i know torturing myself won't help to solve anything, but i still do it anyway. need a way to make myself feel the pain literally, cos i guess that would make me feel better.
signing out.
8:15 PM
stop asking me if i'm okay! i'm not, but i'm not going to say that right! every time someone asks if i'm okay, i feel like crying all over again. couldn't even say 'yes' when stanley asked me that, just nodded twice cos he asked twice, and then hurried to walk away so that no one would see the tears. ugh. if there's one more thing i hate about myself, it's that i cry too damn easily. cui shit. ugh. stupid girl. worst thing is that once again, scrolling through the contact list, i can't find anyone to talk to about this. jeez. it's like how come i seem to always be there for my friends and willing to spend my precious time listening to them and their troubles when they need someone, and yet there's no one to listen to my troubles? or is it just me? is it just that i really don't trust my friends enough to talk to them? too many questions. okay shut up and watch my drama to chill a bit before getting back to studying.
jane should shut up because her whining and crying is annoying. full stop and get your ass out of here.
signing out.
2:31 PM
we're all just here to pull each other up when someone needs help. this love, this bond, it's enough to keep us going. we're stronger than all of this shit.
signing out.
1:06 PM
