saturday [yesterday] had dental appointment in the morning. omg awesome friendly dentist! =] i want the same dentist next time! then went to sherilyn's house for the annual cny gathering in the late afternoon. met yh & kc downstairs before we went up. when we got there, duncan ken & pearly were already there, among others. was really crowded at first, then slowly emptied out. haha. at first didn't do much, just stood around talking, then played cards & gambled and i lost 2 bucks :'( but thanks to duncan cos he won a couple of rounds and helped me pay for a few of my games (: good friend!! (: after that ate a bit, then went to play mahjong for the rest of the evening/night. finally left around 11 plus with mx dunc kc and some other girl who i don't know but who won 30 bucks from gambling. seriously (y). thanks dunc for walking me home too (: haha he enlisting tomorrow liao omg so fast. in fact almost everyone enlisting next week liao. sighh. anyway, had fun there so yaye (:


today went to starbucks at the cathay to meet regina kevin & weilun for our starbucks treat from weilun :D had fun talking and listening to them talk about the strangest things ever. as always. haha (: it's almost impossible to have a normal discussion with them, since kevin & weilun are like already the strangest people in our class. haha. after that we walked around plazasing and went to see [in my case, buy] books and stuffs (: had a fun time so yaye as well (:

although i came home to have my mood spoilt by my mum ._. but whatever since there's no point in wasting my time ranting about it. that's about it i guess. next week will be... spent stuck at home again i suppose. will probably find a day to go cryst's house to play songs on violin & piano though (: and then maybe if there's any more free days, plan a dslr outing with tamaryn or smth (:



'Live your beliefs and you can turn the world around.'
i'll try.

so anyway, cny has mostly passed and i spent the first 2 days watching movies like step up, step up 2, ip man, ip man 2, 大兵小将 and uhh well nothing much else. don't really like cny though ._. ohwell. whatever. just spent the past hour trying to understand hair highlights but it seems pretty complicated and nowhere on the internet can i find a good explanation of all the different type of hair highlights and methods. ohwell ): but yeah i wanna get red highlights even though uhh my mum doesn't approve. [she's okay with me getting my ears pierced now though.] sort of had an idea of what i want my highlights to look like, but then was really scared the stylist will screw up or smth if i just go and try and explain it, so i've searched for photos of highlighted hair and i didn't know there were so many kinds of different styles ._. and how come nowhere can i find the exact style i want! gah. well whatever i might not even go highlight my hair in the end i dunno.

anyway, yesterday my dad spent about 2 hours teaching me stuffs and lol at the end of it he came out and said he finished tuitioning but he doesn't get paid. LOL. lame luh. but anyway as usual he digressed a lot during the 2 hours and there was this point where he was talking about how i'm already 18 but i'm still like some little girl. [said in a disapproving tone, duh.] not literally like how my friends always say i look like some lil' girl, but more of, i haven't got the experience than an 18-year-old should have, some examples that he gave including people who are 18 have already climbed mountains and gone canoeing and gone to so many countries and know so many things. so i guess he means, but here i am stuck at home, rather like a pampered lil' girl, being spoonfed by my parents and not learning anything on my own out there in the real world. of course he did mention about my brother too, but whatever cos i don't really care & that's not the point. the point is, honestly i was quite annoyed about how he said it. because it's not as if i don't try to do some stuffs that i really want to do, but hey, if i want to learn wakeboarding or whatever, i need money which i don't have, and what the hell man, you think my mum will let me do all these things when she didn't even let me pierce my ears until this year and when my friends have had their ears pierced when they were in kindergarten or something? you think my mum will let me do all these things when she disapproves of me going out more than once a week? and when i go out, i have to tell her i'm going to the effing library so she'd allow me to step out of the house? when i can't even ride my bike around the neighbourhood because her definition of neighbourhood is a maximum of 5 minutes ride away from my house? [which is nothing compared to with the night cycling we had at fuchun chalet. people would scoff at the idea of riding around the neighbourhood cos that's what 10 year olds do.] what the hell man. it's not like i don't make any effort at all, but does he honestly think that my mum will approve? i know what he said was kinda meant to make me want to do something on my own, show my worth, but from my angle, some of the things that i want to do, it kinda seems as if i'll have to be a rebellious kid in order to do those things. he could do so many things when he was 18 because his parents probably didn't even bother him. pissed. it's not like i'm not trying, okay.

anyway it's not like i'm pissed at him. i'm just pissed at my mum and at my predicament and at myself i guess. ugh. and i was reading this just now, some stuffs my dad typed. if his english was better maybe he could've been writing articles or stuff, but haha no he's noob at english luh. but the points are still there, yknow.

Looking for perfection ?no! Should be active,dynamic, colourful,full live,(life) fill lives ~ (life) to do the uncomplete,the missed out, as accordingly in reality within one's reach,limit,able li ty. there where u're seeking, come with challenge,drive,emotion,love,passion,patience, sweat ,tears ,pain ,smile fear ,anger , companion ,team work, trump , etc etc, all that u find in life,in this world and beyond.this is something i looking at, is this perfection.?. Should try use a book,file to write down every bit of the above mention with action. And the out come. The whole picture ,the moment.the feeling , Etc .level of goal. High then lower as we grow old. Set a goal at very high level,then attain/achieve it,got the self satisfaction, aspiration done. Set the next as per se, when young. Keep going till u aged. Then ? Keep some ,lose some, maintain some. What next ? U grow older, then older another 20~30 years. Then ? What next ? Death ! Then ? What after death ? Then…

Goal /success is the process of striving,the fire that burning within oneself not jus the ultimate win/goal. To travel thru life in the process of time (the moment) entering the passage of time. The action. That will turn to history in due time. A image to be remembered as life goes on non stop. Something to look back with pride maybe.…？ To be enlighten in life by your own live，soul,conscious,conscience ,experiences ,other people experiences , other than the Sun …！

You need to ve a conscious mind to live the life. It never goes wrong. Not those stupid action /satisfaction on impulsive wants. Remember to be intelligent. Stay intelligent in wat ever situation. Dat is the basis of life. Hah ! Profound ! Hah !! … ？

lol-ing at his lousy english, yeah? haha but hey, i have to say that, for someone with such fail english to be able to write this... it feels so much more real, someone who can't even write properly, trying to explain the feelings and dreams and experiences that people have in life. and yeah, it is inspiring, coming from someone who has about a hundred times more experience in life than me. :/ i guess, after all this, i'll still try to work towards a better life. sighhh. ain't as easy as it sounds though.

to be enlightened in life by your own life, huh.

thursday went to bbdc for basic theory evaluation. passed but no full marks D: praying for full marks for btt hehe ^^ after that went to cwp to buy bakkwa & swensen's chocolate ice cream cake for my brother's 22nd birthday. didn't remember his age so when the person asked 'how many candles?' i automatically said '19'. took 3 seconds to realise it was wrong and 5 seconds to count his age. says something about how insignificant he is in my life. though not like i know my parents' ages either... used to, but it changes every year so it's hard to keep track. ohwell.

friday i think i stayed at home? can't remember. saturday [yesterday] went for karoake with s77 friends =] teo heng ktv at sembawang shopping centre. yaye we split 9 people so it was $5.30 each, quite cheap :D people who went: me regina suat hazel teri jarin rhen esther bryan. after that me regina suat esther bryan went to eat dinner at aston's there. omg the food took a million years to be served. but yeah, ktv & dinner was fun =] yaye glad i went.

today is not a good day. my brother pissed me off in the morning and now my mum's pissing me off as well. i hate my family. uni hostel ):

LUNCH MOVIE POOL ARCADE DINNER. OHYEAH. LIFE IS GOOD. =]

think that pretty much covers everything :D met leon again today HAHA so fast right! i thought the next time we meet up would be like 2 or 3 months later. but he cheat one luh his sergeant gave him day off wth haha damn slack please. i bet he ask me whether i free cos he got no friends to go out with :P HAHA. cos like duh who has a random day off right. his guy friends will all be in ns and girl friends will all be in uni. anyway, went to marina square and ate burger king for lunch and talked about a ton of stuffs, then went up to see what movies there were. at first couldn't decide between sherlock holmes and contraband, but the timing of contraband was more convenient [cos there was an earlier show at 2.20pm so we could go watch and play pool & arcade later.] so in the end just watched that lor. not bad movie (: then played pool for like almost 1.5 hours LOL 3 games only! each game almost half an hour sia. quite fun omg i miss playing pool! but today very cui ): keep missing everything D: then after that played arcade. daytona, bishibashi, time crisis 3, and some drums thing which i totally failed at ): music & beat rusty liao. and don't have basketball there! ): but yayeee fun la :D then go eat dinner at yoshinoya HAHA anticlimax hor but nvm la it's cheap & aston's [which we considered] was kinda far. so yepp. and ughh the topshop at citylink like don't have much nice stuff leh ): haha k thats all. end of a good day (: leon paid for arcade & dinner then omggg i forgot to return him the money so now i owe him 10 bucks ): he ask me treat him kenny rogers ): HAHA no luh he just kidding duh.

and omg got some tuition assignment & i replied liao but shit i think they won't choose me cos i got 0 years of experience ): sucks la walao sian. ): how do people even start off like this? ughh.

this shall be a short post! mostly because i still have a lot of things to do. shitz.

monday i went to the bicycle shop to get my bike handle adjusted, but apparently the person said it couldn't be adjusted higher any more, so i bought a new one instead. it's blue and white and huge. seems quite okay so far, just a normal mountain bike lor. cycled home on it [whereas i had to walk the old bike there cos the handle was too low to cycle even a short distance.], and then hung around at home waiting for my mum to come back from shopping, before i wanted to go out cycling again. my mum didn't think of it that way, so she was angry with me for not showered and everything. somehow she just nagged a lot which really pissed me off so i just went out to cycle anyway. had quite an okay ride (: cycled around the hill and neared woodlands mrt, then cycled back to marsiling mrt and to woodlands town garden, where i took a few pretty pictures [only cos lomo makes the pictures pretty, otherwise i think they'd be quite ugly.] & hung around for a bit before taking the long way [around marsiling mrt] home, since the short way home involved a very steep slope which i tried going up when i first brought the bike home, but failed ): mehh. ohwell good cycle anywayz.



tuesday [today] i woke up early and then went for lunch with my aunt at cityhall. ate at this place called potato depot. the food was not bad but somehow because i ordered salmon there were bones inside which made me really upset ): should have ordered beef or chicken or anything but salmon. bleh.

after that i went to kino at orchard to look for books! (: I FINALLY GOT THE DEAD OF THE NIGHT BY JOHN MARSDEN! :D YAYE. BUT DAMN IT I DON'T SEE WHY KINO DOESN'T HAVE DARKNESS BE MY FRIEND!!! UGH. ): IF I CAN'T FIND IT AT KINO, WHERE ELSE CAN I GET IT IN SINGAPORE! ): no more borders now somemore. mehh ): saddd face. i want darkness be my friend. SOMEONE FIND FOR ME PLEASE. ): anyway, also considered buying deathnote #4 but omfg if i did i'd have been freaking broke cos i already bought 2 books, so i didn't. i swear, these are the times when restraining myself from buying things make me feel so proud of myself later on, because i am definitely not a person who waits for books that i want. ohwell i'll get it next time after i get my first paycheck (:

went home after that. couldn't find the magazines/books that i was supposed to get from the store at marsiling mrt. ughh. will have to go popular to get them tomorrow. ohyeah and me & tamaryn have decided to become camera buddies! :D will take our dslrs out together & go pretty places in singapore to take tons of photos (: YAYE. i have awesome friends (:

after i got home, busied myself registering as a tutor online, so hope i can find a tutee soon! :/ will have to mug secondary school stuff again TT.TT jeez and i thought i could have a full 7 or 8 month break from studying at least. but neverminddd it's fine. studying secondary school stuff will be NOTHING compared to studying for a's. i swear. it's like going backwards, back to kindergarten or smth haha.

and YAYE today ends on a good note because leon asked me if i'm free for lunch tmr!! (: lol he's freaking slack luh his sergeant gave him a day off. wth ns can like that meh! haha. but whatever cos we're gonna play pool go arcade watch movie tmr [if we have time to do all that plus lunch in one afternoon] WAHAHAHA i have a life. (: and a good one, at that. [except that i'll become even more broke after that =x ohwell. i'll just have to throw my first few months of paychecks back into my savings to make up for all the lost money these few weeks/months :/]



lol shit this is totally not a short post. zzz. can't wait for tmr :D

and did i mention 28th is a crazy day. morning got dental, afternoon to evening got 2 gatherings clash ): 10s77 class gathering before the guys go into ns & fuchun cny gathering at sherilyn's, the usual. and omg UGH gonna have to give the 10s77 gathering a miss cos 1) east coast park is FREAKING FAR from woodlands, 2) there's seriously no point going there for only 1 or 2 hours, if my traveling time is more than 2 hours & 3) my mum will probably disapprove of s77 gathering more, since it's at ECP while fuchun gathering is like 3 blocks away from my house. WHY MUST MY GATHERINGS CLASH & WTF START AT SAME TIME SOMEMORE BOTH 4PM AND I'M QUITE SURE END AROUND SAME TIME ALSO, LATE AT NIGHT OR SMTH. WALAO EH SIAN MAX PLEASE. no one's fault la, just... coincidence lor. ohwell i've already decided anyway, no point regretting anything. :/ SIGH. will just have to take more photos with the guys after they go camp & become botak lo. and meeting weilun [& kevin & regina] on 29th so that's like seeing 1/4 of the guys going into ns lor. haha. [since weichuan's in already & kevin's malaysian.]

omfg totally not short post kk off to do work liao.

went for lunch with jac jes wanyee & darice today at amk hub pepper lunch (: wahh really very long never see them liao. but our outing was so short! ): ohwell. photos are with jes! (: after that i walked around amkhub with darice for a while before taking mrt back to woodlands. went cwp to buy stuff. ohyeah i bought rings for myself yayeee :D very colourful de HAHA. a bit thin but whatever la i like the colours mah. got this nice nice blue & this somewhat rainbow thingy PRETTY STUFF. after that, cos i didn't want to pay the stupid fees for a single mrt stop trip, i walked home. and LOL met duncan near cwp there! he was walking towards cwp. anw, 1st question - duncan: 'where you going?' me: 'home.' then we sort of nodded and continued on our opposite way, then suddenly he was like 'eh jane!' so i turned back & 2nd question - duncan: -brush hand through hair- 'ahbeng anot?' HAHAHA OMG RETARD SIA HAHAHA. okay la his hair quite ahbeng la hahaha ohwell.

when i got home i was thinking about my bicycle so i asked my dad about adjusting the handle, but apparently we don't have such a huge spana [spanner], so my dad told me to take it to the bicycle shop. ohyeah did i mention. that day i already unscrewed the seat bolt & got my brother to adjust the seat so that it's higher now so yaye (: anyway, later on i pumped air into the tyres so now just left the handle lor. shall go tomorrow to get it adjusted (: and to get the stand fixed in as well cos our bicycle has no stand ): apparently it broke off last time. so like now if i wanna stop it/ leave it somewhere need to dump the whole thing on the floor. mehh. tomorrow go repair! hopefully it'll be in almost perfect condition after that then can cycle around again YAYE (:

anyway, yesterday i finally used the camera again in a long long time just to play around. random photos here cos i don't see the point of uploading these on facebook. these are super long ago shots:




and photos of myself cos i was testing the lighting and stuff but i like the photos leh LOL so upload here lor.

ohyeah i was supposed to mention this after a's but i somehow forgot about it.

of all the people who wished me luck for a's, i would particularly like to thank: engway tamaryn kiatlong kaien and geri. these are the people who are not even from my class and possibly don't even know me well, but still wished me/us all the best for a's. all the unexpected people whom i missed out ):



other than that... ohyeah LOL i think leon is like a good luck charm manz. the day after meeting up with him, something good happened to me :D yaye :D hahaha. okayokay need to do work now. mehh. laterz.

i think it's been a long time since i last blogged!

just to cover what has happened these couple of days real quick,



1st jan i didn't do anything and new year was spent at home. can't remember if i went out on 2nd or 3rd, but 4th was spent out with regina kevin & weilun at universal studios singapore :D had an amazing time there riding roller coasters and experiencing 4d shows. also rode what i think is my first carousel in my life. haha (: ohyeah and i saw sonshine bboying there with other dancers! omg haha totally unexpected. i didn't know he worked there! but the dance there quite lame luh, not proper dance lor. anyway, ate at vivo food court with regina & weilun before going, then at burger king with all of them after we got out of sentosa, before finally taking the mrt home with weilun & regina. i will miss them :'( can't wait for starbucks meeting [weilun owes us all starbucks cos he didn't pay for his hotel stay after prom that day!] with them ^^



5th was again spent slacking at home, and then 6th was finally the 4d3n fuchun chalet! (: (: met ken & mx at marsiling mrt [we were all late LOL] before going woodlands mrt to meet yh & then taking bus to pasir ris & walking to downtown east & booking in. first time booking stuffs under my name. then we checked in & tingwei came while mx went to check in for his sister at pasir ris chalet haha quite amusing (: they wanted to go wild wild wet once before going on sunday actually, but we didn't in the end. rented the bikes, parked the 2 extras for kc & dunc, then cycled around pasir ris park & went to the playground :D after that finally went back to the chalet for dunc to dump his stuff, and ate dinner at the foodcourt at downtown east. then hung around the chalet waiting for kc to come before we finally started night cycling around 11pm (:

LONG ROUTE AHEAD, cos we cycled from pasir ris park to changi village to east coast park's macs which is all the way inside. of course, we had many issues on the way, such as kc not being able to catch up with us & his pants ripping [okay embarrassing for him shan't say further] & mx who was being a retard by cycling with one hand & panicking which caused him to get a veryvery serious injury. super deep cut on his ankle plus sprained ankle :O he seriously just 逞强 please, cos after we reached macs, then kc & yh took cab back [yh had stuff on in the early morning so she had to get back earlier and it was almost 5am already, and kc definitely couldn't cycle back cos of his pants & too tired.] but mx insisted on cycling back with us. of course, on the way back, we had complications as well, such as mx half-dying such that dunc had to carry him on upslopes and stuffs, and tingwei being super exhausted as well. i've seriously neverrr cycled with so many casualties & half-dying people before :O new experience. but dunc really quite (y) haha carry mx like i dunno how many times.

our super long journey took approximately 10 hours, from about 11pm to 9.15am, and we cycled for around 9 hours since we had breaks and stuff. our bikes had to be returned by 10am, so we were a bit early but better early than late (: spent the 15bucks of bike rental well, i'd say (: [plus the trip that the few of us had to pasir ris park before dunc & kc came, quite worth it really!] i've really never went for night cycling like this haha but it was fun! (: yayeee. of course, all of us super shag by the end of it, just slept through the late morning/early afternoon, including yh who came back around 11 plus. only sherilyn kept awake cos she just arrived on saturday 7th jan.

after everyone had some sleep, we went to buy the bbq stuffs around 3-4pm and started the bbq around 5 plus and ate! (: yaye bbq was not bad i guess but i wasn't feeling very social somehow. ohyeah forgot to mention that someone pissed me off during the chalet. ohwell. can't remember what we did after bbq. go back to the room & sleep? haha something like that i think. ohyeah tingwei went back after that. and 8th jan sunday was spent doing almost nothing. seriously. cos mx's leg was injured so we couldn't go wild wild wet & we couldn't play much games either since he couldn't really move. plus later on when we went for lunch it was raining so :/ ohyeah i saw zhengxiang at downtown east that day. and other hwachong people including this guy who lives in woodlands but i dunno his name. lol. anw, mx's family [parents & his lil sister] came to pick him up & bring him home afterwards. and LOL at the toothbrushes cos we were all using the same toothbrush [systema] but of different colours - mine was light blue, mx's green, ken's dark blue & apparently dunc said he also had one orange one. lol max please. & when mx's sis was packing his stuff for him, she was asking which toothbrush was his cos they were all the same hahaha (:

after that in the evening before dinner sherilyn & kc went back as well cos they had school the next day. mehh D: sent them to the bus stop, then we were left with me yh ken dunc. ate dinner at justacia then walked to white sands to rent movies to watch overnight. halloween & alex rider stormbreaker. halloween was really m18 sia. alex rider i don't really know how was it cos i fell asleep halfway. too tired liao. the next day was 9th jan and last day of chalet and we all took really long to wake up & pack up but finally done & ate brunch/lunch at white sands' manhattan fish market [had offer! :D], then we [excluding dunc cos he had another 3d2n chalet LOL.] took the mrt home & i slept all through the journey (: got home, showered, washed clothes, ate dinner, then read my book on my bed & finally went to sleep around 9 plus pm cos i was so damn tired.



10th jan stayed at home like a good kid and did nothing. 11th jan was the same. of course, 9th & 11th jan were my parents' birthdays so i got to eat cake cos my dad bought for my mum on 9th (: then 12th, which is today, was supposed to be a quite sian day cos i was supposed to be at driving centre the entire day for lessons & practice, but then in the morning leon smsed me to ask if tonight was okay for dinner, so YAYE :D first lesson was kinda boring, second lesson was more informative and helped me to get through quite a number of questions on my practice test. practice test was okay, nothing much, just a ton of questions to do lor. after everything it was about 4 plus and not raining, so i walked to the mrt & took a train all the way to yishun.

walked around & shopped & bought bermudas at northpoint, then met leon [in his army uniform haha] at the jap foodcourt-like place & ate dinner. omg dunno how long it's been since i last saw him sia. feels like very long ago cos i can't really remember. was it the time we met up to go library? cos that was before start of j1 for me which is like 2 years ago which is crazily long ago :O or was it the time i went to his jc for open house? i can't even remember which is earlier. the open house should be later i guess. but anyway, haha he seems about the same as ever i guess.

talked a LOT about a lot of things and i dunno why but somehow it's just damn easy to talk to him. [kinda like the sort of way i want it to be between me & chewlin but i don't think it's like that between us anymore now :/] after dinner, we just walked around northpoint & talked some more and i swear it's really damn fun talking to him haha i don't know why either. he's such a little kid pleaseee haha. but yeah, he still feels like an older brother plus good friend to me (: i guess mostly because he's a year older than me & advises me on stuff which makes him like my senior but more like an older brother since senior seems more distant, and also cos we can talk about a lot of stuffs which makes him a good friend. LOL what am i talking about huh. i guess that just means that he's a really awesome cousin (: after walking around for a long long time around northpoint & golden village cinema & the pasar malam there, we finally went homeee. (: next time we meet up we're gonna go arcade & watch movie manz!! :D



so basically, i've had a really awesome time ever since the start of the year! (: i would just like to add this to my uhh resolution/wishlist? whatever you call it. list of wishes & things to do & keep in mind.

for this year and all the years to come, i would like to keep the people i love closer to me and know and understand them better because i want to appreciate their presence and because i don't want to lose them, especially not in the midst of another bout of effed up exams that i will probably be going through again in uni.

for the end of a year filled with everything from hanging out with awesome people, studying and stressing out like a crazed piece of shit, getting through a's, partying, going broke, drinking alcohol, laughing, crying, chatting, and having a ton of fun amidst stupid examinations, i just wanna say how thankful i am for my friends this year, espeically yiinghuey cryst regina weilun sarah[didn't mention her on fb cos she got no fb ):] mark kevin kc and moar =] thankyou ♥ also hoping that more people will re-enter my life more often next year, specifically chewlin wanyee jes jacq leon and moar i guess. happy new year guyz.

my hopes for the year ahead: a year filled with things, events and people i love.