i will not do that again unless absolutely necessary.

okay off to do homework and then sleep. thank you for cheering me up, random people whom i talked to (:

feeling kind of emoish now.

i haven't had the time to think about much recently. i might have stopped thinking so deeply, but i can still feel it throbbing in a corner of my mind. the need to think. life can never be so simple.



i don't know if i'm getting tired already. still wondering, still thinking. still without a conclusion. i was worried that my feelings would change, worried that i'd quit when i found out that i was too tired already. so i told myself that i wouldn't let that happen. but right now i'm not even sure of what i'm feeling. am i tired already? or is it just my fear of being tired that is making me feel so uncomfortable? it's so hard to explain all of this. so hard to understand what i'm feeling. i don't want to let go.



besides that.
i know that i'm not working hard enough. not putting in my best effort, i suppose. but i can't seem to do anything about it. i don't have any more energy left to work hard. well, actually i do. but i don't know how to translate the energy into working. i was happy when i came, but happiness alone can't get me through this. i know that. whatever happened to my promise to myself? all gone and scattered. enjoying life now. i always thought enjoying life was the main purpose of being alive. but perhaps i need to make some adjustments to my mindset. perhaps. not yet. yes, i'm enjoying life right now, but perhaps it's not the only thing to life. after all, without the pain, you wouldn't know joy. i need to work harder. i don't know how, but i know i need to do it.

i wouldn't say that i'm not happy right now.
i'm happy, overjoyed, filled to the brim with love.
but with this, comes the terrible thought of losing all this. losing the love that i'm hanging on to right now. the love that's keeping me going. that's why i can never bear to leave. and why i hate it so much. and somehow, not purposely, it translates into the same kind of hate for the person who wants to keep me away. i suppose the only people i hate are the ones who try to prevent me from loving. you don't know how scary it is to be clinging on to this string of love, the only thing that's keeping me going. there aren't enough strings to let me hold on to long enough. the only thing i'm looking for, really, is love. so it always feels so impossible when i actually receive it. it makes me feel as if it's too precious, that i'm not meant for it, and that i can lose it any time if i'm careless. a terrifying thought. i don't want to let go of this box of love that i've just received.

promise me something.
don't leave me here alone.
i wouldn't be able to take it another time.
please, promise me that, alright?



alright. enough of that. thursday i went to visit my brother. haha stupid we got scolded for eating chocolate =.= it was my brother who took it out and then i got scolded! tsk. and he helped me change the graphic calculator back to classic mode so yay :D it's fine now. i like it this way.

and then friday i went for cca (: i really wanted to go for radikal forze jam actually, but then i realised that i probably wouldn't know how to appreciate it, so :/ oh well. i will go next year or something when i understand things better! (: and then learnt new stuffs too and practised. and haha the guy who takes 961 too is regina's friend :O his name is zongxian. yes it's very hard to remember! i don't know why D: it just is. haha. i shall train hard for cca :D damn tiring though. didn't train after first session because i was dying already x.x hope i get used to it and slowly get more fit and healthy :D exercise is good. haha and then talked to ching hun a bit too, crystal's friend mah. yeah. but yayyy there's someone in the cca who takes same bus as me :DDD is that cool or what. haha. i thought there wouldn't be, because not many people take 961. oh wells :D

and then after cca went for dramafeste which was totally awesome. the plays were all very good, seriously. the ones about love were quite touching (: and then haha stupid mx never tell me his friend play violin de. at first i heard esther saying that the guy in elddfs, then i was like :O and then she say he play violin i was like double :O and when i saw him acting in dramafeste i was like triple :O! haha. yeah lor. i think i have a fetish for knowing people who play violin :D and then haha yeah lor, apollo won best ensemble, best supporting actress, best actress, best actor. even though the best actor thing was awarded to a supporting actor. maybe it's on purpose, and that they're trying to say that he's damn zai or something. haha. yeah. best actor is kevin from our class :D yeah mans. and of course, apollo for best overall :D yay. i thought all the plays were nice, but yeah, apollo's one the idea was quite different. athena's one was funny and creepy. artemis' one was sweet and painfully heartfelt. ares' was interesting, quite new. yupp :D all the plays have their own good points i think :D i thoroughly enjoyed watching all the plays :D and all the actors/actresses all damn zai! :D

after dramafeste i went home with teri and longpeng :D haha and i realised that longpeng and weiqi live damn near to each other :O so cool luh. no one lives near to me ): sian. haha alright. then come home, got scolded, blahhh, and then dried my hair and went to sleep. actually my hair not fully dry but i was damn sleepy so yeah. yupp basically that's all so far. yay i think i shall go shopping later :D need to buy stuff.

hello world! :D as you can see, i am rather high right now. hahaha. i was reading through my blog and i realised that i've missed out quite a lot of stuff due to hectic days and ton of homework.



okay, so most important things first! :DDD bboy auditions! :D yay i got in :DDD hahaha. M.A.D [music and dance] bgirl :DDD ♥♥♥

went for first cca session on tuesday :D i already know quite a few people now :D because i tried to talk to people so yupp. i think the seniors are very funny and nice! :D and then i know all the j1 girls but guys only know a few. haha shaowee totally integrated into the j2s hahaha. and then i think there's one j1 guy who takes 961 too! :DDD because i saw him on the bus with his friend. yay because i am finding more people who take 961 :D good good. basically everyone in bboy quite nice luh (: then all the j1s like quite quiet actually :x yes including me, but i was never noisy. [haha or was i?] tomorrow i shall be more friendly and talk to more people :D getting to know people shall be my new goal in cca :D other than practising hard (: it's damn freaking tiring but i think it's worth it because it is also damn freaking fun :D this is the first time i experienced something like that, i think. doing something even though it's killing you [yes i was dying from not exercising for too long okay!] but doing it anyway because you know you love it.

oh yes and i really have to say that, after coming to hwachong, it feels as if i've been deprived for quite a long time. it's been so long since i had such a strong feeling of love and attachment to certain stuffs/things/people/places. yeah. it's been too long, really. getting this feeling back feels like i'm on overload. i'm been running for too long and i haven't got any more strength to go on, but as long as you're here, i'll be running beside you and i won't stop. that kind of feeling (: it's been too long since i knew what it was like to be like this.

besides me getting in, i have also had some other issues about cca. which refers to my great plan of scamming people of my cca. i managed to scam shaun into believing that i was joining band and playing the bassoon, with extra credits and thanks to walter and clarice :D hahaha it was damn funny. also wanted to scam zichao but that one a bit harder ): i'm still not sure if he got scammed or not. oh wells. then yeah, thanks a lot to people who helped me to scam people/didn't reveal my cca to anyone who asked :D love you guys (: and no thanks to the retards who practically announced my cca to the whole world. *ahemmingjieandshaunahem* yupp i think that's about all for scamming of ccas (:



our pe lessons for the past 2 weeks have been quite D: more dance. rock and roll, and jive. not very nice dance. [hahaha bgirl is nicer :D but oh well.] and then one round of jogging around a part of the school for warm up. yeah. last week's jog was :/ because a lot of people around me were walking tsktsk. then this week not bad :D i must train more. cross country is coming up soon! next week trial run leh. i don't want to die during the run. and we took height and weight today. i swear there's something wrong with the height thingy. everyone either shrunk or remained the same. we suspect that there's a -2cm error. seriously! and then my weight was quite wtf. 43kg. i went home and checked it was 45kg. the last time i checked i was 47kg. yeah. haha. there must be something wrong with being 43kg, eating bread instead of rice as meals, eating instant noodles twice a week, eating dinner after 8pm everyday, and feeling dizzy more than once after pe lesson. seriously! proper conclusion would be something like: i am not getting a proper diet, not eating enough and at the right time, and not drinking enough water, thus the dizzyness. my conclusion, though, is: i have not been getting my daily supply of junk food and chocolate! [because of my bad throat for the past few weeks.] thus explains the low sugar level and screwed weight and whatnot. proper solution would be: eat healthy and eat more fruits and whatnot. my solution? spam junk food and chocolate! :DDD lol.



today's math test was quite screwed but i've long gone past caring about tests. just wanted to say that you shouldn't be so depressed just over a test, it's really not worth it. and ohkay actually i had a lot to post about, but time's running out and i'm starting to fall alseep >.< haha damn tired. so i shall end off here. school has been really fun recently (: thank you everyone who has made school fun in one way or another. off to maybe do some work before i SLEEP (: nice nice sleep.

EEK. hbl is driving me nuts. well actually it's quite okay. it's homework which is driving me nuts D: haiz. and MATH. damn it! whatever happened to me and math? HAIZ. screw. math test on thursday and i know shit about graphing. ugh. i will spend a good amount of time trying to figure out how to freaking use the calculator properly. there's something wrong with it too by the way >_> so double crap. i need to ask someone to fix it [it's not really spoilt but it's acting kind of weird.] but damn my brother is not at home and is not going to be at home until i don't know when, and i hardly think that a one-hour trip to find him just for that would be wise. i hope the seniors will know >.< haha i think my motto will be something like: in times of stress, slack. and hahaha only four people from s77 went back to school today, as far as i know. and someone else who was coming later but i forgot who. so 5 people i suppose. haha. mark and bryan from our class. shiing and weiqi from senior class. hahahaha i was like :O wah so pathetic. haha. oh well. maybe more people arrived later. yeahh.

i have a TON of homework which i shall attempt to finish mostly by today :D i still haven't gotten results for audition yet x.x waitinggg. otherwise i'm actually supposed to go to school for stuffs. darn. yeah. and feeling very tempted to watch the movie. it's loading right now :D hahaha. yepp. okay off to do work. i shall come back and post again when i get results, hopefully (: