damn it. guys should stop treating me so nice sometimes ): it makes me miserable and really scared because i might misunderstand their intentions. hoping i'll wake up tomorrow and realize that this was all a dream and i can forget about everything. but somehow i doubt so. but if what i think really happens, i swear, coming here really has to be the craziest thing that i've ever done because it has only paid me back with more crazy things. and i really mean crazy. but it's not like it's something bad, because Jane needs something crazy in her life anyway. but seriously, this is wayyy too crazy man... so crazy that i will flip. thinking of so many possibilities, but honestly, if it goes this way, i swear, my whole life is gonna be doing a 180 degrees turn. and i'm not even kidding... i can feel my bros judging me already... sigh.
and how are things gonna work out?
we'll see.
only time will tell.
for now, i'm just going to TRY to get some sleep before all of this overwhelms me.
jeez.
signing out.
11:46 PM
